Where Does The Good Go

Anthony Terris - 24 - Submissive Separated Claim It's love that leaves and breaks the seal of always thinking you would be real, happy and healthy, strong and calm. Where does the good go... Where does the good go...?

[brokenheart-intow]

Time To Pretend // Derek & Tone

[everettrhee]

Derek nodded as Anthony spoke because he did understand. “I know, baby. I’m a patient man and I won’t get mad at you. I’ll give a reminder here and there, but gently with love. Not hate or anything of the kind. I like that you call me Sir at all times, so we’ll keep that, but I don’t want you to be nervous if you do something that might’ve been frowned upon in your past. I want to make new rules with you. Ones that I hope you can learn because you want to, not because you’re forced to.” Another kiss because he couldn’t keep his lips away. This deepening relationship with Anthony was only getting better and better as they days went on. He knew he’d fallen for the other, but the words were still a ways away to really say. “How does that sound, sweetheart?”

[brokenheart-intow]

Taking in the next kiss after listening to what Derek said, he felt his heart flutter for the first time in so long. Relaxing into the man's arms a bit, he held himself there while looking into his eyes. "All of it sounds perfect, Sir. I'd love to make new rules and boundaries with you. I would never want to be forced into rules. You know how I feel about all of that rot." He told him, running his nails over the man's scalp and neck. "Why don't we go out? On a date of sorts? Not tonight but sometime this week? I've...never actually been on one to be quite honest. None of the fancy dinners, roses...romance." He told him, brushing his nose against Derek's to show that he was trying to be affectionate and opening up to him. The Dominant was giving him this chance to redeem himself as a submissive and with better boundaries. What better way than to open up and be a bit sweeter towards him?

[brokenheart-intow]

Time To Pretend // Derek & Tone

[everettrhee]

"You are." Derek replied simply as he looked at Anthony. "I know how your old claim was…I don’t want that. I mean, I do want a submissive. I want someone who will submit to me in the bedroom, but out here? I want a partner. Someone to share my life with. More than just a lover…a friend." He smiled slightly as he got up and made his way closer to Anthony. "Everything will work out fine. You never have to tell me anything she tells you. I’m not going to force you to share confidences that you have with Drew or anyone else. If it’s something you think I need to know, I trust you’ll say something, but I’m not a tyrant, Anthony. I would never force you to do anything." He finally made his way up to his boy and he wrapped his strong arms around him, pulling him close before giving him a sensual, yet sweet kiss on his lips. 

[brokenheart-intow]

As Derek got out of his chair, Tone stood there and listened to what he was saying. "I want those things, too. It's just hard to adjust to someone who doesn't need my submission twenty-four-seven." He said simply, nipping his bottom lip and stepping closer as the Dominant moved towards Tone. "I won't and I promise to tell you anything that I think would be an issue." He said simply, listening to the rest of what Derek had to say. It put a smile on his face but did bring tears to his eyes. Not tears of joy, but memories of how aggressive Vic had been. Taking in the arms around his waist, he wrapped his own around the back of the Dominant's neck. Giving himself into the kiss and expressing his fondness for the man, he pulled out of it to rest his forehead against Derek's. "It'll take getting used to, Sir, but I promise to do my best not to act too much like a submissive around you outside of the bedroom. I spent so long having to do so in my everyday life that it's...ingrained. Hopefully you'll understand..."

[brokenheart-intow]

Time To Pretend // Derek & Tone

[everettrhee]

Derek simply nodded, wishing he had another beer to drink. He rarely drank more than one every once in awhile, but tonight, he could’ve had another one or five. “You know you’re more than just a lover to me, Anthony.” He said quietly, looking away towards the window that looked out over the campus. “She won’t be upset and even if she is, it won’t mean I have to choose between the two of you. I don’t think she’d ever make me do something like that. There will be no conflict that can’t be resolved. She’s obviously your friend, so your happiness should come first before anything else. And if you’re happy with me, then that shouldn’t be a problem. If it ultimately is, we can figure out a solution then. I don’t think we should worry about something that hasn’t come up yet.” He finally found Anthony’s eyes and looked at him. 

[brokenheart-intow]

Listening to Derek was comforting, knowing that the man always seemed sure of everything he said. Though, Tone wasn't blind to the real world. Things came up and people's thoughts changed. People's opinions often twisted and morphed by other occurrences. Hopefully, though, Derek was right about all of this. "I am?" He questioned simply, slowly turning and meeting Derek's dark gaze. Taking a step closer, he held the glass to his chest while thinking of what to say. Tone nipped his bottom lip, shifting his weight from one leg to the next since he felt rather nervous. "I am happy with you and I enjoy her friendship. She...confides in me from what I can tell. I just want you happy more than myself...and her. You know how I am, I'd rather have your smile than your frown accompanying our kisses."

