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this is a 18+ only, minors dni!! I myself am 22 ftm

[acid-on-the-rocks-please]

Hello! This is my intro post

My name is Kory, I use he/him pronouns exclusively. I am pre op and over a four years on t. I'm fine with any and all terms for my clit (the more degrading the better). But i prefer my chest to be referred to solely as my "chest."

I am not quite a virgin, but when I had all of my previous sexual experiences, I was on a metric fuck ton of antidepressants. So, I'm relearning my body again. (Now that it can actually feel things).

Please send masturbation instructions! I love the idea of strangers on the internet telling me how to touch myself. I will always report back once I complete your instructions. It just may take me some time to complete them : P. I'll cum (lol) up with a tag for those posts when I need to.

I'm a big stoner, I'm high most of my free time. I'm also a total masturbation addict. I cum at least once a day. Maximum *six times in a day. Coincidentally, my biggest kink is orgasm denial. So if anyone feels like helping me with that...

Hard Limits - scat, vomit, gore - impregnation (triggers dysphoria for me) - incest

Biggest Kinks - Denial, Chastity, Edging. (1000/10, drives me crazy) ((permanent orgasm denial is soooo hot)) - Dom/Sub dynamics. (I'm a chronic people pleaser. This ties in well)

Mild Kinks - Humiliation. (this is a new one for me, im experimenting with it) - Anal only - Tickling? maybe? - Pee holding/desperation? (sloooowly growing on me. - Ruined orgasms - Forced orgasms/overstimulation (preferably while you can't escape)

*just recently beat my record and had six orgasms in one day

[acid-on-the-rocks-please]

Denial diary August 12, 2026

I have been ruining all my orgasms for twenty-seven days now. I try and edge before all my ruins, but the amount of edges i manage before i accidentally ruin has been shrinking. Lately i’ve only been able to edge for about ten minutes before i end up with a ruin.

This is my longest ruin streak ever, which im very proud of. But i’m kiiiinda cheating? I’m exclusively using the womanizer toy to masturbate, which uses air pulses instead of vibrations. My regular orgasms with this toy are pretty much painful (in an overstim kinda way). So every time i tip over the edge, just as my climax starts, i get super sensitive and pull the toy away. I probably would have cum weeks ago if i’d been edging any other way.

What i wanna work on next is, edging without ruining. Because i can’t just edge, and then stop. If I’m edging, i edge until i accidentally ruin (cause i have no self control, lol).

After i ruin, i have a bit of a refractory period, where i can’t reach the edge easily. My t-dick is also very sensitive. But one of these days, once my brother is back at school, I’m going to see how many times i can ruin in a row.

Some of my ruins ive had a plug in my ass, or a lush vibe in my front hole. Those have been interesting. Especially the ones where the vibe keeps going inside me after i stop t-dick stimulation. I can’t cum without my t-dick, so theyre ruins. but theres still some muted pleasure that occurs.

Below are my stats, which I’ve been keeping track of (for the most part. Edges might be a little off). I kinda like the idea of being ruin only until my brother goes back to school, and then locking every single one of my toys in a chest for months. Idk. 🤷‍♂️

i have too much reliance on my toys, so i feel like it would be good for me to practice analog masturbation. And going from denial to analog might help me cum easier. (I also don’t know when my brother leaves, so it’s kinda a mystery for me when i’ll cum again). I also forgot to take my T shot this week, so i might be even less horny than i could be.

All in all, i don’t want to cum. I edge easier when im ruin only. But my ruins are definitely getting worse. Im a big fan, highly recommend.

Feel free to send asks about my denial, and I’ll answer as soon as im able : )

Stay denied, stay horny, peace out.

Denial stats

[acid-on-the-rocks-please]

As you asked for instructions in your pinned post:

While you edge, repeat the phrase: “I don’t deserve to cum”

If you end up going over. Or if you feel like you’re too close:

Hands off of yourself.

