call me hopeless, but not romantic

@benjiboiii

Ben 😉 22, Learning how to "adult" -Loves ❤️️- Mayday Parade (same birthday as Derek Sanders!) Falling In Reverse 🖤 / Ronnie Radke is my fucking idol Basketball Is Life 🏀 Anime 🚼 (open to recommendations!) Chef wannabe 🍳 Guitar, Piano, Uke 🎸 Just tryin' to bring more joy and happiness to this world 🤗

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pain, as always, here

feeling shunned, alone, under-accomplished, all in a foreign country, even in a house filled with people

only my parents could make me feel that way, and only because I love them too much, but this still sucks.

is spending a couple hundred bucks really such a *fucking* terrible thing? is saving these hundred bucks to respect my parents' wishes, missing out on my precious friends' once in a lifetime moment, really worth it?

help me lord

what the actual fuck am I doing

taking things for granted. 5 months in the place of my dreams and not doing anything to hold on to it

triggered by getting a baito > not replying for 2 weeks > finally replying > getting rejected

all because I’m still the same fucking useless fucking loser from all these years

when the actual fuck will I start to get off my fucking ass and get shit done

wake up call #2532

gimme smth to hold on to, please.

maybe at the end of the day, I’m still just a kid/the hopeless romantic