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love the confidence boost i get when i put on my stompers

22/07

i really hope my friends don’t take it personally that it often takes me a long time to text back and that i rarely text first. i don’t feel the need to perform so much in front of them, and they know i’m not a sociable guy by now, but still. sometimes i feel like i’m not doing enough or making it seem like i’m ignoring them.

i think i’ll go thrifting today. my closet is very much lacking both in essentials and in men’s clothing. i’ll look for simple black shirts to use for diy, baggy long sleeves, grandpa sweaters, belts, shorts with a longer inseam, and any trinkets that catch my eye.

🗝️🧦💼

#diary entry ᝰ🖊️#new post format? 👀

vampire boy werewolf boy dragon boy i don’t know what creature boy i am. i like skogsrå and trolls and slavic water spirits a bunch. vodniks and topielce and rusalka and such.

do you guys know vodniks? they’re cool. usually a vodnik is portrayed as an old man with green hair and a green beard (that turns white when the moon wanes) that can shapeshit into a giant frog or a moss-covered fish. or sometimes be a girl combing her hair. he lures people into the water by tying ribbons to grass. and sometimes he’s shown with a fish tail or scales. i think they made up the shapeshifting thing to explain how many different variations there are of him in slavic mythology.

yaoiandcakecrumbs

spins around

trans men are genuinely so fucking awesome

#they are and trans women are fucking awesome too #i love you tboys i love you tgirls #so much. actually so so much

someone’s smoking on their balcony 🤤

craving chiffon cake. maybe i should start baking. but i get the urge to make the world’s most perfect chiffon cake with just the right texture. and some chamomile tea. or maybe peppermint. that would be nice

i adore the old oversized hoodie + boxer briefs + socks combo. it’s so me. especially late at night when i’m still hanging around when others are asleep.

what happened to your intro post... 😞😞🧐🧐

HI i have a new one !!! but it’s not pinned for now because. work in progress i kind of don’t like how it looks

elliott smith listener ily lets SMOOCH

ahhh YES YES YES !!! my favourite artist ever probably i love elliott smith so much.

drop your favourite songs (mine right now are: last call, oh well OK, clementine (the live on breakfast time version), speed trials, cupid’s trick and needle in the hay)

#moots 𐂂 #buck answers #when elliott smith is mentioned so i start shaking vigorously

what's your favorite thing about yourself that you never get to talk about?

i’d say my open-mindedness. while there are many perspectives/views i find abhorrent to hold, i can understand why people act the way they act, or how their experiences shaped them to be the person they are now and see the world a certain way. i guess it’s also a mix of being empathetic. i always seem to find a way to feel for those people on some level, even if they hurt me. it’s frustrating sometimes, but i think it’s a positive trait to have. it makes it difficult to fully hate another person, which is helpful because it keeps me from wasting time thinking about how much i hate someone. and it helps with understanding my friends, cause i can quickly tell when something’s off. it’s nice seeing people light up when they realize that someone actually listens to them and notices when something’s wrong.

#thank you for the ask!!#moots 𐂂 #buck answers

kandi i’ve made

#some of these are very old (frutiger aero and gir cuffs)#i wear the chococat on my school bag #the offline one is also dear to me cause i made it with a friend’s beads and i like carrying around stuff that reminds me of then #also it’s got hair dye stains on the back of the letters. also courtesy of my friends #<3 #kandi

i really want rougher hands. calloused fingers. random cuts and scrapes from diy

#should i try to get back into bass #i sorta gave up #paul mccartney….i’ve failed you

PLEASE send asks….lonely sad pathetic guy

#send asks

i cannot keep getting giddy and excited at tumblr notifs just for them to turn out to be sex bot accounts are you SERIOUS RN

oh. my door is open. i’ve just been laying on the floor blasting elliott smith and leonard cohen and the cure

Sorry Mom

it’s so weird because i acknowledge my feelings but it’s like. i’m not the one experiencing them. i just i look at my hands in disbelief because those aren’t really mine, are they? they look two-dimensional. like. like i’m not the one steering them but rather my body is a puppet and i’m not in control of what i say or do

i’m sure the longer i keep all the Horrors locked deep inside the more fun and explosive my eventual breakdown will be 👍👍

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