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To fight for each minute is to fight for what is possible within yourself, so that your life and your death will not be like theirs. Kayla - 18 - multimuse indie rp side blog.

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            one of his best traits is the fact that he keeps his calm no matter what, he knows how to remain calm in every situation  &  especially when he’s lying. he thinks he’s being slick too, but little does he know.. ❛  me first kill..  ❜ reid hums thoughtfully, lips pursed as he tries to remember it  (  &  the worst thing is, — it’s harder than it should be ). ❛  ‘ye mean as in me first paid kill or just.. me first kill in general?  ❜ he asks then, his eyes shifting over from the television back to his husband. an eyebrow quirked. it’s a good question even if reid isn’t too fond of reminiscing.

             "since they’re separate the very first in general,” brighton said. his own first kill had been apart of work in a sense. it had been required to get them ready for it. brighton knew this wasn’t normal conversation but he had never expect a normal life nor a normal marriage though he had never expected to have a marriage to begin with. brighton rubbed the back of reid’s neck. “you can tell me, you’re not going to scare me away,” brighton whispered kissing reid’s cheek.

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    To her reason, Silas raised an eyebrow slightly in confusion and not really quite believing her. For him, that scream hadn’t reflected the fear of seeing a rat or something related, sounded different. “You sure? Want me to check ‘round in case there’s a rat?”

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   She had already been lost in her thoughts again still trembling. Her eyes floated up to him and his words were spoken in her ears like those said underwater. “Wha...oh yeah guess,” Kate nodded pulling her knees up to her on the bed. She felt blood leaking from the back of her head and near the scalp as her body began to adjust to the present but keep the wounds from the past. The pain started to shift inward. Kate brushed her hair forward to try and block the view of the blood that was rolling slowly downward.

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             ❛  aight, aight.. i believe ‘ye. it jus’ sounded like ‘ye were, tha’s all.  ❜ he gives in with a quiet chuckle. he still doesn’t believe his husband despite having said so, the doubts are clouding his mind but he lets it be. what happened in brighton’s past don’t matter anymore, whom he was or wasn’t in love with doesn’t matter. they matter, reid  &  him. digging up old memories of past events or past acquaintances doesn’t do any good nor will it benefit anyone. ❛  lucky fo’ th’ kid then, i s’ppose. he might ‘ave dodged a bullet right there, not t’ be mean or anythin’. ‘m sure gabriel would ‘ave been a great father, despite me not knowin’ ‘im personally.  ❜ the polish man shrugs again. though when he hears the first question, it makes him regret his decision already. he should’ve just came up with a short story of his childhood  &  hope that’d be enough for his husband but it’s too late now. ❛  i meant me brother. ‘ye know how me english is, i tend t’ confuse words. but ‘ve only got one brother.  ❜ he explains, blatantly lying to his husband’s face. thank god reid has always been a good liar though. ❛  ‘ye know ‘im already though, ‘ye ‘ave met ‘im too. — rhys, he’s younger than me ‘nd much grumpier but nice when ‘ye get t’ know ‘im. ‘nd he also looks nothin’ like me.  ❜

              he knew his husband was lying or at least sugar coating or only giving half the information, but he didn’t want to raise his doubts out loud. brighton rung his hands together nervously. he hadn’t liked conflict ever, he wished things were simply black and white a lot of the time, it’d make things easier. brighton listened and nodded and said, “okay then.” he switched from family to work and said blankly, “tell me the story of your first kill.” he wondered if that question was worse or better than his previous one in sebastian’s mind.

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“i can deny it all i want. whether or not i’ll be lying, though, is for me to know and you to find out.” he chuckles, scanning the street for signs of noah’s car. “you know what’s hard? the amount of effort it takes me not to constantly roll my eyes at – hold up sorry that comparison doesn’t make sense. i screwed up somewhere.”

noah laughed and said, “whatever i already know the answer.” noah pulled up to the curb hanging up and answered the last thing he’d heard the male say on the phone. “oh look boy genius finally screwed something up. now get in you whiner,” noah teased.

