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Or magpalit ng name at magquit.
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Ang hassle hassle hassle hassle ng life.
Gusto ko na lang lumabas at di na lang mabuhay.
Or magpalit ng name at magquit.
HMMMMM
Hassle hassle hassle hassle hassle hassle hassle
dear God i need you. xxx
I sent a message and good vibes. I hope it got there. i dreamt also. after a long time.
need to focus on me now tho
xo
Why am i crying over gab šššššš
I ended it. I stopped it.
Why
Deya
21 days andyan ka pa rin kay gab. Tigil mo na yan
Bye gab again.
Bakit ka pa kase bumalik.
Balik ka ng balik di mo naman pinaninindigan.
Ano naman kung brineakan mo sya
Ano naman kung mental health
Ako rin naman
Daming sinabi
Wala naman puntahan
Gab youre sooooo dense and self centered. It'sfunnyyy.
Gab stop trying to come back. Ty
At 3am, the world is quiet. Worries lose their edges. Thoughts flood.
Sleep doesnāt come ā just lying there, trying for coherence. Eyelids heavy while fears rehearse in silence, the messiest ones arriving uninvited, without logic.
Wondering, without direction. The mind takes over. Crying at memories without intent. Throat tightening around ifs, whats, wheres, and whens.
At 3am, whatās avoided stops waiting. Thoughts kept out slip in, still not allowed to be articulated.
The fan keeps running. Another car passes.
Both more lucid than anything else.
I wish I can rewind time. Maybe not IM. Maybe not hema. Hmm. I was so optimistic. There are things to undo. There are things to not be curious on. Idk. I am grateful people are here still. I wish I could have been a better friend. I wish I could have gone through it more gracefully, with more wisdom, less tears, more laughter.
I just hope 2026 is a great year. I am tired of sad years. I miss people.
I had a dream about you. I woke up wondering if you did too. There was a time i thought I could feel you. I dreamt of you so vividly and your family was there with too. I just miss it i guess. I wonder why I even had a dream when I have decided a long time ago to stop.
Hm. I never stop caring by choice. It is usually an emergency brain take over as I have probably neglected myself. From relationships to career. I guess then i didnt want anyone to fault me for not caring enough.
If i was being honest each instance engulfs and numbs me . But there was once a time i offered my heart freely and unguardedly. Now i have found myself placing it in a container and keeping it close.
I wonder if i have become like them. Cruel unintentionally. Blowing up a small thing making it a reason to run away. Justifying hurt as something that has to be done. When there could have been a way (a way I wished I was treated before) to handle it respectfully or gently. Softly.
I am sorry then to Gab. I loved you. I ran away cause i couldnāt take getting hurt again badly. I ran so quickly at your first fault cause i have wasted years of my life treating them as if they didnāt exist in people I love. Go back to your gf, propose as you planned, i am sorry for uprooting your life, i donāt think I deserve your forgiveness. I donāt think I can handle stonewalling. Not anymore in this lifetime.Its incompatibility: for you its silence for me its trauma ig. Each time you reach out I remember my feeling when you first ignored me purposefully to āteach meā. I have experienced worse but somehow that one time you did it brought all those memories. I am sorry, i loved you. Its fascinating how fast i fell. Yet at the same time fascinating how protective i am of myself now. Or is this sabotage. Idk. My only regret is not telling i love you more than once before it ended.
Did you love him more than you loved him?
No the love was different
Did he love you more than he loved you?
He loved me differently yet sufficiently
Did you cry less?
Most definitely.
Was the hurt more?
The hurt is the same. The hurt is hurt. Still feels like my heart is being ripped.
If you could undo one thing what would it be?
I dont know i still thank god i met him at the time.
Is there anything you want from him?
Maybe just one more hug. Conversation about politics maybe his opinion on the current situation. A meal.
Do you forgive him?
Maybe not. I want to but I cant.
If you could say one thing to him what would it be?
Why did you hurt me if you said you loved me. How can you bear seeing me hurt if you cared.
Hay ily. Brutal.
God ily. God il him
Why did you have to say ily. Why did you break up with her. Why did i say i love you back.
I love you. I love you. I love youuuu. God i do.
I dont know why. Its only been six months. Why did i fall in 6mos. Wth. Is this even really love. Do you really love me. Or will you hurt me alsooo. š
Cant call you love
im not allowed to
Cant be with you
its out of bounds
Cant talk til the sunrise
its forbidden
I can pray for you tho
I can wish you all the happiness
I can hope you win
Erase me if thats for your best
Your memory of me at your mercy
In mine tho
You were my light in the dark
You shined away the dullness
Normal became normal again
Hollowness forgotten
If we meet again
In this lifetime or another
I hope i can return what you gave
Freely, lightly, with the purest intentions
Without holding back
Not in secret
Pain is inevitable i think
For something sacred
Its there constantly
Reminding me of what was lost
Letting me know its significance
I never knew id meet you
I never hoped to feel again tbh
But you taught me that sometimes it is worth it
That endings are not scary
The present was the impt part
It might have been short lived
It may become a one liner in our lives
For this moment let me thank you
Thank you for being there when i needed someone
Thank you for being you
And appreciating me as a i was
It was messy
It was funny
It was fun
It was incredible
To be known
To be seen
To be appreciated
With all the flaws and quirks
We both knew it had to end
But even the gentlest endings
Come with inevitable pain
I witnessed you as you witnessed me
Yet we both chose to say good bye
Not for ourselves but for each other
Yet we cant call it love thats forbidden
I somehow wish i can get another convo
To let you know one final time i care
But i wont,
Id just bank on the fact you know me
Enough to know ill hold your memory
In the deepest safest vault in my heart
I hateee thisss