Aiden Anderson

Aiden Anderson, 20, Photography Major, married. Carson knew that it really was the two of them now, and he couldn't really deny it. "I love you," he said after a few minutes of silence, figuring it was best to just get it out once, so he wouldn't have to say it again. Eli

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Picking at his food as he thought, Eli finally shrugged. He didn’t think there was anything else he needed to tell Aiden. Anything else that was going on in his life that was important enough to tell his brother. Sure, he and Ash were kind of together, but they hadn’t really talked about what the meant; hadn’t put a label on it. So, he wasn’t going to do that with Aiden. Later though, later when they fingered it out, then he’d probably tell his brother about it. That wasn’t hiding things or lying, right? “I-I don’t think so?" He asked, looking up at Aiden. “You need to talk to me?" He offered.

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Aiden looks at him, nodding his head with a smile. "Alright." He thought about his offer, arching an eyebrow at him uncertainly as he genuinely thought. ".. No, I think I should be good for right now. Nothing's bothering me anymore except for the fact that y'know. My Husband's chorea acts up a lot and will only get progressively worse. Nothing to talk about. But thank you."

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Taking the fork from his brother, Eli nodded his thanks.. “You’re not so bad at it…not usually." He said softly, glancing up at his brother quickly before looking down at the food in front of him. “I do. Promise.

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Aiden rolls his eyes, settling back in his seat and watching him with a soft smile. "Anything else you need to talk to me about, Eli?" He asked, eyebrow arched at his brother curiously. 

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Eli shrugged, smiling light, “Maybe." Sighing, he looked up at Aiden, “Eat with me?" He asked, taking the container of food off the counter and walking over to the small table in the main room. “He-he won’t." He said firmly, of everything, that was something he was sure of. Ash would never intentionally hurt him. “If he does though, I’ll um..I’ll tell you. Buh-but I don’t need you to protect me." He nodded his head along with Aiden’s words, a small smile tugging at the corner of his lips. “I know. Love you too."

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Aiden scrunches his nose distastefully. "Maybe." He said, moving into the main room and settling at the table after quickly checking to ensure Carson was safe and sleeping. He couldn't help how much he loved him. "It isn't a matter or what you need." He said, offering Eli a fork to eat his food with. "It's me doing my job as a big brother." He smiles at him brightly, scooting closer to the table. "Good. You better." 

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Eli laughed softly feeling himself truly loosen up, for the first time since he’d run into Aiden on the elevator. “He’d call you stupid and let me out." He wasn’t sure that would actually happen, but he was pretty sure. “Maybe?" he hedged, pushing himself to his feet and wandering around Aiden’s tiny kitchen for a few seconds. “He apologized for kissing me the next day." He admitted softly, feeling a pang in his chest at the memory of thinking his friendship with Ash was over. “An-and then I talked to Carson. And maybe told him all this stuff. And he talked to Ash and I guess he told him what I said." He paused for second shrugging. “Then I dunno we figured it out?" It’s the shorten summary of everything that had taken place, but it all out in the open, and the most he can hope for is that Aiden won’t be upset.

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Aiden laughs back, shaking his head. "He'd tell you to stop being stupid and eat the damn food." He said with a pointed look. He watches him wander around, listening to him. He nods his head, "If he hurts you, I want to know. If he actually hurts you. Don't hide it from me for the hell of it, understand me?" He points a finger at him, before settling back. "I love you." 

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"No…yes..maybe?" Eli asked, looking up at Aiden and shrugging. He hadn’t really been hiding anything from him. He was evasive about what his relationship with Ash was, sure, but Aiden had known for a while that there was one, all he hadn’t know was just how close they were. Before a couple of days ago, that’s all there was. Just an extremely close friendship. Nothing to make a big deal out of. “You’d get tired of that eventually. Carson would make you let me leave eventually even if you didn’t get tired of sitting there." He scrunched his nose at Aiden’s question. “What? No. Is that enough or do you um…do you need more?"