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“Well, you make me think that everything can be easy” he said smiling and looked at the pics, there wasn’t too much from the 34-year-old Silas in the 50-year-old Silas. “Oh, that hurt, I’m not that old, it was just… Sixteen years ago, not so long ago” he told her pretending he was offended.

She smiled up at him and leaned into Silas resting her head on his shoulder still holding Manu close to her chest. “You still look good maybe even a little better, I get you at your best,” Alexandra said pecking his lips gently.

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INSTRUCTIONS. you can tell a lot about a person by the music they listen to. put your mp3 player, itunes, spotify, etc. on shuffle and list the first 10 songs and then tag 10 people, no skipping!

TAGGED BY: @huntsmanindie

track one. Chocolate - the 1975 track two. Time of Our Lives - Tyrone Wells track three. Young and Beautiful - Lana Del Rey track four. Sweet Dream - Greg Laswell track five.  Can’t Help Falling in Love - Ingrid Michaelson track six. Fly with Me - Jonas Brothers track seven. To Build a Home - Cinematic Orchestra  track eight. Gone - Bebe Rexha track nine. Drifting Further Away - Powderfinger track ten. A Change of Heart - the 1975

TAGGING: @droppingpetals, @wxscott, and anyone else who wants to do it

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Finn let out a soft groan as Brighton crashed their lips together. He blinked up at Brighton and rolled his hips up a little bit, smirking up at him. “Yeah, fuck that,” he said, reaching up with the hand that wasn’t cupped to pull Brighton down into another hungry kiss.

Brighton moaned and kissed him back hungrily and rolled his hips back against Finn. Brighton whined softly and said, “Come on prove to me that you’re as good as you think and say you are,” Brighton bit Finn’s bottom lip.

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—That’s the only way to cope with this —He said before imagine a life like that, a couple years later they could have one baby of them—. They were very cute, take a look at that —Silas pointed one of the photos in the wall, the one that had a 34-year-old Silas and a 2-year-old Gabriele in Rome, where they lived for almost eighteen years.

"Well you know me, not exactly a pessimist but not the type to go off blind faith, too much of a problem solver.” Alexandra looked up at the wall and smiled, “Oh yes, very very cute,” Alexandra said. “You look cute too, very young,” Alexandra teased. 

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              ❛  hey, there ain’t nothin’ wrong wit’ bein’ in love wit ‘yer best friend! unrequited love ‘appens all th’ time. ‘m jus’ askin’ out of curiosity, i don’t care if ‘ye were in love wit’ ‘im or not. he sounds like he was a nice guy, it’d be completely justified if ‘ye were, ‘m jus’ sayin’.  ❜ he points out with another shrug. he really doesn’t care, brighton could be head over heels for his former best friend &  reid wouldn’t bat an eye. the man is long dead &  buried, not to mention reid has never understood the point of digging out the dead. figuratively speaking, of course. it’s a waste of time  &  thought. ❛  tha’s a shame. he coulda ‘ad it all, what wit’.. ‘ye know, kate ‘nd jackson. ‘nd th’ kid too. who knows what coulda ‘appened.  ❜ he shrugs again, lips pursed in thought. a chuckle rolls from between his lips though as he feels lips pressing against his defined jawline, fingers carding through his hair, all in attempt to get him to agree to sharing more of his past, it seems. ❛  gotta admit.. i quite like this form of manipulation t’ get me t’ do stuff fo’ ‘ye.  ❜ reid chuckled again  &  lets his husband’s lips wander, even craning his neck in order to expose more of it to him. ❛  i can’t think of any stories right now but.. ‘ow ‘bout ‘ye ask me questions of things ‘ye wanna know, hm? i’ll try ‘nd answer ‘em fo’ ‘ye.  ❜