[brokenheart-intow]

Time To Pretend // Derek & Tone

[everettrhee]

Derek didn’t know how to respond at first. He just listened to Anthony, watched the way he dried his hand and walked over to the wine. He could care less about an almost broken plate as he put down the dishes he was drying and went over to his abandoned beer. He picked it up and took a large swig before shrugging. “I didn’t know I had a daughter when I met you. I also didn’t want to assume things that I didn’t know. I needed to figure it out for myself before I started making up things in my head. But yes, she’s my daughter. Yes, she’s a submissive, and yes, she’s a few years younger than you. I don’t see what that has to do with anything at all, though.” He gave Anthony a pointed look and then finished the rest of his beer before dropping it in the recycling. “I don’t know what you want me to tell you, sweetheart.” 

[brokenheart-intow]

"It has nothing to do with anything. I just...I'm in shock and placing facts where I know them." He said, still looking into the glass before pouring himself a full tumbler of wine. "As long as you didn't know." Tone stated simply, taking another long drink from the glass before placing the bottle down and corking it finally. When Derek asked his question, Tone kept his eyes on the glass as he licked his own lips. He really didn't know what Derek should say...or even do. "There's nothing to tell me, Sir. I don't have a say in much of anything that goes on between you and your daughter. That's not my place. Even if I was claimed, it still wouldn't be because family should be more important than a lover." He said simply, remembering his own upbringing but how that had been ripped from him. "I just don't want her upset at the fact that I'm sleeping with you. We have a budding relationship, you and I, and I don't want to end up without you because of a conflict her and I have due to what you and I have."

[draelyn-thorton-deactivated2016]

I have no idea of who to pick for a partner... // Draelyn & Tone - F2F

[draelyn-thorton-deactivated2016]

Yeah, I will. I’m starting to kind of see that more. I kept thinking that I was just dealt a bad hand and that it’d never get better, but with my mom actually having a chance now…I don’t know. I’m hopeful. [She shared, a small smile pulling at the corner of her lips until she noticed the way that Tone seemed to almost choke on the tea in his mouth.] You okay? …Yeah, he is. He works here actually…Derek Samuelson? Do you know him? [She asked, trying to ignore the shocked look on Tone’s face.] Umm…bad. He told me and I stormed off….I just couldn’t deal with it…Like my entire life I thought my father was this jackass who ditched my mom as soon as she got pregnant…And that he just didn’t feel anything for her…I don’t know. It’s a lot to deal with. He does…I’m just not sure what that looks like.

[brokenheart-intow]

Well, I'll be sure to send flowers to you to give to her whenever you see her next. A woman, no matter if I know her or not, deserves flowers to see. ((He said, smiling to her until she asked if he was okay. Though, his smile wasn't the same, it seemed a bit nervous in it's own right.)) Oh, I'm fine, darling! It's just shocking! But of course, I know him quite well. ((He said simply, looking to his tea while fiddling with the lid a bit.)) It's interesting to realize something about your life you had a completely different opinion of. We assume the worst in people, protecting ourselves from any turmoil. But, when the turmoil doesn't come and our assumptions are proven wrong, we're left confused and a bit lost. Your father's a wonderful man and has such a kind heart. I say give it some time, let it settle in that he's your father and you have this chance to know him. So many people don't have that in this world; children left without any idea of who their parents are. Feel blessed, darling. I know I would if I was in your position. I mean for fuck's sake, he's helping your mother with treatment! It's right brilliant of him, especially for being gone so long.

[geekxgirlsxguys]

So...

[geekxgirlsxguys]

I am sure you will be granted a lot of respect by your students. I see no reason why you wouldn’t.  I’ve never done much classic reading. So I am looking forward to it. 

[brokenheart-intow]

I can only hope so, Tech. You know, we've never met in person? If we ever do, I'll be sure to bring you one of my favorite books. It'll be a surprise which book it is but I know it's a lovely classic.

[brokenheart-intow]

Time To Pretend // Derek & Tone

[everettrhee]

Derek gave him a slight nod, a smile still on his lips. When he mentioned Drew, it perked Derek’s attention even more. There was so much going on with her and him, he didn’t even know how to explain it. “She is lovely. She’s my daughter…” He let the small bombshell slip out as he continued to dry the dishes. “It’s a long story…or maybe it isn’t. I didn’t mean to drop that on you. It’s just a new thing that we both realized. Well, I realized it first and then I told her.” Derek rarely got mumbly where he talked to much, but this was one of those times. 

