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#there are so many things that are just. different. to consume since [everything]#saying this as my body and mind are fighting for their lives due to such [everythings]

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#................................................................................................#this comparison now exists outside of just my brain

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#the only comment I feel equipped to make at this time is it is surreal that it exists

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#...UHHHHHHHHHHHHH... they made a HR TV SHOW ... on HBO??!!!!!!!!!!!!?????????????????... ???#does that mean it might actually be good??#im gonna be sick ....#i cant watch this please make sure i never watch this #(am I in a new enough place in my life that I can risk ruining the book?)#i cannnnNNNNNNOTTTTTT believe this is happening

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#my life’s been so soapy this year that whatever I was (/ would currently be) up to here provides so little entertainment value in comparison #it’s all I ever wanted 🥹#when they talk about past/present/future selves #life starts feeling so expansive when:#you stop thinking you know yourself well enough to predict what’s in store #you always opt to leave the house and always opt to say yes #and instead of believing yourself to have fixed habits and preferences and beliefs #you consider nothing immutable #then the drama writes itself

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#oh god…. ***** is even more Shane than I even knew and becomes even more Shane by the day 😅😅#✨ converted night shift back to dst ✨#and despite it all I predictably still need a ********* more than ever 🥰

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#its been 5 yrs and only lasted 2 but it felt so much bigger and im still scarred from the shame LOL #but i have a handful of great drafts i really should have posted ... hahaha ..... .. haha..

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#Shane and Ilya to keep sane this week ✨🥹

you know me, i simply cannot get enough of a densely layered plot built on years of trauma where everyone fails to recognize (or ask) enough about what the people they love are dealing with to preempt further damage because they’re so caught up in their own suffering and everyone continues to double down to make everything worse by hurting each other more deeply and everyone is wrong but also justified and then feels isolated and unloved and really really upset

#and the drama is complex enough that the average viewer loses any sense of nuance #yeah this is about ballum #although i also got updated on ethans sl last nigh and like .. hm.#had a much needed 3 min power nap to recover from last nights soap binge and now im revving for more #im starting to miss my life and it will likely only get worse from here yikes being ******** is so inconvenient

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#not saying I’m not grateful for the abundance of hockey teammate romances but Where Are The Baseball Ones

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#finished tlg feel empty again

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#rookie shane is v*****#grown shane is sh****#.............................

ED’s writing has gotten so sloppy and incoherent it’s a travesty

#want to watch Ethan’s sl but the rhona stuff is such a mess?????#I was so devoted bc they wrote such tight scripts and sl’s ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ rip

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#AV Is Shane.. things will never be the same……..#Trying to delete my brain

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