Yandere Liliya Bogomolova, Amelia Collier, and Dr. Easterman Headcanons
♡ A/N: sorry these took me so long! life has been extremely hectic. i struggled at first with easterman's quotes, but he's super fun to write lines for when you get the hang of it! also amelia fans sound off in the comments/tags
♡ Something Important to Note: In these headcanons, romantic, platonic, and sexual attraction are treated as three different things. If a character is mentioned to be sexually attracted to you, that doesn't mean that they're necessarily romantically attracted to you. The type of attraction they have towards you is left to your imagination/discretion ♡
♡ To the beloved of god, you are a lost, helpless lamb, surrounded by hungry, hungry wolves with gaping maws and dripping teeth. And she is your shepard; always prepared to fend off the predators and guide you to safety and righteousness. Liliya believes it is her providential duty to drag you from the clutches of sin and deliver you to salvation, no matter how much you may resist.
♡ Whenever you’re in a trial with her, she will not reveal herself to you boisterously- it just isn’t her style. Liliya much prefers to observe you going about your tasks from the shadows (or hidden in plain sight) at first. She’ll whisper to you to try and disorientate you just enough to mold your mind into something pliant and amenable, ready to participate in her own, twisted version of bible study. It’s something she tries to do as often as she can, preaching to you about the glory of God, the sin that corrupts The Lord’s land, and how the wealthy are the scum of the earth; suckling the holiness from the world dry like a needy infant to a leaking teat.
♡ She is the direct cause of a string of F’s and D’s on your report cards, because her lessons often leave you with an itch deeply embedded into the folds of your mind that turns even the simplest of trial objectives into a nearly impossible undertaking- but not enough to convince you to mutilate yourself in the name of God. Liliya wants you to turn to The Lord of your own volition, with a little bit of encouragement and a lot of education from her, which is why she won’t turn to her usual methods in her efforts to convert you.
♡ If you are particularly stubborn, headstrong, or unfaithful, Liliya will have no qualms doing harmful things to get you to open your mind to God’s love. She’ll use your fellow reagents as leverage and/or bait, especially if she notices that you’re particularly close to one, or if you’re trying to avoid her (and she will notice, if you are).
♡ She is a believer of education through corporal punishment, (long story short, suffering helps you learn) but isn’t as physically violent as Coyle, Mother Gooseberry, or Franco. She still, without question, is, but the worst that she’ll do is cut you with her blades if she thinks that it’s necessary. She might even give you scars that resemble hers; an attempt to relate you to her and bring the two of you closer together. However, she’ll draw the line at cutting off body parts or permanently physically disabling you- it reminds her too much of what happened to her and she wouldn’t even attempt to lower herself to that level. When she thinks you’re in need of physical discipline but doesn’t think it’s necessary to use her blades, she’ll make you kneel on rice or small rocks while she forces you to recite Bible verses until she believes that you’ve properly atoned. She also isn’t above whipping/beating your fingers or the backs of your calves.
♡ Unsurprisingly, Liliya will also utilize psychological punishments- quite often, in fact. One might think it would be somewhat better than receiving permanent scars, but her methods leave scars on the mind as opposed to the body. Is it really so much more bearable to be disorientated until you break down, or bear witness to the inhumane, bloody slaughter and mutilation of a fellow reagent?
♡ If she ever manages to get even a minute alone with Easterman in any sort of lucid state at all, she will convince him to move you to her sleep room. She’ll be so focused on transforming you into her full-time disciple that he’ll still have all of his limbs by the time he sends out the order.
♡-> “He will tend to His flock like a shepherd. He will gather the lambs in His arms. He will carry them in His bosom, and gently lead those that are with young.”
♡-> “God loves you. Your messiah loves you. You have to let us.”
♡-> “There is no longer any need to be frightened. You are one of the Beloved of God. I will serve you.”
♡ Amelia first encounters you in the Sleep Room, and takes a shine to you almost immediately. Maybe you remind her of Damon, maybe your personality hits one of her soft spots. Whatever it is, she quickly grows protective of you to a degree that any person who didn’t live in Sinyala would consider seriously concerning.
