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boiiii, twas raining initially. The tour guide was teasing me as I was happily playinnn with my white trainers. Gewd Lewd wasn't expecting a cavern tour in Matlock Bath but twas a highlight. Sun showed up from time to time. The village reminded me so much of that one from Japan few years back. It was very peaceful and beautiful ❤️ We rode a cable car back and forth but was pre-reminded that cable car trip might be cancelled due to the weather. Unknowingly what lies ahead, went on to say as long as there is another way back we should be good to go. The teller said there is a way back but had to walk like 2 miles or so downhill. And so I said, lezzget it on. Cos hu knows, cabinet, table. jk. k. bye. brain's empty tbh, was scrolling trough gallery and saw these bita so I had to write sumfin to not forget the feeling.

Loveyou lots.

5/10 isolation.

Couldn't sleep, so might as well just write sumfin, anythin.

*deep breaths*

Was posting a beach ig/fb story and the manager probably thought I was making up a story of a housemate being covid positive to get a free 10 days isolation and was enjoying the beach. She was asking me of a proof or sumthin that says I needed to self-isolate. Like srsly, was all ready for a night shift when we received the swab result back saying my housemate was positive. Was not sure with the protocol as I already had 2 doses of vaccine and it says in the government website that if you are fully vaccinated then you don't need to self-isolate but then when I checked the hospital's protocol regarding self-isolation dangggg violaaa 10 days it is. But anyway, to cut it short, I've sent her a copy of the swab result, proof of address for me and my housemate with surely our names on it, and the screenshot of the daily bulletin highlighting the hospital protocol on self-isolation. Woudn't blame her tho, as it is already our 3rd cycle of isolation. *engk* so ya 10 days off but can't enjoy the sun thing.

On day 1, I said I'm gana be as productive as I can (write songs, rearrange room, play drums, stream, record, road to mythical glory etc) but 5 days later, still hasn't done a thing. I wanted to get rid of so many things but also I'm emotionally attached to most of it so it was hard letting go. One thing or another, I knew I had to keep my room as minimalist as possible. But also if you know me well, I'm a hoarder, I'm a keeper, I'm an emotional junkee keeping receipts as souvenirs and such cos I value them a lot and the memories with it. Anyway, I think the goal is to let go of the things that I didn't even use for a year now. Hopefully, I'd be able to keep my stand on that. Just ordered additional toys for my toy collections but will probably let go of some in the display cabinet. Ironic! Huhuhu

Washing machine was broken for about 2 weeks now and we had continuously followed up the agency but no one came. We tried troubleshooting but we had no luck. So you see, my laundry basket is overflowing that i wanted to throw everything in the trash bin. Lol

So earlier, I folded the 2week old not so fresh laundry and piled them up in the closet the "6 inches" way, ironed my clothes while watching shaman king and my favorite thing to do - i vacuumed the room but my 60 yr old back is terrible had to stop and stay flat in bed. And then, I wanted to organise my photos in my phone and stuff like that and wanted to write on my journal notebook cos it was quite a while now. Also, i cooked sinigang yesterday and made some hot lemon juice with honey. Today, was lazy to get up, so we ordered lamb doners! Im muching doners while typing this. And yes, Im nao 45 kg from 42 kg okayyy byeee!

the most unplanned laag that turned out to be one of the best :)

was just recently from cornwall but still got extra days free so went with friends to bournemouth (although me and matty has a little twitch of a story the last time we went bournemouth and that's a different spotlight y'see) I wouldn't want to waste the sunny weather this time so I had to drop few bankshifts and was like sh*t okay enough with monieesss.

Stayed one night in Bournemouth and had to wake up early in the morning for Durdle Door. Well nothing fancy rly, just music by the beach, playing cards, chillin, laughing, drinking, amusements, dancepads, basketball, photography and and food.

Introduced friends to Kokoro :) My fave to go food and they loved it.

Enjoyed the long walk that seemed to be underestimated by google maps as it said 7 mins but the f*k we were walking round woods and stones and sands and waidap for like 30 mins. But as I was saying, I'm not complaining cos it was a whole lot of fun.

heyu, been a while. Guess, it's me prepin for some sizzlin' 4 reg nights again. Not as tired as before, at least I only need to worry about getting a minimum of 4 hrs sleep, insomnia's been attacking me recently but yes no more "what to eat, what to cook, what to what" - i got me a fatty lover. Ugh, don't worry, im bribing him with everything. It's a win-win, okai?

