Diary of a Teen Writer

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hello loves! my name is cherry! you have reached my writing blog! this is where I’ll be writing stories of my own

-midwest princess disorder-

-Warning-

im no professional and by no means is my writing perfect but im having fun!

main, current book, masterlist

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Fear of Losing You

I fear that one day I'll lose you,

That you'll just be gone.

That you won't be able to talk to me, 

That you'll never get to play with my hair like you want to,

That I'll have no one to text or call with every detail of my life,

That I'll never feel your arms wrapped around me again.

Not that you'll be dead, 

Not that you'll lose your breath,

That you'll lose your feelings,

Your heart.

I fear that one day I'll say the wrong thing,

Something that makes you hurt,

That makes you sad,

That makes you leave.

Not that I'd mean to,

I just fear that I'll lose you.

I fear that one day you'll have another,

Another person to make you laugh,

To love,

To kiss,

To miss.

Not that I'll think you'll need to,

But I just fear that I'll lose you. 

I fear that one day I'll lose you,

Your smile,

Your heart, 

Your laugh,

I fear that I'll lose you,

And lose myself in the process. 

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Bows, Cherries, Gumdrops

Bows, cherries, gumdrops

They rain down from the heavens and infect the earth.

Bows, cherries, gumdrops 

Tied together in a loop, 

Never ending.

Bows, cherries, gumdrops

Lead me to you.

past the trees and through the flowers

Butterflies dance in my core

Bows, cherries, gumdrops 

Your eyes, skin, and hair Glimmer in the pond

Bows, cherries, gumdrops

You're all I need and more

Effortlessly beautiful and sweet.

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The Rivers Reflection

I wonder how you see me in the river's reflection,

The sun hitting the ripples as the rocks jump in.

Do you see me as the fish

fighting for up stream forever determined,

Or do you see me as the algae, 

So ugly, 

so important to the life around it

Am I a grain of sand?

A copy and paste of thousands around me

Perhaps you see me as a swan that you're afraid to get too close to, 

So dangerous, 

yet so elegant,

I see you in the river,

I see you as the reflection of a deer, 

So graceful,

 so sought after,

I see you as an otter, 

So small, 

so adored,

Holding onto the hand of that you love, 

Out of fear of drifting away,

I see you as a seal, 

So much personality, 

so much curiosity,

When I look into the rivers reflection

With you next to me, 

I see everything I hate, 

and you,

everything that I need.

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My Poetry!

-Free verse-

Parts of me

The Rivers Reflection

Bows, Cherries, Gumdrops

Fear of Losing You

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Parts of Me

There are so many parts of me,

The self love, And the self hate.

The lies, the truth, Black verse white,

Blue verse pink,

Parts of me divided in two, 

Fragments of my life, 

Easily broken or altered.

The glue is what matters, 

Intertwines the pieces, 

Holds me in one.

The glue looks like her,

Kind and pretty,

That smile connects parts of me.

The glue sounds like music, 

Each note written like Iterature Read aloud wherever I go.

That beat connects parts of me.

The glue feels like home, 

Not a place but a group, 

Surrounded by laughter

That energy connects parts of me.

The glue smells like salt, 

The salt that fills the water, 

The water that houses life, 

The life that I wish to be apart of, 

The ocean connects parts of me.

Every part of me is held together by the glue,

The glue that grows stronger and stronger, Day, by day.

Needed for me to function.

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-chapter three-

It’s been a week since I first talked to Brynn. Since then we have messaged more times than I could possibly count. Lorri has been begging me to ask him to hang out. See I would but the truth is, I’m scared. I’ve never been in a relationship, not a serious one at least. I love talking to Brynn but I don’t know if I could do it in person and just the thought scares me. But this morning Lorri showed up at my house unannounced with a threat. 

“You’re going to the cafe with me.” Lorri demands as soon as I open the door. 

Before I know it I’m where I am now, Lorri’s car, a small green car that’s on its last life, on our way to the cafe. I look out the window and watch the world go by.

-

I walk into the cafe Lorri by my side, just like so many times before. The smell of coffee instantly fills my nose. That’s when I see him with an audible yelp and turn away. Lorri looks at me with a grin pushing me forward. I walk up to the counter where Brynn is standing. He’s looking down at the register and starts the usual rant welcoming me and telling me to order when I’m ready. He looks up from the screen at last and his demeanor instantly changes to be more joyful.

