Back on my bullshit

Taylor. 27 female. Im NOT pro If you are struggling with an eating disorder please do note that there will be stuff on this blog that can be very triggering. Please stay away. If my page offends you, please block, don't report. I need somewhere to vent.

[zensscared420-deactivated202203]

[zippyzstuff]

[boho-bones]

That feeling when you want to kill yourself but are too depressed to go to the store to get the shit you'd need. Y'all, I'm so fucking done with everything

[perrfectly]

[wahbegan]

So tired…..i crave death….can somebody find a way to put me into a coma please and thank you

[98kcal]

why is it so hard to just stop eating

[ashstfu]

january 2022 keeps testing me like im mentally stable or something

[skinnibeatch]

I JUST WANT TO LOOK GOOD IN COMFY CLOTHES

[grilledcheesesnightmares]

I truly am losing everything but weight over here

[boho-bones]

I'm 145lbs of disgusting, ugly, repulsive FAT and I need to put that out there to the world so I can regain the motivation to change it.

Feel free to critize. I'm tired of being ugly and alone. 😭🙃

[crystalwaifu-deactivated2022122]

Biggest D you've ever had ?

Depression

[sadartistboy]

Dysphoria

[elli0t-b0nes-deactivated2024092]

disordered eating

[boho-bones]

Note to self:

Just don't fucking eat. It's not that freaking hard 😒

[boho-bones]

My teacher once told me that when you're taking a test, your first answer is usually the right one. So don't second guess yourself, and go with your gut.

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What if my gut tells me not to take the test?

[fatpotatosaysmoo]

things I'm good at

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being insane

[boho-bones]

How do you cure emptiness? What am I supposed to fill it with in a world where nothing real exists? Yet we ignore this reality by filling ourselves with futile endeavors. We hide our fear of inadequacy behind status, wealth, achievements, relationships, material belongings, education, friendships, cliques, sports, hobbies- anything. Anything just anything to kill the time and make our fleeting attempt at memorializing ourselves in history. Our desire to be remembered by someone, somewhere, for something drives us to avoid looking the beast in the eye and having to come to terms with our complete inability to accomplish anything of lasting meaning or value. We are born, we live, and we die, and we return to the ground.

And as for me personally, I've failed at living. All I can do is stare ahead toward the void and wait as the clock ticks foreword. Unforgiving.

[eirener-deactivated20180925]

[li4r]

telling job interviewers i work great under pressure knowing id kill myself