♡ She’ll insist on joining you in any and all trials you go into so that she can protect you from the ex-pop, where she’ll delegate you to tasks like gathering items, finding keys, etc; she’ll always have you do the safest things you can in a trial without lowering your grade. Amelia will share her meals with you, picking out whatever appetizing parts she can find to pile on your tray, won’t hear any objections you have about it, and will give you the lion’s share of any treats she buys from Dorris, too.
♡ Amelia will grow especially tense if you’re encountered or approached by a scientist or guard for any reason, even if you’re just due for a checkup or you need to get an emergency blood transfer. Even if she logically knows this, she’ll never be able to bring herself to be comfortable when you’re with them because they’re all pawns of Easterman and Murkoff.
♡ Her anxiety and overprotectiveness will grow to be so overwhelming for her that she’ll lose sleep over it. She’ll pick the lock of her cell after lights out and will sneak over to yours just to watch you sleep; to assure her buzzing mind that you’re warm in your bed and safe as a reagent can be in Sinyala. Amelia will soothe you if you fuss in your sleep from the Murkoff-induced nightmares, and’ll wipe your sweat and tears away.
♡ When Amelia escapes through the ex-pop gate, she’ll be devastated over the fact that she can’t take you with her right away, but immediately devotes herself to getting you out as soon as she possibly can. She’ll break you out of a trial before she starts to make herself known, because the terrifying thought that they might torture you for information crosses her mind. She’d want to do the same for Damon, but she has no idea what sleep room he’s in and has had no success in finding him in the trials.
♡ Every moment that Amelia isn’t orchestrating escape is a moment that she’s devoting to taking care of you. She’ll go out of her way to find you clothes, clean water, and keep you in the best shelter that she can put together in the Biohazard Waste Disposal. You’re rarely allowed to leave the areas she delegates you to without her, because she wants to avoid any sort of outcome where you get sick from all the rot and chemicals, caught by an ex-pop wandering around, or injure yourself.
♡ Instead of resigning herself to a death in the facility after she finds out that Damon has died, she becomes more determined than ever to get out with you. Amelia would never let herself give up when you’re still around, because she has resolved to protect you when you re-enter society. Protect you from Murkoff, from muggers and murderers and any sort of person she can think of that might cause harm to you in the outside world. You become the only thing she has to live for.
♡ Though she’d never admit it to you, ever, Amelia will not hesitate to get violent with anyone she thinks that might hurt you. Guards, ex-pop, or Murkoff officials- it doesn’t matter to her when it comes to you. Amelia can’t take on most of those who would seek to expose your location or cause you harm in a one-on-one fistfight, so she’s crafty about things. She’ll try to confuse them, trick them into stepping into traps, psychosis mines, or other dangerous areas, or get the jump on them and steal their own weapons to use against them if they have one.
♡ Amelia constantly thinks of potential places for the two of you to stay in after she gets you out. She knows you’ll have to stay on the run, the two of you, especially if she’s actively working to expose Murkoff and the goings-on in the Sinyala Facility. She mentally prepares for all sorts of scenarios, but you are the one constant in each of them, and the first thing she tries to determine about a location is if you’ll be safe and comfortable there. She feels that she owes you comfort after taking you to the wastes.
♡-> “Hey, hey, look at me. Breathe, come on, breathe. There you go. You don’t gotta be scared anymore, I’m here, and I swear to God I’ll keep you safe.”
♡-> “Don’t care what I gotta do, I’m gonna get you outta here. If it’s the last goddamn thing I do.”
♡-> “Stay here. It’s a fuckin’ nightmare out there, trust me. Just- just hold out a little longer for me. I promise we’re gonna get outta this shithole soon, I promise.”
Dr. Hendrick Joliet Easterman
♡ Though he denies it and will continue to deny it to the utmost degree, Easterman has very obvious favoritism over you. Important paperwork is often neglected in favor of watching you go about a trial or the sleep room, making comments and notes to himself all the while. He takes pride in personally observing, evaluating, and grading all of your trials himself, as it makes him feel closer to you.