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Aiden sighed, picking at a loose thread in his jeans. "Oh, not at all. He would support me and my decisions." Aiden hums innocently, laughing at his reaction. "Is there more to tell me?" He asked, looking at him suspiciously. He trusted his brother and wouldn't force him into telling him anything, but if it was obvious he was hiding something, he wanted to know. 

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"I’m sorry. I know, okay? I know you tell me things and I don’t. I-I don’t tell you anything. Not the important stuff. I’m sorry." Eli sighed in defeat, he was terrible at the whole being a good brother thing. He got Aiden to talk to him, but he couldn’t do it back. “You can’t make me stay forever. I d-don’t want to eat." Pulling in a deep breath, Eli made a decision, one that he hoped wouldn’t end badly. “Um…okay…you know I went to San Diego a couple weekends ago?" He paused looking to Aiden for his confirmation or denial that he knew that. “I wentwithAshandhekissedmeafterthegig." He said in a rush, words jumbled together. He stopped there, trying to gauge Aiden’s reaction to decide whether to keep talking or not. 

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"Is that a confession that you're hiding things?" He asked, eyebrow raised in slight annoyance at Elijah. He shrugs, "I can. Just sit in front of the door until you eat. You can try jumping out of the window, but third floor, I can't imagine you'd make it out okay." He stares at him with a smile, trying to show he was mostly joking. Aiden nods his head slowly, listening. He wrinkles his face in slight disgust before shrugging. "Did he taste like fish?" 

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"I know. It’s…" Eli pauses, shaking his head. He’d started to say it was okay, but it wasn’t not really. It would be, they would get there, but at that moment, it wasn’t okay. “You-you turned it into something it wasn’t…isn’t. I-I don’t just…I don’t have…I don’t do that." He stammered, embarrassed to even come close to bringing up sex with his brother. “I-I’m not being stubborn. I’m re-really not hungry. You eat it." He replied simply, looking up at Aiden.

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Aiden shrugs his shoulders, "You don't talk to me. How would I know, ever?" He asked, trying to get his point across. "You know about my husbands illness, you knew about me cheating, you knew that it wasn't consensual cheating. You get mad at me for not saying things, but then you hold secrets behind my back like it makes me feel like a great person. I go to therapy with you when you want it. I try to help." He feels defeated over the entirely subject and shrugs once more, "I'm not hungry, either. I got it so Carson would it. You're not leaving until you eat." 

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Eli closed his eyes, sighing heavily. “I-I know that. I do. I promise. Sometimes…somethings ju-just take me to a bad place. It-it doesn’t matter who’s on the other end." He knew Aiden wouldn’t hurt him, trusted the fact that no matter how angry he got, he would never lay a hand on him. But some reactions were just so ingrained at this point that he couldn’t stop them. “S-stop. I’m not. Not-not on my feet anyway." He said softly, shifting his foot away from Aiden’s hands. “We-we uh we watched a movie." He started softly, “I fell asleep in a, in a, in a chair."

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Aiden nods, knowing this. He rubs the back of his head and closes his eyes, sighing just a bit. "I'm sorry." He said again, not sure what else to say. He shifts his hand into his lap and stared down at the floor, nodding his head at his words. "Okay. That's fine. I'm glad you had fun together. Sorry for making a big deal out of it." He said, shifting back onto his feet. "You're not leaving the dorm until you eat something, so." He moves back onto the counter, pulling his legs up and looking at Eli. 

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"I’m not." Eli said softly. But in his head he knew that wasn’t true. He was keeping everything that had happened in the last week and a half or so from Aiden, everything from going to San Diego with Ash to kissing Ash to their whole stupid misunderstanding to finally figuring it out just a couple of days ago. He wanted to tell him, talk to him about it like he had with Carson. But he was afraid that he’d be mad. Eli was well aware of how much Aiden disliked, maybe even down right hated Ash. “I-I know. I know you’re sorry. An-and I know you wouldn’t hurt me. Sometimes though…" He trailed off shrugging, sometimes old habits were hard to break. And being crowded into a corner by someone who was angry with him, then making himself as small a target as possible, that was a habit that was going to stick around for a while. He sighed, inching his leg forward a fraction so his bare toes were touching Aiden’s leg. It was as close to forgiveness as he could offer at the moment. “Wh-what do you want to know?"