               "i know that, and i know it’s common but that’s not how it was. obviously it was easy for us to fall for for each other, growing up around no one but each other. i mean it was that way for kate and gabriel and for ub and benji. but i wasn’t like that. i was like kate with jackson or peter and the girl he found in our traveling. i found the right place, or right time and found the person for me. you were my first and only love,” brighton told him. brighton nodded and said, “yeah, maybe who knows. he probably would have been such an over protective father, he was like that protective of everyone but himself,” brighton sighed. “well to a degree, he got us into trouble but he was always sure to get us out and keep himself in it,” brighton shrugged. brighton kissed further along his neck and hummed, “mmm...okay, tell me about your siblings, i mean you let it slip that you have a sister awhile ago and i know you have a brother too,” brighton says. “but you’ve never said very much about him either,” brighton says pulling away from reid’s neck for a short moment to look at his husband.

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            reid isn’t exactly sure whether or not does he believe his husband when he says that he hadn’t been in love with this gabriel. he doesn’t really see a reason why he’d lie, the guy was long dead &  buried as far as reid is concerned but there’s something nagging at him. a spark of doubt nagging at the back of his head, fueled by the way brighton keeps talking about him. like he’d hung the moon  &  put the stars onto the sky, he might as well been the sun himself.  —  but what does reid know? he has never seen how his husband has acted around him so he doesn’t know a thing. he can only make assumptions based on what he does know, not that he’d be too bothered by it if his suspicions would have been true after all. he’s the one married to brighton after all. not to mention, unrequited love for friends is common, reid has heard  (  he wouldn’t know, he doesn’t have any friends  ). ❛  was ‘is dead inevitable? i mean.. did he ‘ave t’ die in order t’ save ‘ye all? or was it more of an accident, jus’ happened kinda thang?  ❜ he questions. though hearing that kate &  jackson aren’t entirely sure of who is the father of their firstborn has reid’s eyebrows lifting ever so slightly, he wouldn’t have guessed. not that he’d know the pair very personally, he’s only met them a couple of times when he’d been forced to spend time with brighton’s friends. reid might not be good or the purest at heart but at least he’s trying to be better for him, he’s trying his hardest to be at least a mediocre husband. ❛  ‘ye can’t blame ‘im. he did what he thought was th’ best thing t’ do, even if it was based on poor judgement. i’d ‘ave done t’ same thing if i woulda been ‘im.  ❜ the polish man shrugs, his stormy hues shifting back over to his husband, an amused smirk curling onto his lips. ❛  ‘s hard t’ compete wit’ a story like tha’. ‘nd besides, ‘ye already know everythin’ there is t’ know ‘bout me.  ❜ it’s a blatant lie but what else can he say?

             brighton sighed and said, “trust me reid there was nothing there but brotherhood. gabriel wasn’t exactly hard to get into bed, but he was deeply in love with kate, i mean he slept with other people obviously but whenever she showed that slightest bit of interest he was like a puppy dog. when the whole jackson, kate, and gabriel threesome thing was going on it was weird but they were actually quite good together. kate and jackson both loved him, and i think gabriel loved kate and jackson, maybe not equally but still,” brighton shrugged. brighton thought over the next question. “maybe, i don’t know. i think he wanted things to end. who knows what the government would have done to him if he gave himself up, maybe he ended it on his own terms, maybe he just couldn’t get out in time.” brighton ran his fingers through reid’s hair and kissed his jaw lightly. “well of course my stories are best, but i know you have more than you’re telling me. i’ve just trusted you with deeply personal info about my best friends and my job which is top secret government info,” brighton grinned, “so give me one story, please?” he pleaded nuzzling against reid’s cheek and kissing his neck. 

