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please take all the thoughts away of you and all the people after me. Please

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It hurts to know even after 4 months, what you did still kills me inside. that someone you just met can make you question something you had for two years. that you can look me in the eyes and tell me you're in love with me, then tell me you can see a future with someone else. to watch you look into my eyes while I'm breaking down on your living room floor and then go with her right after. to know you loved me with such a selfish love. to know you can break me over and over again and come back and promise it'll be different then do the exact same thing. To know you can lie to my face over and over again without feeling guilty at all. But feel guilty and treat me so great when I find out. You had no respect for the one heart who knew everything about you and loved you so unconditionally and through absolutely everything. the one heart who genuinely respected you. who chose to stay. Who chose to be loyal. I think what hurts the most is knowing I could have never done what you did. idk if that means you aren't really in love with me or if we just move differently. you broke what I had left of myself and i was still there. While you were smiling with her and kissing her and having her over I was the one you would call and I was there. I was there for you while you were telling me you had feelings for her. While you told me you see a future with her. i was selfless. And even when being broken I changed everything about myself for you. to keep you around. idk if it was out of love or maybe I was just stupid. I convince myself. I convince myself over and over again that it's me. That you're in love with me. but in my heart I know it shouldn't take you being with other people to know I'm the one you want. I was your second choice. I was an option to you. when things went bad with her you ran to me but when things were good I was out of site. even when I was the one who loved you through everything. Idc what anybody says. My love is so unconditional. My love is something nobody will ever find again because I love so freaking hard. and when I fall that's it. It's you. It's only you. I don't know if I'll ever believe you when you say you're in love with me. I don't know if I'll ever believe anything you say bc even when I have the proof in my face you still attempt to lie about it. for once I just wanna feel like I deserve good. That you believe in your heart that after everything I've been through that I deserve the be told the truth. that I deserve to be treated with respect and be treated like a person. that I deserve loyalty and I deserved the same thing you want from me. I know it would be different if I did what you did. you wouldnt have thought twice about me. who am I? am I not smart. Am I desperate. Or is this just love?¿

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I could fall asleep w u in my arms rn or we could fuck on a table.

Down for whatever.

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When will I get the same love I give out? When will someone care the way I care? Why is it so easy to let me go knowing I'm not okay. So easy say goodnight and fall asleep knowing I'm breaking. why is it so hard to just care for me and my heart

Tired of feeling like I'm in this alone.

Like I'm carrying a load.

All on my own.

Tired of feeling like there's nothing but fights.

late nights. Conversations that aren't light.

tired of feeling like I'm never enough.

Like it takes a tole to love me or show me off.

tired of feeling like I'm always to blame.

Like I put in my brain, to make myself feel this way.

Tired of feeling like I need to change.

My body, skin color, and everything in between.

tired of feeling unappreciated.