[brokenheart-intow]

When Derek dropped that news, his eyes widened before he dropped it into the sink. Quickly scrambling to make sure it didn't break, he looked over the sink while trying to keep himself calm. "I'm sorry, Sir. It's not broken, I promise." He said simply, his voice a bit shaky that he might be punished for nearly breaking the dish he was washing. Pausing for a moment, he bit hard on his bottom lip. "You've got a daughter, a submissive no doubt, and she's only four years younger than myself." He said, slowly looking to him. "That's going to take a moment to process." Leaving the dish there for the moment, he dried off his hands on the apron he was wearing and moved away from Derek to grab the bottle of wine that was opened from cooking the beef. Pulling out a small glass, he poured the wine into it before taking a long drink from the tumbler. Swallowing it slowly, he placed the wine bottle down and gripped slightly to the glass. "I'm not upset. I'm not even close to angry. It's just...strange. I've been into older men, always have and always will be. But, a daughter, close to my age? Derek, why didn't you tell me you had a daughter in the first place? I mean, this isn't a bad thing. I'm just...in shock."

[draelyn-thorton-deactivated2016]

I have no idea of who to pick for a partner... // Draelyn & Tone - F2F

[draelyn-thorton-deactivated2016]

[Drew smiled across the table at Tone when he reached over and squeezed her hand. It did make her feel better to have someone she could at least talk to.] Thanks, Tone. I know…I’ll be fine. It’s just such a serious one, you know? It’s a TPE and that takes a lot of trust in someone. It’ll work out though, I’m sure. [She took a deep breath after taking a sip of tea and setting it down.] Well, I found out who paid for my mom’s treatment…and it was my father…Who I didn’t know until recently…And it’s been hard trying to wrap my head around that.

[brokenheart-intow]

It'll work out, darling. The world always rights itself, do keep that in mind, ace? ((He advised, looking to his cup of tea as he took a sip. But, as she spoke about her father, he nearly choked on the swallow in his mouth.)) He's your father, the man who paid for it? ((Tone asked, his eyes wide at that moment.)) Oh, darling! How did that go over? Hopefully he's wanting to be in your life.

[brokenheart-intow]

Time To Pretend // Derek & Tone

[everettrhee]

"You like my healthy cooking? I’ll allow these carbs this one time.” Derek joked and then laughed at Anthony’s remark about the cage. He appreciated the way that the boy was taking good care of the kitchen with cleaning it up and the like. He listened to how the other’s day went and he nodded along when appropriate. “They weren’t lying to you…confidence, Anthony.” He reminded his lover and then took another sip of his beer. “Oh? Who was this young woman? Your eyes haven’t strayed have they? Do I need to pick up an extra hour at the gym?” Derek inquired as he got up and went over to the sink. He grabbed a dish towel and started to dry the dishes that Anthony was washing.

[brokenheart-intow]

"I like all of your cooking, Sir." He told him, smiling as he blushed a bit. He did love it when Derek would cook, showing that the man did care enough to make their meal while Anthony had sat and waited patiently. It was different and he knew he'd be able to get used to it...one day. "Yes, confidence. I apologize, Sir." Tone said, sighing softly as he scrubbed a bit more on the pan he was trying to clean. "Bloody shite on a crumpet." He breathed, scrubbing harder until he heard Derek move towards him. "Oh, no no. You know I'm all about cock, Sir." He told him simply, finally getting the pan clean with a bright smile. Handing it over to Derek, he smiled as he picked up another dish to scrub. "Her name's Draelyn. She's right lovely. Sweet, too."

[abbyxstewart]

I can't believe this is happening...

[brokenheart-intow]

Oh, darling, what is it?

[draelyn-thorton-deactivated2016]

I have no idea of who to pick for a partner... // Draelyn & Tone - F2F

[draelyn-thorton-deactivated2016]

Yeah, I don’t know. [She shrugged her shoulders when he walked away to pick up their cups of tea. Taking her’s from him, she pulled the lid off the top and blew on the water, waiting for it to cool off before she took a sip.] We’ll see. I’m going to try to not stress over it.

[brokenheart-intow]

Stressing would make it worse for everyone. ((He said, taking a sip of his tea and smiling to her gently. He could tell she seemed worried and he wanted to help her through this.)) I know my demonstration for when I was here, it took so much energy out of me. I loathe swapping and we had to do it with people assigned to us. You're lucky that you've got a choice. I'm sure you'll do wonderfully with whoever you pick, darling. ((He told her, placing a hand on hers in comfort. Squeezing it lightly, he kept his hand on hers just in case it comforted her.)) So what else has been up with you? I feel I've missed a million years since we last talked!

[brokenheart-intow]

Time To Pretend // Derek & Tone

[everettrhee]

Derek chuckled low in his throat as he heard Anthony’s reply. He took the noodle and practically devoured it. “Oh, so you waited all this time to cook for me? If you’d done this night one, I would’ve caged you up in my room and not let you go…which I still might do if you’re not careful.” His own teasing tone evident as he spoke to the other. He kissed the other’s shoulder and then he pulled back and went over to the fridge. He grabbed a beer and then went and sat at the kitchen island. “My workout was fine, as usual. But, how was your day, baby?”

