just another broken Human Being

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Unsure

There are so many things in my life that I’m unsure about.

I’m unsure about my current relationship

I’m unsure about my education choice.

I’m unsure about my gender

I’m unsure about my sexuality

I’m unsure about my ability to look after my family

However, when I think back, I don’t think I’ve ever been sure about anything. I don’t think I’ve ever made a firm decision about my feelings or my choices in life and been absolutely 100% sure of them. And this is what makes me doubt my hapiness, question my thoughts and feelings, and prevent me from living.

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95%

She told me that once

That she was 95% herself when she was with me.

I’ve craved that 5% ever since.

Be with a girl

She told me that just now

She said she could be with a girl, if she wasn’t in love with him.

I’ve been in knots ever since.

You know I shouldn't be thinking this. I mean we were friends so long ago. I fell in love with her so long ago. But now that we’re reunited, and spending time together again, I see her the exact same way that I use to. She’s just everything I could want. She’s free spirited, beautiful, healthy, reflective, intelligent. She’s so much more than I am in so many ways. But I still feel proud of who I am when I’m with her.

She’s so much like my girl, but she’s the original. She’s stronger. She’s more respectful. She’s had experience in relationships. She loves to ride. God she’s beautiful.

This girl. This girl, she’s my lobster.