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From a Stranger to Another

[charliedawizard]

Dead Roses

I want to write about you forever, because you’re my inspiration and motive. I want you to be my missing piece that I search for and can’t find, my plan that I try so hard but fail to achieve. Well, I say a lot of “want” when the fact is I “need” all that and I need all you. I’m the unlimited hope and staggering impatience. I’m the desire for all and the lack of everything. I’m the perfect planner and the poorest executor. I’m the anger at the fact that you’re not here and the wishing of you to not be. Do I need to be complete? And what completes me? The latter is easy because you know it’s you, even if I try to convince myself otherwise. But the first I really can’t find an answer for. If I need to, then your distant memory and my desire for you will make me an unstoppable force except for my impatience that kills all what I hope for, makes me powerless and weakens every bone in my body, because this task is the longest of roads. So inside all that conflict sadly I find myself with nothing. Is it the fact that "needs" devour the person and make him an angry fire that eats itself from the inside out? Or is it the unexplainable fact that we search for something that we think will make us whole, but when we reach it we find ourselves more destroyed than before? "

[charliedawizard]

A letter to whom I wish I knew

Dear, whom I wish I knew  It's been a very interesting time for me oh wait I don't want to begin with lies it's the most "empty filled with nothing" era of my life, time is static and never flies it's scary & creeps the helloutta me. I miss you, but if you were really there and I was really valuble to you, you wouldn't have let me miss you.

 You on the contrary I think you're livin' the life you wanted for yourself travelling to all those places that you always talked about with me, being all those things you always said you will be and living without me which is something that eases you but burns me.

 If you were there know that your family misses you. they've been asking me about you; thinking that I know more than they do about you, which was the case in a period of time that I once wished it'd continue for a lifetime.

 The emptiness I'm feeling isn't all your fault but you created the reason for all the other reasons. if you were here I would've started to have the motive to be complete or to find a purpose to my existence.

If you were here I wouldn't have written this letter but if you're really there I wish you never receive this letter. http://charlielfa.blogspot.com/