[brokenheart-intow]

"I didn't wait. I just needed the opportunity. Besides, I enjoy your cooking as well. I just thought I'd show you my domesticity." He said simply, moving to sprinkle the basil over the lasagna. Dusting them off on the apron tied around his waist, he picked it up and slipped it into the oven. Looking behind him, he smiled before picking up the timer and setting it. Placing it down, he moved to start cleaning the dishes he dirtied. "If you throw me into a cage, you will have one loud parrot." Tone joked, making sure to clean everything perfectly. The last thing he needed was for Derek to come home to a mess. "My day? I was at the library to help like I always do. I got a few e-mails from my students where they told me that they love the class. I think it's a lie but who knows." He said, leaning against the sink to get more dishes done. He was so tall and it hurt his back to keep standing up over the dishes and the kitchen but he'd suffer through it to show Derek that he meant it when he said he'd try to be a good submissive for him. "I also had tea with a friend. A young woman. She was having trouble picking a partner for her demonstration."

[brokenheart-intow]

Time To Pretend // Derek & Tone

[everettrhee]

Derek had just finished his last class and had done a long work out afterwards. His morning had been filled with panting and orgasms with his gorgeous boy, Anthony. He’d gone to work with an extra pep in his step and a bigger smile on his face than he usually had. Anthony had awakened something inside of him, made him alive once again. He thought that maybe he wouldn’t feel life after his claim had died, but he was glad to be proven wrong. As he got back to his condo, he knew that Anthony was there. He hoped now after their talk that the boy would be spending more time with him and less at his own apartment. The blonde usually got into trouble by himself, drinking too much and perhaps sleeping with other people. He didn’t mind that much, but it still stirred something inside of him that he could only call possession. He opened the door and walked into his kitchen to find his lover making dinner and he grinned wide. “A way to a man’s heart is through his stomach…did you know that?” Derek slide up behind the other and wrapped his arms around his waist. 

[brokenheart-intow]

The door had opened and he could hear footsteps but Anthony had been so focused in cooking that he didn't even notice it. Well, that was until he heard the man's voice and felt those strong arms around him. Nipping his bottom lip, he held up a lasagna noodle up for Derek to eat. "I did know that, actually. Why do you think I excelled in cooking while I studied here?" He asked, his tone showing that he was teasing the Dominant playfully. Kissing the man on the cheek, he turned his head to continue working on their meal. "Did you enjoy your work out?" He asked, moving to chop some fresh basil for added flavor and decoration.

[draelyn-thorton-deactivated2016]

I have no idea of who to pick for a partner... // Draelyn & Tone - F2F

[draelyn-thorton-deactivated2016]

Yeah, for that. I don’t know. I don’t really know anyone that well. The only ones I’d probably consider would be either Jayden or Nattie, but I’m sure they have other people in mind.

[brokenheart-intow]

Well, darling, it can't hurt to ask. ((He said, hopping out of his chair when he heard their names being called for their drinks. Jogging over in his heels to get them, he blew the barista a kiss before quickly moving to give her the tea she had ordered. Placing it down, he sat in his chair and crossed his legs at the knees.)) Besides, I'm sure you can find someone.

[brokenheart-intow]

Time To Pretend // Derek & Tone

He had stayed with Derek the other night, a night of ravenous sex that had his legs shaking even on his way to work that afternoon. Nipping his bottom lip as he stood in Derek's home, he fiddled with some cheese he was trying to place onto a lasagna he was making from scratch. Placing some cheese into his mouth, he wiggled his backside in excitement while making sure he still had everything was perfect. He even made a dessert which was waiting in the fridge for them to devour. Tone hoped that Derek would see what kind of submissive he could be, the potential he knew was in him, and even how obedient Tone could end up being when given the right amount of respect. They did have their talk which helped ensure Tone that he would have a Dominant by the time his year ended but he was still nervous. This was all trial and error from here on out.

[draelyn-thorton-deactivated2016]

I have no idea of who to pick for a partner... // Draelyn & Tone - F2F

[brokenheart-intow]

For the demonstration? Well, what Dominant do you trust the most in this situation?

[sir-stefano-costa]

I never thought I'd be working at a desk.

[sir-stefano-costa]

How do you know I have to clear it with my Mistress? Just curious as to why you said that… I do enjoy reading. I always have…it’s my own little way to escape.

[brokenheart-intow]

Oh, if you don't, I apologize. It's just that I'm used to having to clear things with my Dominant. Not that I have one anymore, really. My last one demanded that I check in with him, ask for permission to do anything outside of the home, so on and so forth. We had different rules.

It is quite the escape! I love reading and writing. It's my passion besides teaching. Would you, though? Sit in my class and observe? I'd love to have another's opinion.