And, twas a productive off. Unplanned laags are always the best. Got to eat at hk buffet finally! yahhh the shrimps that I was prev talking about. such a foodporn bech. Then, I had jollibee omggggg! and then I had ramennnnn and then capping the night with conjuring. The first of the many big screens. I remembered prior to this pandemic, mondays have always been our movie date. I was excited. And then found myself the only one shouting in the cinema like hello it isn't a library y'know. And it isn't a romantic movie either! it's a horror movie and it's not just any horror movie, it's conjuring!! humaaans! you are expected to shout because it's supposed to be scary!!! ohh common. I had mini cornettos, I had a coke in hand and fries. *kisses*

-- the way you hold her hand when you know she's scared, or you save the last piece of chicken wings for her, laughing at her jokes even the really lame ones, slow dancing in the kitchen --

the way you do, love.

he got me 4 additional toys today and also ate some kokoro. I deserved this after finishing that 4 regular nights 🤣

partyy partyyy!

on to my 3rd night.

I felt like my body was too heavy, mind tilted. I didn't want to get up. Wanted to drown myself in my newly changed sheet. And then came Mattehh from downstairs. Surprised me with some sort of ....

"Steamed rice and siomaii"!!! giving me some sort of motivation to actually survive my 4 reg nights.

ff : long break came, and he was right at the main entrance. Ordered some dominos (again) and spent the long break together. Mattehh is spoiling me i wanna cryyyy. ok.

pw: PAKSIT.

there was no escaping...

It was quite a skill he has motivating me to do workout with him.

"5-min workout", he said.

and then I turned all huffy and red, sweaty and panting after all those random laughters while following that promised 5-min exercise. We should really take this seriously but working out together? More on laughing our ass out together.

Meanwhile...

what do you wanna eat?

*see are we really on a diet?* then picks dominos 🤣

*also, i want a massage*

...can't take NO for an answer.

"what if i'm a psychopath"

"I might be a psychopath"

"No Love, psychopaths don't fall in love."

"Then let's just kill together."

*thinks deep*

bebu, i can make this my forever ringtone. ❤️

pretty tired after that lifting and rearranging of furnitures the entire day todai so might as well dump some photos unrelated to my rubbish blabbering.

Oh, made a new ml account so I can play with friends in the lower rank. *eyes rolling* and and and booked a bank shift later tonight. Was tempted to actually cancel it, but I needed some moniesz so had to convince my heart and soul that I'm okaayy getting out of bed, working 13.5 hrs or so, and gadamn not be able to watch anime. I'm okay, ok?

If not with the pizza, chicken and lamb doner I'm chewing atm, might not be okay. But my mouth is full y'know, can't complain. My head's hurtin so much I'm not sure why, is it because of my ponytail, or because I was way too hardworking and productive all day, or the fact that it's 1 am and im goin back to work later. huhu My new room set up is fab btw.

ep 24 done for jujutsu kaisen after trying to finish it last night with eyes half closed. Not the kind of ending I was hoping tho, but it was okayy.

now the hardest part is the "waiting game". will have to wait for a year whut.

will eventually read the manga to finish the AOT cos it was dragging af and will wait until there'll be few eps for my hero academia.

Went to Lewisham to collect mattyukun's brp. and in few days time, AL's done. That's a quick 3 weeks. Now 44 kg from 42. So we made a pact to never ever have sugar intake starting from whenever cos apparently we had kokoro + coke + ice cream + cake today 🤣

so diet will resume soon. Happy me. :)

HOOKED but not super invested yet cos I'm still on ep 15 but good lord, I was actually binge watching like a slob. Interesting and well budgetted anime lol.

there's gojo, and there's fushiguro and I loved the more monstery-looking Yuji. And I loved the villains too. 🤣

still imagining how Okkotsu would look like as he has yet to have his appearance 🤣 i hope the image i've been sketching on my mind is about right.

Meanwhile, too busy lazy-ing with my fatass matyuchan. Unlimited food deliveries, games, music, anime and and ... oh shut up you!

Love,

I will always be your support system - your strongest one.

Needless to say, i love you.

02:40

Bout of insomnia.

Sleep is a no-brainer for some. For the weird me, I always find it difficult not to think - "TO OVERTHINK" to be exact. It's not something that comes so easy. So see, here I am at 2:45 am, staring at the ceiling, perfectly still with a mind crawling all angles I can possibly get. I find it fascinating how my mind works, tho annoying at times like when I'm supposed to be enjoying my sleep in preparation for my long day shift that starts in a few hours time as of this writing.

I can't switch my brain off. Entertaining all the thoughts, including me living in another planet, or me being just a pretty frog. At the brink of anything, any possible things.

And then, i shut.

see yahh! ❤️

forgive mahh haggard face mf, me so busy but lovin the thrill.

guess i'll have to see you in cambridge! That's me tryin to be productive. eyyyoooweee. kbye and goodnight.

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