You don't have to change who you are

Hello! Clare Edwards, grade 11 at Degrassi Community School. I enjoy school and can most often be found studying in the library or working on some kind of project. Lover of the written word I'm most often found with a pen in my hand or a good book. Want...

[bookwormclare]

marijuanagolds:

Are you sure? Because I mean, I can show you were I hid the bodies ;) Please, I doubt that you could handle yourself. I mean, you wouldn’t know when I was going to strike. You would always be on guard and the moment you let it down, I will easily come in and kill you. Well you kind of did hesitate Clare. Great, I’ll see you then ;) just remember to not bring anything Twilight related. 

Very funny, Eli. I could handle myself. That’s assuming you were a serial killer which we both know that you’re not. You’re too nice to be one ;) I did not hesitate, clearly you’re imagining things. I promise not to bring anything Twilight related, even though I still think if you would watch the movies just once you would see that they aren’t as bad as you think they are. Fine, no Twilight, but none of your awful horror movies either.

[bookwormclare]

marijuanagolds:

Well you don’t know ;) I could be a serial killer just waiting for you to take the bait. You hesitated and you know what people often say about hesitation, it means they usually have something to hide. You suppose or would you love to go to my place? 

Hm still not convinced that you’re a serial killer ;) And even if you were, which we both know that you aren’t, I could handle myself. I did not hesitate! I think you’re starting to imagine things, Eli ;p I’d love to go to your place.

[bookwormclare]

marijuanagolds:

You could say that, or who knows. I could be even hiding a body in my room. ;) I really think you’re just prying for answers Edwards. Questions that will never have an answer because anything else is invalid besides the information that I’ve given you. You’ll just have to go to my place or I can go to your place if you really want to find out. 

You could be, but somehow I don’t think you are ;) I am not prying for answers! I’m... trying to make conversation by getting to know you better, I would hardly consider that prying. I suppose I could go to your place.

[bookwormclare]

Because of how dark you must keep your room? ;) I’m sure you’ll manage to get over it. I am not prying for answers! I’m... just curious is all. Questions like what else you’re afraid of. Which is not considered prying by the way. And what ways are those?

[marijuanagolds-blog]

Are you sure? Have you gone into my room, trying to find evidence? I mean, if you have, then you’re most likely not going to find it. I bet if I were to go in your room, I can find evidence of your fears, well more fears than the ones we talked about ;) Please Detective, try all you want but you’ll never find out. I don’t even have evidence that points to multiple fears. Pffft of course not. You know, you’re kind of sexy when you’re trying to pry for answers ;)

[bookwormclare]

I’m positive. I haven’t gone in your room. You are so full of yourself, Eli. I have nothing in my room that would make you think I have more fears than what we talked. Detective? Really, Eli? ;p Everybody has multiple fears and I’m going to find out what they are. I am not trying to pry for answers! I’m just... asking a few questions. If... you think that’s going to make me forget about trying to find out what your other fears are you’re wrong.

[marijuanagolds-blog]

Thank you for figuring me out so well. I’m glad that you can read me like a book almost ;) but yes, that is absolutely, the only fear I have. Not like I’m afraid of other things, please, your protector is hardly afraid of anything. Well, I mean, what if the Ferries Wheel ends up stopping and we’re shaking in mid air? Would you be scared then? Or what if the coaster stops and we’re upside down for about a few minutes? Would that not scare you? Hey, I try. ;)

[bookwormclare]

I highly doubt that is the only fear that you have. Everybody has more than one fear and I’m going to figure out what yours is. I think the better question is would that not scare you?

[marijuanagolds-blog]

Hmph, I scoff at that idea. What would give you the idea that I have more than just one fear? ;) What if I was there to protect you? Would you still be scared then? Yes, it would be fun to do something like that but come on. I’m sure you would want to do something exciting once every now and then. How about amusement parks? Do those scare you as well? I mean the machines might come to life at night and try to kill us. 

[bookwormclare]

Well people usually have more than one fear, but since I guess you aren’t exactly the average person the only thing you must have a fear of is Where the Wild Things Are, right? ;) Yes, I would still be scared then and that’s still not going to convince me that going to a haunted house for a date is a good idea. Of course I want to do something fun every once in awhile. Amusement parks don’t scare me, but those are a completely different thing from a haunted house, Eli. Very funny.

[marijuanagolds-blog]

Please, like I would share some of those fears with you? Besides what makes you think I have more than just a fear of that? ;) It’s fun because things that are scary make you feel like you can conquer anything after surviving the thrill. It’s fun because you don’t have an idea what is going to happen. It’s not like anyone is going to hurt you or anything. I mean if they did then they’re liable . Well, you know me, just being realistic. 

[bookwormclare]

Everybody has more than one fear, even people who claim to be fearless like you ;p Fun? I don’t consider getting scared being fun. They may not hurt you, but it’s still scary having people jump out at you and take pleasure from you being scared. I find nothing fun about that. Wouldn’t it be more fun to go somewhere else? Like a coffee shop or to the movies where you don’t have to worry about people jumping out after you?

[marijuanagolds-blog]

Totally can get over my fears Clare without a doubt. Well, probably not all of my fears but the ones that I can easily conquer without any issue ;) I don’t understand why you think haunted houses are not even all that fun. What about the kind of houses that are created to be scary? Where people are hired to dress up as monsters to scare others? Yes, but I hardly doubt it. Even if they had that happy ending in the end it’ll crumble, humans were not created to be monogamous.

[bookwormclare]

You mean you have more fears than just being afraid of Where the Wild Things Are? ;p I don’t understand why you think they are fun. What is so fun about being scared? Those are even worse! What’s fun about people jumping out at you and being afraid to go around a corner? There’s nothing fun about those, Eli. Well aren’t you full of optimism when it comes to happy endings.