♡ The guards and junior scientists exchange worried and confused looks every time the director comes into your sleep room after lights out to stare at you in your bed and caress your vulnerable, sleeping form. Easterman has no shame in this, or when he maneuvers your head to lay on his lap while he goes on and on about his day.
♡ He’s the jealous type, especially so over the Prime Assets and the other reagents. If he thinks that you’re getting too cozy with a Prime for his liking, he’ll order the scientists and guards to keep you away from any trials that have them in it, and won’t let that particular asset in on any Prime Time trials you participate in. Jealousy over one of your fellow reagents is much easier for him to deal with. All he has to do is secretly goad an ex-pop or direct the Jaeger to them. A flick of the wrist, and he can have them strapped with lights and bombs, strung up in a trial, or sent off to test the Morphogenic Engine. Easterman is also not above scolding you in private if you seem close to someone, throwing out wild accusations and demanding to know if you love them more than him.
♡ You are often subjected to trials made for you specifically. They all reflect values and/or ideas that Easterman wants you to have, including but not limited to; the idea that he is the only one who loves you, that he is your sole protector, that he’s the only one you can trust, that your fellow reagents secretly resent you, etc.
♡ You often have special treats and gifts from him delivered to your cell, even if it’s things that are usually banned in the sleep room. Candy, sweets, coffee, new clothing. Easterman won’t mind if the other reagents are envious- in fact, he thrives if the special treatment incurs social isolation, because he’s hopeful that it will, in turn, incur loneliness, which he hopes will drive you to him, or incur resentment towards your fellow reagents, which sates his jealousy somewhat.
♡ Easterman’s scoldings when you get a low grade range from scathing to mildly disappointed, depending on his mood. He’ll say that he expects better from his perfect little how-high, and accuse you of doing poorly on purpose to upset him or get his attention. He’ll be overjoyed if he makes you cry or gets a reaction out of you because of it, because to him, it means his words and opinion matter to you. The most hurtful emotion you can feel towards him is not hate- it’s indifference, and would work himself up to the point of rage and full-on sobbing if you relentlessly acted so towards him.
♡ He has two entire cabinets (one in his office, one in his own bedroom) filled to the brim with photographs of you, clothing that you’ve worn, and personal items that have been stolen right out of your cell.
♡ Easterman will never let you rebirth- not if he can help it. He blacklists you from receiving rebirth tokens, and from the entire program, in general. If the guard or scientist manning the station that day didn’t get the memo, and you somehow managed to get yourself into the mansion, he’s having you escorted from it as soon as possible and turning everyone involved into an ex-pop.
♡ It’s inevitable that Avellanos, Lawler, Scarfiotti and Clyde Perry (if he’s still around) notice Easterman’s obsession, no matter how hard he tries to hide it from them and no matter how many excuses he makes when they inevitably bring it up or confront him about it. If his work is being seriously neglected because he’s been too busy watching you, they’ll force him to sit down and actually run the facility he’s in charge of, but they know better than to do anything to you, because they know Easterman would dive head-first into the deep end if they did.
♡-> “You don’t really want to leave me. You just think you do. It’s not entirely your fault, of course. A toddler screams at his mother when she takes the nozzle of the drain cleaner from his mouth. You may think that I don’t know what’s best, but you don’t have to worry anymore. I’m here to help you.”
♡-> “You are a perfect, pure lamb. Vulnerable. Lying docile on the table until the teeth or the knife pierces and stains your soft fur ugly crimson. But lambs have legs to follow their shepherd, who protects them from the cultist, from the wolf. Follow the shepherd, reject the carnivores, and we will let you out.”
♡-> “You’re special. You’re loved- but only by me. Others don’t know how wonderful you are, or maybe they do, and they simply don’t care. Don’t fret. Ignorance can be a blessing, if you’re willing to think of it as such. It only makes our bond stronger. I’ll always love you more than anyone could.”
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