bara blenny

space(s) for whatever where borders between reality and fiction blurs. time unfolds and cockiness is likely to hit that spot where it's personal and too much to handle

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11.12.25

today I feel all the pain, there is a blur in front of my windows I could not tell the post office the number of the package

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I want to be the gardener for you to blossom

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You are emptiness, the ultimate substance

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post performance talk with lady in the mask,

you see, Elliot is a performer.. and you're a performer too. it's special, everyone is not a performer. but when you know you know

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“… so, can I be your boyfriend for this weekend?”

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When those kind of words have lost their magick & doesn’t really matter anymore, Oh how I longed for them to be true But you were always too good at projecting your broken past onto your present moment, confusing what you had been through with what actually was going on, and also with what could have been unfolding and then, you gave up on us and so, I have to give up as well It is the hardest thing, because I never learnt how to give up on love You forced me to do so much I never wanted I wish I knew how to let go, for real

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I’m stitching up my heart space now — again

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Everywhere I go I am reminded of you

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There are parts of you that never became that still are coming out of me

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Sometimes, it’s better like that

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#selfcare

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Thank you for showing me your true face, so I didn’t have to waste more of me on you

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A man appears in the garden

He says something in German

Someone translates

He says that he is going to take an ice bath and walk around naked in the garden