#yournotebook

[chalk-reverie]

A Riddle

She exists

Between my name that wasn't often use

She exists

In every song, in everything

An eternal feeling when everyone manage to seek it

Who is she?

....

- A riddle -

I always do remember her. She had me on her worst and on her best days, but she ignores it. I have given my heart for her to keep, and a friend indeed. I could be yours for ever if you ask, i could be a stranger too. You made your choice, I made mine too.

I missed you so much. Now that you're gone, even my poems search for you. Everynight, I am trying to find you, in sheets, your familiar warmth. Your voice, like a wind chimes my ears want. A beat in every rock song played, you heart is all that I hear.

Little hugs and holding hands, I assert you to keep you safe and sound like a song we used to play. Brush your hair, saying goodbye, that all that is.

I see you as a photograph, I choose to carry you with as I look forward. I see you as a star, faintly winking above the dark sky.

I see you as you, the Joy in my heart.0.

I have forgiven you, so please forgive me.

I still love you.

My Joy.

[chalk-reverie]

I won't give and get shit from you anymore. I will then avoid any toxic conversations with you and thought of something else.

I realized being with you sucks my soul; it destroys everything that I created. I should avoid drama from now on. I'll move on.

Stop thinking about it. Please...

[junsuxout]

Your Notebook [Seunghyun & Junsu]

The last two days he held Seunghyun's notebook with him as the man forgot it on the kitchen table, desperately waiting for the man to have it picked up. He's afraid the man gets angry at him because he touched it, but he didn't wanted to let other people see it, wanted to hide the man's pride, so he took it with him and kept it safe. Right now he's trying to find the man as he didn't came to find Junsu, doesn't know what he's doing and guesses he wants the book back as it seemed as something very important to him. He shuffles through corridors and different places in their camp, searching for the man inside their border as he's afraid to get out that. It's getting harder as the sun starts to set and he sighs, but keeps on wandering around. He maybe should stay in the kitchen as he knows Seunghyun will come eventually, but Junsu already stayed there for one day, waiting for the man, but he didn't came, so now he thought it would be smart to find him. It's his clumsiness that comes up again as he almost falls over his own feet, the floors not that even here anymore and the notebook shakes in his arms, takes him some spazzing movements to keep it there. He hears a soft sound of paper hitting the floor and he tries to find where it comes from. A photo laying with the picture side down on the floor and Junsu makes a face of horror, embarrassed by himself that this could happen as he knows the photo fell out of Seunghyun's notebook. He picks it up, turns it slowly around as he's curious to see what's on it. It's clearly Seunghyun, smiling with a pretty girl next to him. That must be his girlfriend, as she doesn't look at all like the man. He stares at it for a moment, finds it interesting to see the smile on Seunghyun's face and it makes him give a tiny smile at his own face as well. He reminds himself quickly he should return it and don't waste time, it's private and he shouldn't look at it. As he hesitates he opens the book randomly to place the photo inside it, so it will be safe again, but just as he does he hears footsteps behind him and looks startled behind him where the sound comes from. "I-it's not what it looks like!" He says without really knowing if that was Seunghyun coming closer.