He shook his head lightly, not very much or very fast for fear that his headache would only be worsened, but it was a silent dismissal of his best friend’s apology. He understood, knew what had to be done. And the stinging of his open wounds were nothing compared to what had already happened. He’d proven what he had to, right? That he could withstand it all in his loyalty to the Serpents. His mouth parted stiffly as he felt Archie bite the inside of his own cheek, but focused instead on the way the boy’s hands shook. He wanted to reach out, but he wasn’t so sure he would be any consolation just then.
“Yeah – it’s the last part of initiation,” he said flatly, eyes flickering back up to Archie’s. “I – I didn’t know … Not when I first decided,” he added, his expression almost imploring the other to believe him. It was true. He’d known in advance, but not when he had first walked into the Whyte Wyrm and voiced his intentions, not when Sweet Pea and the others had burst through his bedroom door with the beast. Only later, after he was too far along to want to turn back.
He should have said something.
Guilt over that would haunt him forever now, knowing that Archie had felt every blow in time with him. He scowled, eyes closing as his features became more tense, but he released it all with a soft breath. “I don’t want to - to lead them. But North Side and South Side are going to tear each other apart without him there …” So yes, that was what he was doing. He took another deep breath and felt a slight stab in his lungs. “I just need ice and rest, Arch,” he said, a little deflated. “Seriously,” he added, hand finally reaching up to touch the other boy’s arm. The pads of his fingers brushed gently over the material of his jacket before his hand locked around his arm loosely. “If it gets worse – I’ll go.”
Part of the initiation. These people beat their friends within an inch of their lives -- for what? Archie couldn’t imagine what it proved to them, and he felt sick thinking about it. He’d done what he could for Jughead’s face, aside from ice and a painkiller, and he would grab those as soon as he felt like he could let the other boy out of his sight for more than a minute without freaking out. So he let his hands drop back into his lap, and nodded once, signaling that he’d heard.
“I believe you,” Archie promised honestly, since that seemed to be what Jughead was looking for. And he did. Jughead might hide things, but Archie didn’t think he would ever lie directly to his face like that. Maybe to others, but not Archie. “Doesn’t matter, I guess. It’s your decision. All of it.” The redhead’s voice was dull; it had been a long day, and this conversation was one he’d hoped he wouldn’t have to have. “A heads-up next time you know you’re going to get the hell beaten out of you might be nice, though. That way I can make sure I’m not in public. Or, you know. Conscious.” He smiled, trying to tease and falling a little flat.
“Ice, yeah. And probably a pain killer.” Archie’s words were decisive, and gave him a purpose -- something to do with his hands. He patted the back of Jughead’s knuckles when he reached out, not wanting to pull away and damage anything that was so fragile between them, and squeezed his hand gently. “I’ll be right back.” He had a sneaking suspicion Jug was going to try to convince him to leave-- but Archie had his mind made up already, and he wasn’t going anywhere. Not that night, anyway. What if Jughead really was bleeding internally, and was alone when something went terribly wrong?
Archie put some ice from the freezer in a baggie, then wrapped it in a kitchen towel before filling a glass with water and finding a half-empty container of aspirin in the trailer’s kitchen. He carried it all back to the bedroom and gave it to Jughead, then settled back at the edge of the bed. “If this doesn’t work, I’ll drag you kicking and screaming to the ER,” he told Jughead stubbornly, still overly aware of the pain his best friend was in, thanks to feeling it in his own body.