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Aiden sighs, "I apologized to him at one point. Or something similar." He said, arching his eyebrow just a bit. "I have self restraint. Assmonkey isn't here to hurt you, and I'm not going to pick up where he left off." It hurt Aiden that Eli wouldn't even begin to believe that he'd do something like that. He loved his brother. He smiles just a bit when his toes touched his leg, and he reaches down to brush his fingers over them softly, wondering if Eli was ticklish. "Why were you leaving his place this earlier appearing as though you had sex?" He asked upfront, eyes on his brother. "I wouldn't be mad at you if you did."

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Eli rolled his eyes, “No." He said firmly. “I’m not hungry. I don’t want it." Turning his head and resting his cheek on his chin, he watched Aiden, trying to find the right words to say. Words that wouldn’t make what was already a crappy situation any worse. “What don’t you know?" He asked, sighing tiredly. “I’m not…I’m not any different than I was before. N-not really." Running his hands through his still damp hair, he leaned his head back, resting it against the wall, looking at Aiden seated above him. “Y-you did. Way too strong. You-you scared me. I’ve never been afraid of you before." He admitted softly, swallowing thickly against the tears clogging his throat. “I talk to you. I’ve told you everything." 

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Sighing, Aiden decides to drop it. It'd just go in the trash later. Doesn't matter. He rubs his temple absentmindedly, willing the anger to dissolve. "You're keeping things from me. You know you are. Something about you and Ass." He looks at him, expression softening just a little. "I'm sorry." He slides off the counter and sits on the floor in front of him, not touching him. "You know I wouldn't hurt you, right?" He asked, tilting his head to the side just a bit. "About Ash? Everything?"

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"Not hungry." Eli said softly, leaning against the kitchen wall a few feet from where Aiden sat on the counter. “Mm’not mad. You-you’re the one who is um…mad." He said softly, Aiden’s angry face from the elevator flashing through his mind and making his shudder slightly. “Wh-what do you think I um… we were doing?" He asked quietly, sliding down the wall so he sat on the floor, knees pulled up to his chest. “What wou-would I be hiding?" He glanced up at Aiden, waiting for him to answer.

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"Please?" He asked, looking at him sadly. Aiden sighed again, rubbing his face. He moves his legs onto the counter with him, crossing them and resting his elbows on his thighs, trying to make sense of it all. "I don't know. it bothers me that I feel like I don't know you." Aiden caught his glance, shrugging sheepishly. "You.. I don't know how to handle you anymore, and that's my fault, and I'm sorry if I came off too strong. I just wish you'd talk to me. I talk to you. About everything." 

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Eli maintains a careful distance between himself and Aiden, not as far as it had been before his shower, but definitely more than his fair share of personal space. He shakes his head, “No thank you." He’s being more polite than necessary and he knows it, but it’s the best way he knows how to maintain the composure he fought so hard for in the bathroom. “Here’s fine." He states softly, but firmly. Here it’s easier to keep his distance if he needs to. He raises a brow as Aiden rubs his eyes, concern spiking for his brother because he knows he has trouble sleeping. But Eli shoves it back down, he’s too hurt and annoyed by Aiden’s actions to let that concern come to the surface.

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"Eat." He said again, moving to settle on the counter again. "I don't know why you're mad at me," he said honestly, "I'm just trying to figure out what you both were doing. It isn't my fault you're taking it the wrong way." He said, tiredly relaxing against the cupboards. "If you don't talk to me, I'm going to be a dick. I feel like you're hiding shit from me, and that's the one thing I thought we were done doing." 

