Addicted to pain
Not physical but emotional. Sometimes i like to think that love is the most toxic drug. It’s been years where I’ve been hurt and stressed to the point where i get used to it. To the point where you become afraid of happiness. Always expecting the worst to happen. It’s gotten so bad that you just want to feel that hurt again… that sorrow, that rage. Just a mixture of love and pain. Have you ever wondered why you’ve done what you did but did not know why ? Almost as if it was an unconscious move… You didn’t mean to cause you love that person But… You just had to put yourself in that position to be hurt again. Or… You just know that person is bad for you… but you keep on taking doses of love and pain anyway. It feels good and you can laugh and cry at the sametime. Well I have too. Why do we try to fill the void ? ⚘