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           ❛  thank ‘ye. it’ll be temporary, ‘ye can go back t’ ‘yer field work after givin’ birth ‘nd.. healin’ from it ‘nd all. if ‘ye want, of course.  ❜ he points out before falling silent to listen to his husband’s story. if reid could decide though, he’d have brighton staying home instead of hopping back  &  forth in time. who knows what can happen when he’s wherever  &  it’s the thought of not being able to protect him that causes him to feel uneasy, anxious even. perhaps that’s what love does, makes you worry for the people you care about.  &  it sucks, reid hates how much he worries about his husband’s safety, he hates how it seems to cloud his mind at the most inconvenient times. but he listens to brighton’s story anyway, fingers traveling up  &  down the man’s side, stormy blue hues directed towards the floor. he hadn’t known brighton’s former teammates personally, he barely even knows the current ones, but for once he feels truly bad for his husband, for what he’s had to go through. losing his friends, family like that. ❛  he sounds like he was a good person. ‘nd intelligent one too, standin’ against th’ government like tha’.  ❜ he comments once the man has told the whole story. it’s impressive, what gabe had done but there’s still one question nagging at reid in the very back of his mind. ❛  — were ‘ye in love wit’ ‘im? ‘m jus’ wonderin’, tha’s all. ‘ye speak of ‘im like he put th’ stars in th’ sky, like he woulda hung th’ moon.  ❜

            "yeah maybe but he went about it the wrong way, almost got us all killed, in the end though he stuck by us, accepted responsibility, just wish him accepting it hadn’t meant him dying.” brighton laughs a bit and shakes his head, “na, no not like that. he was my best friend, my brother, we shared everything. i loved him like family and i never really loved anyone romantically until you so, i loved him more than anyone ever until you came along, but it was a different love. gabriel and kate were a thing though. once upon a time, that was a mess. they were always flirting with the idea before he went on the anti government spree, but then he did and well that made it more complicated, so they were a thing but she didn’t want to do what he did. so she broke away stayed with us, met jackson while we were trying to stop gabriel. then that’s when things got complicated. we had to leave the time where we met jackson, gabriel wanted kate bad threatened kate with jackson to get her to switch sides which she did for awhile. then things got really weird and all three of them were a thing for awhile but gabriel got jealous felt like they loved each other more than him which who knows if they did, he could be jealous and irrational so he lashed out again. then kate got pregnant who knows whose kid it is, her and jackson don’t care, that was what made gabriel stop. and he died. that’s why me and kate became close, we both lost someone important to us, and that’s why her oldest is named gabe, may be gabriel’s, may be jackson’s, she doesn’t know and we try our best not to try and guess.” brighton shook his head, “it was a complicated time. and gabe was complicated, we’re all torn between hating him and loving him, he destroyed part of our family doing what he did and he could be terrible. but he could also be wonderful and tried to protect us. what we do isn’t easy and it’s not always what we want, but trying to destroy what we do and do it our way almost killed us last time, best to go along with it.” brighton looked at him and said, “so you’ve gotten into my head and my family and work, when do i get to know more about yours?” he asked.

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           ❛  does his job involve th’ um.. hoppin’ back ‘nd forth in time? ‘cause if so, then i want ‘ye t’ resign or take time off. we don’t know what it’ll do t’ th’ baby or if it’ll do anythin’, we can’t be sure so i don’t want us t’ risk anythin’.  ❜ reid explains with a short nod as if to agree with himself. he makes sure to use a tone that clearly says it’s the end of discussion, he won’t argue about this with brighton. he might be uncertain of his skills but he still isn’t uncertain of the fact that this baby deserves the best. ❛  if they truly ‘re ‘yer family, then they’ll understand. it doesn’ make ‘ye a bad person if ‘ye take some time off ‘cause ‘ye are carryin’ another life inside.  ❜ he continues  &  rubs his hand over the man’s back, up and down as if to let him know that it’s okay. brighton might not be showing yet or very far along anyway, but reid still wants him  &  their unborn child to stay safe. he’s aware that he doesn’t know about all the things that go on during their missions but he can’t risk it. he doesn’t want to wake up one night to a hysteric husband, his lower region covered in blood because of certain complications. ❛  well tha’ certainly doesn’t sound very fun but tha’s a story tha’s hard t’ beat.. s’ppose ‘s a good thing ‘ye had tha’.. one team member wit’ ‘ye though. otherwise ‘ye ‘nd i wouldn’t be ‘ere right now. we wouldn’t be ‘avin’ our firstborn.  ❜ the hum falls from his lips. having his husband talk about another team member, yet not mention a name has most certainly sparked up the man’s interest &  for a good reason too. ❛  then let’s hope they don’t ‘ave it. either way, they’ll ‘ave th’ gene but we’ve got hope. —— what.. ‘appened t’ this nameless team member though? if ‘ye don’t mind me askin’. ‘ye only ever talk ‘bout kate, ub ‘nd benji. ‘nd jackson. ❜

