Ai @ai-vix3n - Tumblr Blog

Does anyone live here anymore in the depths of my "sane" mind? Probably not but I came here to be on my bullshit again after a few years. 7 years ago I feel in love with this man, and as delusional as I was, and could very easily be again, he kept a piece of my heart. I think I'll always love this dork. A lot has changed since then but damn if that joy he brought me doesn't remain to this very day. I'm getting old and life hasn't been kind. I'm falling apart mentally and physically but at the end of it all at least your voice will still remain soothing me for the rest of my deteriorating life.

This man is Satan reincarnated. I swear to God he makes me feel so damn unholy and he is unholy. Pure fucking sin.

I've been keeping this shit a secret for years now and I just came out and said it publically af and nothing's happened yet. I feel relieved but also what's going to happen now? I feel like I'm going to get overly daring and be much more admitting about it. When is the point I cross the line and become bitter and start saying shit I shouldn't? Guess we'll find out.

galaxymagick

♡ jaehwan: → 15/∞

ai-vix3n

Just fkn kill me

himehimestar

Personal Shit

After today, I'm seriously considering seeing a therapist about my delusions. I'm just afraid that no amount of therapy would ever change anything so then I think, what's the point? Part of me and I mean most of me doesn't want to be fixed anyway. But then again I'm hurting so much and nothing rational is ever going to ease that.

I'm so stupid hurting over this. There's much more terrible things in this world and I'm hurting over dumb shit. I need therapy la la la la la therapy. Ottokaji my love? (Funny how those fit perfectly)...

jaehwanday

191026 Dracula Curtain Call

KENHANA | Do Not Edit/Logo Crop

andtosaturn

why do people always ask me if I’m okay when I’m lying on the floor. yes I’m okay. I’m living my best life. can’t a girl just lie on the floor and stare blankly at the ceiling listening to 1970s Swedish pop sensation ABBA sing Waterloo. I’m having me time

ai-vix3n

Me in 2003

Personal shit

Been slightly reckless with my emotions today, especially on social media. I hope it doesn't bite me in the ass. I don't really care right now honestly, been the most alive I've felt in a while.

I have never been more jealous of some pictures in my whole life 😍💔💗😭🥵🖤🧛‍♀️🧛‍♂️