[marijuanagolds-blog]

Yeah, the movie won’t get me nightmares at all. Pfft, come on Edwards. You seem to forgot that I’m not like other adults, I can actually get over my fears. Please, my date night idea was perfect. Even if you’re afraid of things that go bumping in the night ;) Heeey, don’t be rude. It’s okay for us to have some sort of ego seldomly. Because with tragic endings, you can always wonder ‘what if’ rather than be satisfied with the happy ending you’re going to get. It satisfies writers themselves to think of their own endings, I mean, wouldn’t you rather write your own ending rather than being simply satisfied with the ending that is being given? 

[bookwormclare]

You can actually get over your fears? Does that mean that you’re completely fearless? ;p Your date night idea was horrible! You’re the only person who would think going to a haunted house would make a good date. I am not afraid of things that go bump in the night! I simply think that there are better ways to spend date night. You may have a valid point, but isn’t it nice sometimes to have a happy ending?

[marijuanagolds-blog]

Of course, why would I fear a movie now since I’m practically an adult. I mean as a child, I was terrified and most of my nightmares consisted of those things trying to eat me. Now I hardly have any nightmares about it, so I can pretty much take it. You keep forgetting how wonderful and brave your boyfriend can be. ;) Of course, I’m sure if we were to place it in the search engine or on rottontomatoes we’re bound to get some idea. Are you sure about that? 

[bookwormclare]

Sometimes people are still scared of things from their childhood even when they are practically adults. So if you promise the movie won’t give you nightmares we should definitely watch it. It’ll be a much better date night than your awful idea of going to a cemetery or a haunted house ;p Wonderful and brave, someone sounds incredibly full of themselves ;) I’m positive about that. I don’t understand how you can think that tragic endings are better than happy endings. Everybody loves a happy ending.

[marijuanagolds-blog]

We can watch it. I told you, that was a fear of mine when I was much younger. Ahhh, well I’m sure in the previews it looked cute, however, what was the overall feeling of the movie from others who actually watched the movie? Any word on that. Nah, tragic ones are better. ;) 

[bookwormclare]

So your fear of the movie is cured now that you’re much older? ;p No word on what people who saw the movie thought of it, but we could find that out easily. Tragic endings aren’t always better.

[marijuanagolds-blog]

Well not everyone finds the normal scary stuff to be horrifying. Pfft, like that movie will scare me. I’m practically an adult now. So yeah. ;) Well tragic endings are great. I mean, it gives so much depth to the characters, I’m surprised that I even enjoy them to begin with. 

[bookwormclare]

If the movie doesn’t scare you maybe we should watch it then. It always looked like a good movie from the previews at least. Tragic endings can be nice every once in awhile I suppose, but happy endings are so much better.

[marijuanagolds-blog]

Nope, that didn’t scare me as a kid. It was kind of fun, especially when things started to get real rowdy. I remember one time my parents were freaking out because they said I got lost in the crowd, crawling as they tried leading me on stage - well that’s according to my parents but who knows, I think they were on something. Um, yeah, I mean, psh, I’m much older now, a movie like that isn’t going to scare me. True, but as long as it has a tragic ending. Now that would be a great movie. 

[bookwormclare]

I still can't believe that Where The Wild Things Are scared you, but rock concerts didn't. Really? So you wouldn't mind watching that movie with me sometime? ;) Nobody likes movie with tragic endings, especially not romantic ones. Except for maybe you ;p

[marijuanagolds-blog]

Hey, the artwork gave me nightmares. Try imaging yourself as a four year old reading the book and staring at the pictures for the first time. No, I never watched the movie. Haha romance movies? I thought most guys often watch those to only satisfy their lover or because they think the romance will set the mood for sex. Really now? Of course my sweet princess ;)

[bookwormclare]

So Where The Wild Things Are scared you as a child, but your parents taking you to rock and metal concerts didn't scare you when you were a kid? ;p I suppose this means we'll have to add Where The Wild Things Are to our list of movies that we can't watch. I'm sure there are some guys who watch them because they actually enjoy a romantic movie every once in awhile.

[marijuanagolds-blog]

Well then, since you’re telling me that you won’t laugh at this. For the longest time, as a child, I remember being absolutely horrified about Where The Wild Things Are. The monsters scared me, I remember always having nightmares about myself running away from them. I rather watch something that does, I think it gets the blood pumping and horror movies are supposed to bring people closer together. Oh darn, I was just ready to pack my shovel. Please, chivalry is dead if you believe it to be ;)

[bookwormclare]

But that book is so good! I cant' believe that gave you nightmares. Here I was thinking that the book that scared you so badly would be something.... more scary I guess. Does that mean you didn't watch the movie? ;p Horror movies do nothing but give people nightmares. If any movie genre brings people closer together it would be romance movies not something that terrifies people. Besides everybody loves a good romantic movie. Chivalry might not be as dead as I thought it was ;)

[marijuanagolds-blog]

Why do I have a feeling that even when you reassure me that you’re not going to laugh when I actually tell you what book scared me that you will start laughing about it? Oh come on, they’re scary but the stories make you feel better because you’re not the one in that position. Hey, you know I can go by myself, but going with you would be much better. Oh please, you know me ;) a true gentleman.

[bookwormclare]

Maybe you're just paranoid ;p I won't laugh, Eli, I promise. Besides I'm sure whatever book scared you so much wasn't that embarrassing to begin with. The stories don't make me feel better, they make me scared and I still don't understand how you can find a show like that enjoyable. Wouldn't you rather watch something that doesn't keep you up at night with nightmares? Keep dreaming, Eli. I am not going on a date with you to the cemetery. And I thought chivalry had died ;)