           "fine,” brighton said, “i’ll take time off, maybe they’ll actually take jackson with them,” brighton sighed. “i guess,” brighton shrugged, “i suppose but it’s going to be boring as hell just sitting around. guess if they start taking jackson i can spend a ton of time with kate’s kids.” brighton swallowed and said, “well we used to be eight now there are four of us plus jackson. three of them died and one decided to stay back in time with a girl he met on one of our missions. then there was also haru, carmen, and gabriel. gabe was my best friend we were the oldest, and he was supposed to be my teams later. he’s the one who saved us that one time. he...he was intelligent and strong and basically the perfect leader. but, he hated the government for using us for their own missions. so he broke free of them and decided to just destroy everything disrupt timelines to get back at them. so they sent us after him and on those missions haru and carmen didn’t survive. kate loved gabe and he was my best friend and it was hard going against someone we thought of as family. and there was a bunch of stuff that and well it ended up being an us or him situation, but he stopped for us but he died making sure his plan didn’t go through and that we were all okay. it wasn’t a good time. jackson wasn’t one of us, he’s from another time and well kate and him loved each other and so he came back with us,” brighton muttered. “what we do is complicated and back then it was even more so.”

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—I’m sure that everything is going to be totally ok —He said, he should take care with the things that he were going to tell them. Silas looked at his son, he was really calmed and that was rare, he used to be noisier whenever he wasn’t with him or his mother, so he liked Alexandra, that was pretty obvious—. We will have a perfect family once all this crap is over—He caressed his son cheek and looked at her again, they had a beautiful future.

Alexandra nodded and then said, “An optimist,” she laughed and said, “Beautiful little babies to go along with their older and beautiful siblings.” Alexandra smiled up at him and pulled him down to sit beside her and Manu and said, “I understand why the big fights going to be over him. Not only cause he’s little and can’t decide but because he’s perfect. Were all your kids this cute when they were little?”

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            ❛  but ‘ye ain’t kate. this is our niemowlę, brighton. i know i ain’t a doctor but i ain’t dumb either. miscarriage ‘s a thing tha’ exists ‘nd ‘s more common in th’ early stages. i don’ know what ‘ye people do on ‘yer missions but it can hurt th’ baby ‘nd ‘ye don’ want tha’, do ‘ye? ❜ a frown settles over his features. perhaps it’s just him but he doesn’t see the problem here ; if the male’s heart isn’t in his job with hundred percent certainty, why does it seem like such a big deal to quit? if not for himself, then even for their unborn baby. ❛  oh, aight. i get tha’. but just so ‘ye know, i think ‘ye shouldn’t ‘ave backed out of bein’ a leader jus’ t’ let her be in charge. ‘m pretty sure ‘ye would make a better leader fo’ ‘ye team than she does. but then again, me opinion might be biased ‘cause we’re married.  ❜ a chuckle slips past reid’s lips, a grin forming onto his plump lips. it’s a lazy grin if anything, barely hanging on. ❛  or maybe they like annoyin’ adults by bein’ hyper active ‘nd havin’ me around will piss ‘em off. me brother did tha’ when he was younger, he loved seein’ people give up on chasin’ ‘im. ‘ye shoulda seen th’ look on ‘is face each time, he was so ‘appy ‘cause he won. it was like a game to ‘im.  ❜ he finds himself rambling &  the grin on his face changes into a fond look as he lets his husband cuddle in closer. ❛  oh yeah, definitely. —— hey.. since ‘ye are able t’ do.. y’know, d’you think our kid will be too?  ❜

