amaryllis

home • map ! closed blog MOVED TO HERE!!!!

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THIS BLOG IS NOW ARCHIVED

YOU CAN FIND ME HERE: ofobscuritas

this this blog will stay and never be deleted for the memories uxu

[amaryllx-blog]

I’VE MOVED BLOGS! YOU CAN FIND MY NEW BLOG HERE!!!

this was my first try on being an independent roleplayer (i came from those weird things called closed roleplays :p) and thus i’ve learned a lot and messed up a lot but now that i’ve realized what i wanted i’ve moved on with a new blog. (and 250 people followed me in those 2 months. why would you follow the awkward potato like me)

what has changed is that taemin is my main muse again like he was for so many years and just certain circumstances made me loose my path.

I WILL KEEP ALL THREADS (besides those who were with nana since i dropped her) i will put more effort into my muses from now on and i’ve already started to add more details to them.

so yes, please follow me again! i will reblog the shit out of this massage so if i annoy you please follow my new blog and unfollow me here owo thank you!

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i miss writing so much omg. but i’m so stressed and during the process of moving i learn how to hate my flatmate in the most loveable way :’) pls pray for my sanity. also i’m currently moving blogs whenever i have five minutes of freedom.

i try my best to be done on sunday and write at least a bit.

don’t forget me ;;

[amaryllx-blog]

still alive! though still on hiatus due to moving ;; ah, it’s so stressful. but i miss writing. though i guess still no reply from me until the end of this month. i’m so so so sorry ;; i miss you all my loves <3

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⊱ let’s spread the mun love. → accepting! ⊰

* { I can’t forget my darling @amaryllx ! I could send them messages all day about how I love their characterisation and writing. If I’m wholly honest I stalk their threads a lot purely because I love reading their work. It really is a pleasure to be rping with them, and I look forward to our threads so much (all the angst, wails.) And their mun is ever so sweet, oh my goodness. I just want to bundle them up and squish them sometimes. Thank you so much for rping with me dear, you really are an inspiration ;;;

[amaryllx-blog]

undefined (semi)hiatus due to moving houses!!!

maybe i’ll be around spordically, maybe i won’t. thus i will be extremly selective until the end of july. maybe my activity will resume in august. maybe not. since aside from my stressful life currently people have pulled a lot of asshole moves in krp and my enjoyment to write is fading extremly with all those guiltshaming things and people who spit right into your face :) they take my muse, make me think that i’m a shitty writer and even a less worth person.

so if you want to drop a thread i can absolutely understand it! i don’t like waiting ages for replies myself. so just let me know c:

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sora.

      another night spend at the casino. another night of illegally acquired money. she would call this a success really. the thrill of it all still flowing through her body, lighting up the fire in her veins, the endless excitement coursing through her cells. blowing bubbles, pink gum expanded past rouge tinted lips, the young woman made her way through the darkened alley way. a short cut. maybe she’d find someone to pick pocket from. who knew. as stiletto heels clicked loudly on the ground and the soft ‘popping’ of blown bubbles mixed it between, her soft humming rose throughout the space. sora almost didn’t notice the other, huddled up between carton boxes and what have you. when she came to a stop, upper body bend down, the con artist was greeted with a meek voice & fearful words. another pop of her gum. disinterest present behind grey colored eyes. ❝wasn’t planning to, miss.❞ brushing dark green bangs from her face, sora stands up straight again. licking lips, the woman shakes her head.   ❝but if you keep on sitting there, some other people might. it ain’t safe here. believe me. don’t you have some place to be?❞

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     SHE HAD no idea where she came from. no idea where she was supposed to go. her past as dark as the deepest shadow created by the most garish light. fragments came back from time to time and it made her fall into a sea of terror and horror. livvie. the name echoed through the confines of her mind. naeun. the name given from herself to blend into the mass of people in this city. don't attract attention or they'll find you. whoever they were. she trembled shivered. she remembered darkness, pain, lonliness. she remembered endless days with seconds turned into hours and blurred hues of grey. she was scared of the darkness and yet the petite girl was sitting in the darkest alley that could be found, in the smallest to flourish her fear of small spaces. she whimpered as the voice reached her ear yet her eyes remained empty, dull. and hues were focused on a point far away from them even though they were glued on the other woman's face. "i don't have a place. i don't know... where i belong to." she said almost as if she was stating the obvious. "who are you? are you going to hurt me?" she asked again as if she was stuck in trance. confused of what happened around her, what her surroundings meant. who this person was. what this person meant, for her.

