[baekthin]

welcome to my blog !

this is a personal ed vent blog, my ed vents are tagged with #tw ed and occasional self harm vents are tagged with #tw sh .

i do not post or reblog thinspo or any other proana material. i reblog prorecovery posts, recipes, and mental health memes.

i am always willing to make friends or have a chat with anybody so never be afraid to send me an ask or dm. <3

[baekthin]

it’s been 5 years, i don’t think any of u will remember me

anyone still here and doesn’t make a new social media every year lol

[baekthin]

hii guys, it’s been two years. are any of u even alive still?? <3

[orchidsbloomagain-deactivated20]

It is never too late or too early to recover.

You are never too sick or not sick enough to recover.

You don’t have to earn the right to recover.

[heart-of-a-wildflower-deactivat]

You can’t live with an eating disorder.

You can survive. You can breathe and fake a smile and function, but you can’t live.

You can’t have fun, you can’t relax, you can’t enjoy food, you can’t succeed, you can’t dance, you can’t go to parties, you can’t do the things everyone else is doing, you can’t do the things you love, YOU CAN NOT LIVE.

[baekthin]

i think i followed most people back who followed whilst i was gone, but if i haven't followed u feel free to like this or comment !!

i love n support y'all so i don't wanna accidentally miss anyone 👉👈

[baekthin]

changed my name back to baekthin

ghostcrpytic → baekthin

[baekthin]

hi i disappeared for a few months or so..? i'm back now!!

life update if ur interested:

i didn't mention about my ED whilst i was last inpatient, i posted saying i was unsure whether i should of not before, but i was taken out of inpatient care very quickly so i didn't end up getting comfortable enough to share my troubles with my ED, and it wasn't noticed by any staff since i think they regarded it as a lack of appetite from depression.

i haven't been to school at all this year basically, i've unofficially dropped out and i'm going to instead do a course in something i like or get a full time job once corona calms down.

so that's this whole year in a few paragraphs.. how are y'all doing?? i hope y'all are doing okay!! if not, my DMs are open <3

[goingkokothin]

me coming back on tumblr after failing my 8474838th attempt to recover

[britp0p-deactivated20210628]

repeat after me:

even if i don’t like my body today i will take care of it

even if i don’t like myself today i will still be patient and kind with myself

even if i do not love myself i will still take care of and be kind to myself, despite not wanting to

[starvingwithbts]

My stand on “pro-ana”

I don’t know if anyone cares enough to read this, but I want to get this off my chest, as I’ve seen a lot of posts about this topic floating around. Please remember before cursing me out, this is just my opinion and you don’t have to agree with me.

You are not pro-ana if

you’re posting or reblogging tips

you’re posting or reblogging thinspo

you’re answering asks

You are pro-ana if

you wish this mental illness upon someone else

you tell people they are fat and should starve themselves

you actively encourage other people to develop an eating disorder

you think eating disorders are a good thing and more people should have one

I have never seen anyone in this community do the things I consider pro-ana on here. We know that we are sick and I bet you my green tea collection that there is nobody on here that wishes this upon anyone else.

[from-fat-to-perfect]

LOUDER

[skinny-yoongi]

L O U D E R

[pinks-recovery]

Posting tips and thinspo is absolutely pro. Because even if your intent isnt to encourage disordered eating, it still enables sick people to consume harmful content that keeps them sick, and find new ways to continue their disorder.

Being pro ana does not necessarily mean that you WANT people to starve themselves, but it is the continuation of the disorder, the cycle of self hatred and weight loss that you ultimately promote, even if that’s not your intention.

Be mindful of what you post. Ask yourself if there is content that others may be able to use to fuel their disorder, whether through behaviors (get rid of hunger, purging tips), or the mental aspect of the disorder ( boys will love me when I’m skinny, there’s nothing like feeling weightless, I feel so fat I need to starve for 3857428 years).

[letmegetmysmokeon]

i’ll take both LOL

[baekthin]

im back inpatient (attempt reasons)

i’m currently lying about restricting + purging bahaviours bc at this point idk if i should or shouldn’t be talking about it

if they were to monitor me more seriously they’d pick up on it more (i’m skipping meals, throwing out most of meals i eat, etc.) but i think i’ll just be able to dodge them realising?

but on the other hand do i really wanna push it back longer? i’m only a minor for about a year, and maybe it’d be better to get my ed addressed and get some sort of treatment whilst i’m still in kid facilities? but also i’ve seen how harsh they are to kid ed patients and i’m not sure if i’m ready to handle that yet. but then again it might be even worse in adult facilities.

wtff do i do

[baekthin]

my calves hurt so fucking bad i can barely walk wtf, i just hope they don’t give out on me while i’m walking to school or at school.

[baekthin]

i’ve strained both of my calves from overexercise and it is terribly painful to even walk. also scale broke at home so i have no idea how much i weigh, i love having an ed!!!!!!

[baekthin]

when i thought i couldn’t get worse, i now know how to purge silently. my life and future is so fucked lol.

[tinypixiie]

if you haven’t been told this today,

- i’m proud of you

- i want you to keep trying

- take a deep breath

- everything will be okay

- please don’t give up

- people love you

- i love you