If you’re willing to (didn’t see this in either the kinks or limits and I don’t want to assume) give yourself a little pain as sort of a punishment - you’ll need to wear a loose rubber band over your wrist beforehand, and if you do end up going over the edge pull it back and snap it against the back of your wrist

Grab whatever’s at your side with both hands like the arms of a chair, the sheets on the bed. Grasp it hard - the idea here is to change your focus abruptly

Okay, so... for context, i locked up all my vibrators in a chest with a timer that will only unlock in three months. That was about a month and a half ago. So for a while, i was analog only, just my fingers (and dildo or anal plug). THEN, i remembered I had an old massage gun under my bed. So... for the past few days ive been going crazy with the damn thing, cumming like three times a day.

however! earlier today i rolled a 100 sided die to determine how many edges i'd do. I edged like 21 times before ruining. (i promised myself i'd ruin and i stuck to it!) I took a break to let my massager recharge and to eat.

I remembered this ask when i came back for round two. So i rolled another d100 and got 41. i put my prostate plug in and I edged 41 times (fast, short litttle edges with the machine, almost riding the edge). at first i was just whispering, "I don't deserve to cum," over and over again. then it became, "i don't deserve to cum, i only deserve ruins." there was some, "edging is a privilege" in there too.

i didn't stop at 41.

Every time i hit my goal, i wanted to keep going, i needed more. So i rolled again, 60. i hit that quickly. then 53. then i rolled 74. I started saying, "i don't deserve to cum," right after i pulled the vibe away. (i think i started internalizing it)

my massager turns off after ten minutes. I started at level 5 (out of 30) then when it turned off, i went down to 4, then 3, until i hit 1. then i started going back up again, ten minutes on each level. I made it up to... level 3? I think. I ruined somewhere around the 46th edge out of 74. it was completely accidental. I pulled off as soon as i started to cum and it it me like a truck. do you ever edge for so long a ruin feels better than an orgasm? i think that's what happened to me.

I'm still a little cumdrunk rn, and i'm still watching porn as i write this, but i'm letting my massager cool down before i decide if i want to keep going. But this was an amazing experience, i probably went for like... two hours (give or take) and i definitely lost track of how many edges i did because my brain got so fuzzy and foggy.

I didn't end up doing the rubber band thing because i was too lazy to go find one. But this was so fun, i love edging, i dont deserve to cum, i wish i could never cum again, just edging forever and ever. Thanks for the ask!

[acid-on-the-rocks-please]

I am 8 days ruins only! It’s been over a year since I went longer than a couple days without cumming, and i’m really proud of myself! It was easier than expected once I got going.

Now, i dont know if this is smart, or idiotic, but i accidentally conditioned myself to not like cumming. I have this clitoral sucker, and it’s way more intense than my vibrators. it could get me off way better than anything else i own, but the orgasms were always nigh painful. It was like i was giving myself a forced orgasm.

So, now, i don’t want to cum! Or, i’ve tricked myself into being scared of cumming. I still ruin all the time, so that’s the next thing i have to work on. I haven’t felt as pent up like i was expecting to, so the next step is figuring out how to edge without ending in a ruin.

I just wish i had someone to make my desperation worse!

Track my progress!

[acid-on-the-rocks-please]

Okay… so maybe i had 8 ruined orgasms yesterday, but I’m handling the denial totally fiiiiine

[acid-on-the-rocks-please]

I am 8 days ruins only! It’s been over a year since I went longer than a couple days without cumming, and i’m really proud of myself! It was easier than expected once I got going.

Now, i dont know if this is smart, or idiotic, but i accidentally conditioned myself to not like cumming. I have this clitoral sucker, and it’s way more intense than my vibrators. it could get me off way better than anything else i own, but the orgasms were always nigh painful. It was like i was giving myself a forced orgasm.