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  continued from here with @amaryllx !!

   She knew in her heart that even for a kitsune, her words were naive, foolish maybe. Still, Kanna believed them, they were her anchor when she had nothing ( or nobody ) else. The response she received, however, shattered her resolution – only for a moment before her gaze returned to the male. “Decisions we make. Choices. Perhaps I was born as a creature bound to different rules but I can still direct where my life is going …” Yes, she could say so but not everyone would have that choice and the fox met enough obstacles on her way; the only difference was, she had people who didn’t give up on her. A puzzled expression graced her features, one that made Kanna look vulnerable yet beautiful. Who knew, maybe he just needed someone to help him, guide him in the dark but who was she to judge? “Or people. A single person can be a guiding light, we only have to want it. At least, that’s what I experienced.”

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     HER VOICE was like serenade during silence. a soft whisper, a sweet promise. but woohyun knew better than to fall for lies that were only coated in sugar to hide the rotten darkness within. and he wondered if their lives were so different from each other? how both, with a similar confinement, could have walked across such different paths. "i had never thought that the fox and the wolf would be so different from each other. i guess it's not only legends that they don't get along." he whispered and his voice was perhaps even laced with something like mockery. he thought it was the appropriate way to answer if lies were beautifully laid out in front of him. at least this were his thoughts about the truth. gaze of his dark hues captured her expression. graceful, beautiful. even other legends seemed to be true. that the fox demon was endowed with a beauty that couldn't beheld by a human, neither really captured by a human. a rash movement had been done to wipe his blonde hair out of his eyes. "yet every light creates a shadow. and the darkness will always swallow the light and call the monsters out." spoken in riddles, pictures drawn by words. and yet they told his story in the most accurate way. his life with the demon, trapped in the crystalline cage creates by his family who thought he was a creature to worship and to fear. who thought he was more than just a poor bloodlusty demon. but -- he wasn't.

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   the smile on his face became a lot more broad as he watch realization hit her features. damon liked to believe he was someone who had the ability to keep a cool exterior, even when the interior didn’t match what he showed; but it was difficult to keep that front up around naeun. the nature in which she was oblivious was one of the cutest things he’d ever laid his eyes on, & each time he listened to her speak or watched her smile he felt like a toddler listening to minions sing a beach boys song. ❝ complicated? really? ❞ he inquired as his lips purse & his he uses the arm around her to pull her close. ❝ how fortunate for me, complicated is just my speed. ❞

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     THE FROWN still adorned her forehead even when the male pulled her closer. she had to tilt her head slightly upwards to get a glimps of his features. he didn't understand her words. and perhaps she didn't understand her own words either. but she was a girl with a past that was completely dark, black. and she had nothing but endless nightmares that haunted her every night. she was complicated. in which ways -- she had to ascertain herself. but as her lower jutted out and created an almost adorable pout she curled her small hand around the fabric of his shirt behind his back. "don't you say that to every girl?" she wrinkled her noise, trying to look feisty and serious while she looked in reality like a little mewling kitten.

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     THE MALE with the cutton candy pink hair jutted his lower lip out in an almost innocent pout whilst he shrugged with his shoulders. "address you properly? i thought the word bitch wasn't that suited for a workplace." he scoffed and with thus the complete innocence was gone and yet he emphasized what she thought about her. a bitchy little princess that stuck her nose up higher as she should be. though he knew where this was coming from with her petite appearance and beautiful face. but this was nothing jonghyun would be ever able to see. in his eyes she was just... no, he couldn't find any fitting words. sometimes he just wanted to place his hands around her neck and just choke her. in all means it was a save way to make her shut up.      THE OLDER gritted his teeth whilst she spin around and left him with such words and he didn't even have the chance to say something and all his words got stuck in his throat whilst he curled his hands into fists, nails digging into the supple flesh of his palms. yet he had no other chance but to follow her onto the set. thus the set itself wasn't something spectacular. i was a simple living room. cozy decorated with a soft couch suited in the middle and jonghyun didn't even need to listen to the directors words to know that he would end up on right this couch with the petite soojung in his arms whilst he had to pretend she was his girlfriend. they had to cuddle and he never thought that something like this could be a punishment for him. a sigh rushed past his full lips and he nodded, listened to the instructions.