            ❛  i’ll just trade jobs with ub for awhile. he’s in charge of the weapons and engineering stuff, stays out of fights, technically i was supposed to have his job, we were meant to be two teams of four but that didn’t work out,” brighton sighed. “i don’t want to hurt our baby but their my team, their like family, my siblings.” brighton laughed and said, “ha well i was never supposed to be leader, kate always was, not of my team but she was chosen as leader when we were young personality stuff. besides she’s good at what we do, she’s been more hurt by what we do than any of us that are still around and she’s still going.” brighton nodded and said, “well they’d probably like a challenge, they destroy most of us,” brighton sighed. brighton looked down at his lap and shrugged, “i don’t know. it takes time and teaching to do it. we all had the power and some accidents when we were little. which was even more dangerous then since us original eight were all little and couldn’t go after one another if we did it on accident, they’d just have to wait for us to pop back up. when we were little kate, me, and... one of our other team members were messing around and ended up in the middle of the battle of lexington and concord, we were in the first grade and had just learned about the revolutionary war and one minute were running around the next were in the middle of gunfire as six year old’s, though kate was four. me and kate were scared shitless, but...our other team member he was supposed to be the other leader, he was fearless, didn’t even blink as a six year old he just made us army crawl all the way across the battlefield and somehow we ended back up at the compound.” he never talked about gabe, his best friend who became an enemy but he still hadn’t ever managed to hate. “so i hope they don’t have it, or that i can at least figure out if they do. i’ll have to ask kate if any of her kids have it or if she thinks they do,” brighton muttered.  

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             with a raised brow, reid’s stormy blues shift from the television over to his husband. he finds the question awfully funny, emitting a chuckle from his throat before he’s shaking his head a little  &  turning back to the television. ❛  i’ll be quittin’ when ‘m eighty ‘nd can move swiftly no more. i ain’t th’ one carryin’ th’ baby, tha’s ‘ye.  ❜ there’s an amused to laced into his voice, his fingers beginning to run up  &  down brighton’s side. as horrible as it sounds, reid enjoys his job. he enjoys what he does so it’s truly hard to imagine him quitting. not to mention, he can’t think of a single reason why he should anyway ; his body isn’t the one going through rough changes. ❛  no more field work. ‘ye c’n resign or ‘ye c’n ask ‘em t’ give ‘ye paperwork. i don’ want ‘ye puttin’ th’ baby in danger, ‘m sure ‘yer.. boss will understand.  ❜ he adds in soon enough. he might not be hundred percent sure of the whole situation, of becoming a father but reid isn’t heartless. his husband is carrying their firstborn after all. ❛  i thought ‘ye were kate’s best friend. ub sounds familiar but i can’t connect it t’ a face, ‘m sorry, kochanie. — but aight. as long as they won’t scream or cry nonstop, ‘m sure i’ll like ‘em.  ❜ he hums, soft smile curling onto his lips as he listens to brighton babble on about his team  &  their kids.

              "it won’t hurt the baby, kate kept going when she was pregnant, and that stuff was way more dangerous than anything we do now. that was when our team was eight or seven people instead of four,” brighton sighed, that was what hurt the most out of everything they’d ever done. not the killing but the losing people. “na, kate and benji have always been close, since we were all little. me and kate became friends later... we got along alright when we were younger but when we started going on missions we hated each other cause i was in charge half the time and she was the other half. we didn’t work well together when we were both leaders, so now she’s the only one. we became friends late though, it wasn’t instant, her and benji were best friends from the beginning.” brighton’s best friend had been gabriel and kate had loved gabriel but gabriel wasn’t good, he hated the government owning them and had lashed out and almost destroyed everyone, including all of them. having to destroy gabriel had almost destroyed him and kate and they had grown close after that. “they’ll probably like you, since you can keep up with them better than most, even benj and ub have a hard time with kate’s boys. they’ll probably end up following in her footsteps or be in the military like jackson was a long time ago,” he laughed a bit. brighton cuddled closer to reid and said, “our kid will probably be more bad ass though,” brighton teased.