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Eli crouched down, rubbing the cats ears, a small but genuine smile on his face. He stays crouched down petting the cat as Aiden speaks before nodding once, pushing himself up, grabbing the clothes on the counter, and walking to the bathroom for a shower. It’s in the bathroom with the door closed firmly and locked that he loses it just a little bit. He let’s the trembling that he’d been controlling so tightly in front of Aiden go break free and before he knows it, his knees are buckling and he’s sliding down the bathroom door. He’d never been afraid of Aiden before, not really. Then again, Aiden had never spoken to him that way, treated him that way. He lets himself have a couple of minutes and then he picks up his shattered control, finds a clean towel and showers. 

In the shower, he promises himself that no matter what he’ll try to talk to Aiden. Try to actually communicate because up to that point, he hadn’t been. Once he’s clean and feels mostly normal again, he turns the water off and grabs the clothes Aiden had given him. It’s weird wearing his brother’s clothes, they haven’t shared since they were very young. He pulls on a pair of jeans and a long sleeved shirt, runs the towel over his head, and wishes again that he could take his contacts out, but knows he won’t be able to see if he does. Tossing the towel in the corner, he unlocks the bathroom door and enters the main room again, making his way silently to the kitchen.

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While Eli goes to shower, Aiden wakes Carson up, shushing him and feeding him some of the breakfast while he lays in the bed next to him. There wasn't a lot of talking, but Aiden made sure Carson would continue laying in bed a bit longer until Eli left, knowing he'd probably just doze off again. But he didn't want Carson's food getting cold, hence the feeding. He watches Eli carefully when he comes out, kissing Carson once before sliding off the bed. Entering the kitchen, he nods towards the food that was originally for himself. "Eat." He said, "Did you want to sit out in the main room at the table, or stay in here?" He asked, rubbing his own eyes, fatigue starting to catch up to him.

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Eli kept his arms crossed tightly; his eyes tracking Aiden’s movements wearily. He honestly didn’t understand what Aiden meant, he didn’t think he’d been lying to Aiden about Ash. Sure, he was evasive about him, and he almost never mentioned his name, but Aiden knew they were friends, knew that Ash had been there for him. He nodded, showering sounded good, it would give him a chance to collect himself away from his brother, and maybe, hopefully when he came out, he’d be able to talk to him. He wouldn’t be so stuck inside his own head because it wasn’t like he wanted to pull away or was even trying to, at least not consciously. He did it to protect himself, he had been doing it for a long time. 

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Aiden was talking about in the elevator, when he wouldn't tell him. He'd considered it lying. Aiden sighed, presuming Eli wasn't going to eat the ice cream he'd gotten him. As he moved to leave the kitchen, Satan/Brian must have left the bed because he came into the kitchen and hissed at Aiden before moving to affectionately nuzzle Eli's ankles. Aiden simply hissed back before leaving the room and setting some of his clothes on the counter, "You know where the bathroom is. You can borrow my clothes, 'cause that's just dirty to put on the same shit. There's a clean towel in there somewhere, sniff it before you use it." He said, smirking just a bit. 

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Eli stood against the far wall of the kitchen as far away from Aiden as he could get while still being in the same room. It was going to take a little while before he felt completely comfortable and safe around his brother. He shrugged his shoulders, unsure what it was that Aiden meant. They hadn’t done anything. They had watched a movie and laughed, but nothing beyond that. They’d hung out, like friends did.

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Annoyance started seeping through Aiden and he set down the breakfast, shifting around and pulling out a carton of ice cream. He sifts around the kitchen for a spoon before setting it down next to Eli, before moving back and settling atop the counter, glancing out over at Carson, grateful for their tiny dorm. "Look. I'm sorry. I don't like him. You kept lying. I'm allowed to get mad over that. You don't have to pull away because I'm a dick." He said, giving him a pointed look before sighing and leaning back, kicking his feet in the air. "I just want you to trust me, is all. You look like hell, did you wanna shower?"

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Writing for so long gets tiring.

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There are a lot of possible positions when I’m as flexible as I am. You’ll have to show me all of them this summer.

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I know. And I will. Multiple times. 

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Writing for so long gets tiring.

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What exactly were these fantasies you had?

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Fucking you in every possible position. I could show you better than I could tell you. I wanna make you shake with want for me, one day.