#ym:words

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how is it possible to feel like your heart is bursting and yet be completely at ease with the possibility of death from this feeling? 

i’m 2000000% sure that I’m embarrassing myself in public but

oh

♡

where’s the nearest rock i can hide under?!?!? 笑

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spent the night eating 2000yen worth of chocolate on my own and washed it all down with half a bottle of wine

it has been a good night

happy spring to you too

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もう限界です。

寝るわ。

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it’s the 3rd anniversary of my friend’s modern kimono design label, and i had the honor of helping him to model his designs back in the day.

i’m a little homesick tonight. 

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drink drank drunk

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I haven’t slept in a proper bed for most of the past week, this weekend included. Don’t see that changing in the upcoming month, I think. Been mostly crashing on my work desk or the sofa in the office at the gallery... and two nights ago I crawled out from under my desk in the morning and scared the shit out of the gallery manager 笑 My schedule has been more like a 9am to 3am in the studio -> Nap -> Resume work -> Maybe head home for a shower and a nap -> back to the studio -> 9am to 3am -> ... on repeat.

I’m working on something really big that I’m this close to being able to announce to everyone. I’m so so so so excited about it; and I hope everyone can enjoy it too once it comes to fruition. I’ll sleep when I’m dead. 

That said, it also just means that I haven’t seen @kntaro in a long while, and just today, just today, after a week of backaches from weird sleeping positions and too many cups of coffee, I’m going to allow myself to be just a little bit whiny about it. うん。じゃあ。会いたいな。

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it’s midnight, and i’m reading about zeno’s dichotomy paradox and wondering 

if we’d ever be able to truly reach another person

physically or emotionally. 

even if the little boat keeps moving, keeps moving, keeps moving against the rough tides--

would i ever be able to reach the lighthouse? 

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it seems that although i decided to move to tokyo all i have been doing is escaping it whenever possible.

最低だな。

but i think i need to think about this from a distance.