So, now, i don’t want to cum! Or, i’ve tricked myself into being scared of cumming. I still ruin all the time, so that’s the next thing i have to work on. I haven’t felt as pent up like i was expecting to, so the next step is figuring out how to edge without ending in a ruin.

I just wish i had someone to make my desperation worse!

Track my progress!

[anguissette-rivers]

This just in: replacing the word edge/edging with come/cumming. As in you have to be grateful cause you did just cum and thank him properly. You'll ask for permission to cum. And you will probably be allowed.

You'll have to be thankful for being able to cum, but never having an orgasm again.

[denial-switch]

Other possible replacements:

“Getting to come” = giving _me_ an orgasm.

“Getting to come” = faking an orgasm

In all cases, the goal is to simply forget about other possibilities and removing them from your language. While still getting her horny and letting her cum and be satisfied just like in any normal relationship.

[denial-switch]

After a while, you stop referring to her as “denied.” There’s nothing being denied. You have a fully active sexual life, where you both get excited, have sex, and orgasm just like you always do. One real, one fake.

[acid-on-the-rocks-please]

Need someone to hold me on their lap with my back pressed to their chest. His arms around my waist, pinning me in his lap. In my dreams, he’s bigger than I am, taller, broader. His arms are inescapable, but I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else.

He knows I’ve never done this before, so he starts off slowly. teasing kisses ghosting along my neck. He smiles when he catches my shiver. I imagine him teasing me, gently poking fun.

“you’re so sensitive,” he murmurs, breath hot against my ear.

I huff, and pout, and deny it, but we both know it’s true. We both know he’s the first one to touch me like this. And we both know i like it. I like the way his hands stroke my stomach under my shirt, the way he teases the waistline of my pants but doesnt slip under.

I’m impatient, i want more, but he knows better. He works me up slowly, he murmurs filth in my ear. Like how he’d pin me down, open me up, take his time, make me scream.

All the while, i feel his heat against my back, the strength in his muscles. I feel little. Helpless. I’m so close to begging for more, but i’m still holding onto my pride. He’s goading me and taunting me, slowly working me up even more.

It’s his voice that breaks me, that low rumble in my ear. Maybe i make him laugh. A surprised little thing, punched out of him like he wasn’t expecting it.

And my pride evaporates, i want him too much, i need him too badly. The dam breaks and i plead breathlessly for him to touch me.

But he just chuckles and touches me like i’m holy, and says, “patience.”

[hyenagirlpenis]

I just need to take someone malleable who loves getting off and train them into hating it through various regimens of association, reward, and repetition. Someone who really thinks they can resist but is actually more susceptible than they know to extended conditioning, until just hearing my praise or disappointment becomes more important to them than anything else. I'll have them begging not to cum before too long, no matter how much they used to want otherwise 🥰

[hyenagirlpenis]

Very important that once they're fully conditioned to only want edging and denial without resolution and certainly no overstimulation, then they have more forced finishing than they've ever had in their life. Only once they want nothing else less! 😍

[hyenagirlpenis]

So what if I can't stop thinking about the face you'll make once I finally get you to cum from nipple stimulation. What of it. Who cares that I can't begin to describe how much I want to see that shock and pleasure and disbelief in your eyes as I tease and play with your nipples until finally, after so much edging and buildup, you fall over the cusp? And all you can do is stare down your body, as I play with those sensitive, aching tips, and watch the deep, hard clenching turn into waves of throbbing that coalesce and burst in your core, the handsfree finish so delicately breaking over you? So what if I think about that constantly and would tie you up for hours if given the chance to make it happen?! Like it means anything!! 😤

[hyenagirlpenis]

You're awfully excited to cum, but what makes you think you aren't going to end up regretting this? You cumming is for my entertainment, not your pleasure. I'm going to find the most uncomfortable, painful, upsetting way to make you finish over and over until you beg to stop cumming. I'll record your sniffling, whining voice saying it clearly to play back to you any time you start complaining about being edged after this. I'm telling you all of this up front, and you're still going to do it, aren't you? You're so desperate to cum, you'll agree to anything? You will? Good. That's what I thought.

