Every year I get older and more worried that I won’t get to experience a queer relationship because I live in a red state, hardly any queer people my age live around me, and I don’t have a car nor can afford to travel anyways.
I’m positive it’s just my anxiety, but it doesn’t mean the fear is any less valid. Especially with how the world is currently. Even with dating apps all the ones in my area are people looking for thirds or older than me (not including the creepy men that put their gender as female (not trans women, I’m talking about those gross middle aged men, love trans women.))
But I’m also not conventionally attractive, which doesn’t help in the slightest. And as I get older it’s the fear of also having not a single prior experience of a relationship to fall back on.
Not to mention I’m also acespec and that’s even harder to find.
I’m not even 20. (I’ve got two days till I am tho-)













