Suffering Artist

[another-suffering-artist]

A NT thing I don't understand...

"You should've known..."

If you haven't communicated something to me, how on earth am I supposed to know??

I maybe could make a guess but I can never KNOW, unless you TELL ME.

Really, how do people actually take that as a valid argument?

[another-suffering-artist]

I just discovered I'm probably autistic...

I was excited to find out actually, it felt like for the first time in my life I was starting to make sense to myself.

But no one, not even loved ones, are taking me seriously. I'm heart broken. Am I just so good at masking that they don't see it or am I just delusional?

I've scored really high on all the tests I've taken, yes, even medically approved ones. I feel like it's explained so much about myself that I had previously just wrote off as me being really weird or traumatized from a rough childhood.

I don't know what to do, because of those who know me best don't even beleive me, what is even the purpose in furthing my exploration of it?

[another-suffering-artist]

You know what sucks about a delay in processing stuff?

When someone asks you irl how you feel about doing something and you tell them it's fine but later you sit down and realize it was not fine and you want to back out but it'd seem rude so you just do it anyway.

[another-suffering-artist]

This is your reminder to go eat something!

sweetie, coffee doesn't count as a meal.

Now go take care of your lovely self

[another-suffering-artist]

SPOONIE THINGS NO ONE TALKS ABOUT PART 23

Being hungry, but you can't eat.

I know this isn't universal for most illnesses, but for me, I find myself in this situation far too often.

The most common reason for being hungry and not being able to eat is that you're in too much pain to go get something, the thing you have to eat takes too much effort, or you would have to shop/cook which you don't have the energy for.

There is very few things as frustrating as being starving and not having the energy or spoons to go get food. Then you end up in a loop because in order to get the energy to go get food, you need to eat something. It can cause you to spend several hours waiting for pain waves to pass or hoping the impromptu nap will give you what you need to get up.

The other reason this can happen is that your stomach just decides to screw you and even though it is obviously upset, you still feel hungry. So you start the gamble on,

"Is my stomach hurting because I'm hungry so food will help? Or will this food completely wreck my stomach even more?"

[another-suffering-artist]

Encanto Thoughts #7

When Abuela got the candle, the Casita was her gift. The reason Mirabel didn't get a gift like everyone else, and is also the first person on the door of the new Casita is because she is replacing Abuela's place as the head of the house.

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Encanto Thought #6

In Abuela's backstory song, in almost every shot of her and her husband is a candle.

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Encanto Thoughts #5

When Dolores tells Isabela that "he wants five babies", and the little flowers pop up, Abuela picks off the one flower that is a different color, leaving only the perfect pink ones.

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Encanto Thought #4

When Camilo gets zapped and he turns into members of the family is because, just like the rest of the Madrigals, his family is always what is the first thing on his mind.

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Encanto Thoughts #3

I think the dead fish lady is Felix's sister, which is why she was with the rest of the family when they were dancing around Mirabel.

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Encanto thoughts #2

In Bruno's vision for Isabella he says her power will grow "like the grapes that thrive on the vine". It's a plant without flowers. Anyone else think he was trying to give her a hint?

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Encanto thoughts #1

You realize when Pepa gave birth to Dolores, Camilo, and Antonio that the village had both the worst and best weather ever?

[another-suffering-artist]

Can we talk about the fashion industry

Look, don't get me wrong, I love all of the plus size models we see represented now. But can we just have average sized women, please?

I'm not a plus size, but I'm definitely not small or petite in any way. I'm just average. And I cannot find models that looks like me hardly ever.

I love fashion, and I love to look cute, but I'm insecure in my body because I don't see fashionable influencers with my body type, or models that are just normal sized.

I just feel like us average people need representation too.

[another-suffering-artist]

Watching everyone's end of the year re-caps, I'm realizing how little time I spent this year enjoying myself.

I'm in too much pain to really, authentically enjoy the experiences around me.

It's like someone taking a hammer to your toe every three seconds and you're expected to act as if nothing is going on and the event you're at is more interesting than the throbbing pain in your toe.

It doesn't work that way.

Pain keeps us from doing things and enjoying ourselves.

Every year I have this great hope that the holidays will be amazing and that events I'm looking forward too will be fun, but I'm always let down, through no fault of myself or loved ones, but simply because my body doesn't allow me to enjoy myself.

But maybe this year, this year will be the one in my 21 years of living that will be different.

May this year be better. For me, and for you 🤍🤍🤍

[another-suffering-artist]

If you ever want some entertainment for the holiday season, imagine Darth Vadar singing the Grinch song

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My first attempt at animation 💜

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The holidays are so hard for spoonies. Please be kind this year 💜💜💜