[hyenagirlpenis]

It's really a game to me. What will you do? How low will you fall? Can I make you jerk off in this alley, just barely out of sight, just to feel a little pleasure? Will you beg to cum in exchange for standing privileges and spend all day on your hands and knees tomorrow? How's ten ruins, twenty, thirty, for one hands-on? It'll be in the backyard. You have to bark like a dog. You'll do it? Of course you will!

[hyenagirlpenis]

Love a cute little pet who happily barks like a dog. But what I really enjoy is cajoling or coercing someone who feels so far above that shit that they'd never do something so stupid and demeaning, bullying and pushing them, cornering them, teasing and taunting, until finally, they agree to do it. And that first little shaky, utterly human-sounding "arf arf" or "bark bark" that comes out? The way they can't maintain eye contact for it? The waver in their voice as they finally cave and use their magnificent capacity for speech to bark like a dog for me? The shame and humiliation as I laugh at them anyway? That moment is perfection.

[hyenagirlpenis]

Grinding to finish is so fun, it feels amazing, you should try it. You've never gotten it to work before? That's okay, just keep trying. I promise, it feels so good, it'll blow your mind, you just have to keep humping. Just keep grinding. Just keep humping. Maybe you should just get off less overall to make you more desperate, that'll help it along. No, I promise it's so worth it, just keep going. Keep grinding and humping, just keep trying. You have to want it. It'll feel so good, you want it, don't you? Of course you do, you look so happy like this. I'm sure you'll get there soon. Just give in to how good it feels and keep humping.

[hyenagirlpenis]

You're there? You're gonna cum? Don't stop! There it is, just let it out and hump and rub and grind through it. God, you look perfect like this. No, no, you have to keep going, right? Because it was such a delicate, low-touch finish, you should overstim at least a little. Doesn't that feel so good? Yeah, it was a lot of work but it pays off. You're not sure you liked that? You want more touch? No, I think you just need to keep trying. Just cum like this again, and you'll start to see. Just do it again, and again. Definitely don't touch and get off in-between tries, being a little pent up helps! And you look so good humping things any chance you get, so needy and desperate. Don't you love how sensitive you are now? Yeah, you just gotta keep trying.

[dumb-little-puppy-boy]

i really just need someone to fuck my anxiety away right now

please pin me to the bed and use me until i can’t think anymore o(TヘTo)

[bonez-and-gutz]

having a degradation kink is so insane. i was having a hard time verbalizing what i wanted because he called me a “poor little thing” and instead of letting me recover, he doubled down: “god, i can’t believe you like being talked down to. that’s pretty fucking pathetic, only sluts like to be treated like this.” and then istg my eyes glazed over and i was GONE

[sunsexanddrugs]

shy boys are so fuckin cute. boys who don't know where to put their hands when we're making out, boys who get embarrassed cus they're letting out dirty noises. boys who cover their face when you're fuckin them and squeal when you pin their hands down so you can see all the cute expressions they make. boys who try to stay silent when they cum, but can't help whining when i don't stop pounding him

[ivyrotica]

faux sympathy is actually evil.

you’re ruining me, i’m shaking, barely coherent, and you have the audacity to say “i know, baby, it’s a lot, huh?” all sweet and condescending like yeah??? obviously??? but are you stopping? no :( you just keep going, all soft and sweet, acting like you feel bad while actively making it worse. it’s sick and i need more of it immediately.

[hyenagirlpenis]

Hiiii can I turn your brain off? I mean, turn your brain off? I mean, make you forget your own name? wait I mean make you into a body that feels and doesn't think? wait, I mean turn your brain off? I mean, melt away your resistance and make you want what I decide you want? I mean, erase you until there's just enough left to know something's changed? I mean–