[wnq-writers]

We’ve wasted so many chances, until we’ve realized that it’s already too late, for the both of us.

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The body and soul are halves to a whole Easily shattered and taken a toll. As one crumbles with the other in tow Humanity slithers into eternal woe. I give my hands To still timekeeping sands. I shall mend those who crumble And catch those who stumble. I may be but one insignificant entity, But I plead, may my life be one cleansed of all vanity

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Hearing the doorbell made Sunggyu flinch immediately. He looked down at his clothing and regretted once again his choice. He just wore a normal jeans which was ripped at a few places and a black sweater, nothing too special because he didn’t want to pay attention too much on his looks but now he regretted it. Licking his lips for one last time, Sunggyu finally straightened himself and walked over to the door. Loudly, he inhaled and exhaled before curling his hand around the door handle and opened it. His heart skipped a beat once he saw this beautiful woman. She looked stunning, there was no other word describing her perfect appearance. The baby blue tight jeans seemed to hug her thighs perfectly, her make-up was on point, the hair so silky looking. “Hey, Jess.” Lame, Sunggyu, very lame. “Thank you for coming, please come in.” He stepped aside to make way for her to come inside. Why was he this dumb around her? Sunggyu was almost embarrassed about himself, too embarrassed to notice the presence she brought with her at first.

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     BARELY HAD jessica felt such a tension in her body while she simply waited for someone. but today the seconds seemed to turn into hours. and perhaps the feeling of being watched awoke the primal instinct of running away from where she was and into the safety. funny enough that she had always thought to be safe in sunggyu's arms whilst he was just a simple human. he could never protect her from the demons around her. real demons. brothers and sisters. the door in front of her made a clicking sound and her heart skipped a beat. the first time out of fear, had she been so concentrated that the simple sound startled her and the second time her heart missed a beat whilst her dark hues found him. almondy eyes widened whilst she observed him. he looked unusual. perhaps the hair that was neatly combed back. yes, she would realize those small tiny changes. she had spend months with it. she had spend morning with her fingers threading through thick soft messy locks. how could she not notice? and yet he looked the same. the same person she wanted to curl herself into his embrace and simply fall alseep.        A SMILE painted her lotus-red lips and she stepped in. thus the demoness wouldn't simply pass him. the small fingers of her tugged streaks of her brown locks behind her ear before she leaned forward, lips of hers brushing against his cheek in a tender way. "hey." he breathed out with a tender voice, dipped in nothing but tenderness. "don't thank me." she mumbled and her fingertips brushed along his jawline before he took a step back -- the gaze of her eyes catching for a glimpse the fainted marks she had left behind the last night they had spend together. and she was satisfied. he was hers. still. forever. the calm situation was almost thrilling, dangerous. never had they been seen each other after they broke up and didn't fight. they would scream and shout. both of the thick headed. thus the same reason that they ended quickly with one of them pinned up against the wall. it always got complicated if feelings were involved with aggression and wrath. 

       SHE TOOK a step back again before she finally entered his apartment. curious eyes watching her surroundings. it wasn't like she had time to look at his apartment the last time. her mind had been everywhere but not with the decoration of his apartment. goosebumps dotting her skin and the petite girl shivered. "ah, it's suddenly so cold. i should have worn a jacket." she mumbled to herself and a frown adorned her forehead. the feeling that eyes bore holes into her back wouldn't leave her. and she simply knew it wasn't sunggyu's stare. it was something... different. thus she knew also that none of her brothers or sisters had followered her. she would feel their presence more clearly. right now she was doubting her own sanity. she closed her eyes for a second, breathed in, breathed out. before she turned around to her beloved. "i don't know what we should talk about, sunggyu. it just happened. right? i mean... it always happens between people that used to share a part of their life together." she stated, getting straight to the point. well, this was jess. that was lilith. she wasn't one for chit chat. straightforward. get over with it. "and we've always enjoyed it. we've always been perfect together during the many hours we've spend in bed." a smug grin bared her white teeth and she let settled her handbag on the little table next to her. "or in the shower. in the car. on the couch. in the kitchen..." she licked across her lips. "i guess you get the point." a soft giggle escaped through her lips. oh, jess. where was the need to be that you that no one liked? why couldn't you be the person you ware while you were with him. why can't you just tell him... that you miss him... that you want to be his girlfriend again... that you want to wake up cuddled up in his arms.

[wnq-writers]

Sometimes the people who will comeplete you will also destroy you

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