“Hi Brynn!” My face turns a burgundy, “I’ll just take an iced coffee”.

He typed my order I to the cash register telling me my total. “It’ll be out soon. I go on break in like 20 minutes if you want to hang for a bit?”.

I grin, “I would like that”.

-

Me and Lorri take a seat in our usual spot placing the number card on the edge of the table. a grin stuck to my face like glue. It doesn’t take long for a kind looking woman brings us our drinks.

“Cindi you know I love you so much right?” I look at her with a puzzled look.

“Of course I do?”

“Good then you’ll understand why I’m leaving.”

“What!” I shout louder than I should, people start to stare. “What? no why! I can’t do this on my own Lorri”,

“I believe in you sweetie. you’ll thank me at your wedding! Call me if you need a ride home, love ya!”

I sit shocked staring at where Lorri was just a minute ago. I need to do this on my own. I’ve got this.

After a few more minutes the employees only door swings open and a familiar silhouette walks towards my table. I grin up at the figure. Brynn takes a seat and hands me a pastry he must have snagged before his break. I gladly take it and unwrap it from the thin layer of plastic. 

“Thank you,” I take a bite.

He looks at me with a smile, “it’s nice to see you” 

My cheeks go back to that burgundy shade from before. “Yeah I figured I would come say hello”, 

“I’m glad you did it’s been a long shift”,

-

“Yeah I know right!” 

“We should do this again some time”,

“Definitely.”

“Well it was nice talking to you! I should probably call Lorri to pick me up.” 

“Do you need a ride? I took my break late I get off in like half an hour if you don’t mind waiting I can take you home?” 

“That would be great actually”.

We wish each other well and Brynn goes back to his shift. I sit on my phone and scroll while I wait. I make sure to let Lorri know I won’t be needing a ride, she makes sure to remind me to thank her at my wedding.

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-chapter two-

(sorry it took so long :/)

I sit on the floor of my room alone. Lorri had gone back to her house after the cafe. I look down at my phone, looking at the new contact in my phone debating if I should text it.  Why does this have to be so hard? He’s just a boy. Come on just text him Cindi! 

After a few minutes of having a stand off with my phone I mutter up the courage to send a message. 

“Hi is this Brynn?”

As soon as I sent the text I shut off my phone and put it on the floor. I leave my phone to marinate and walk downstairs to get a glass of water to pass the time. I get my drink and decide to walk around for a minute before I can get myself to go back upstairs. I carefully pick up my phone like it might bite me. My stomach sinks as soon as I see the notification on my lock screen.  

“It is, is this Cindi?” Of course Lorri told him my name. And he remembered it?

“It is!” Nice job Cindi, way to be awkward.

“It’s nice to meet you Cindi! Hru?” 

“I’m doing pretty good! What about you!” 

“I just finished a long shift but other than that I’m doing good”

“Do you like working at the cafe?” 

“It can be overwhelming sometimes but I enjoy it”

-

I wake up, my phone lying next to me. I roll over to face the wall with a smile, the kind of grin that only Lorri can put on my face, or so I thought. With a happy sigh I roll back over onto my back and grab my phone. I immediately open me and Brynn’s conversation from last night and begin to read our texts once more. We had spent a few hours talking, getting to know each other a bit, nothing too deep, just small talk. He’s newer to town, a transfer from across state, he plays tennis and has a younger brother.

This boy is perfect. He’s funny, he’s kind, athletic, dare I say hot?… My thoughts are interrupted by a text from Lorri. 

“Did you text him?” 

“What if I told you we talked for hours last night…” 

-

After I told Lorri about my conversations with Brynn, making sure to not leave out any details, I decided to go for a walk. Putting on my shoes I head out the door. I walk through my small home town. The place I’ve known my whole life. I pass the tree me and Lorri would climb as kids, the pond where we would feed the ducks. I walk and enjoy the suns rays on my skin, the smell of the freshly cut grass surrounding me. It’s calming, relaxing, welcoming. 

Throughout my walk I find myself downtown. I look at the little family owned shops surrounding me. The old antique shop with the small pink sign. The small bookstore that looks like it’s been there for an eternity. Families walk together with strollers and small children in their arms. 

I decide to enter the old candy store. Me and my mom would come here every weekend when I was young, it hasn’t changed a bit. There’s still the same old giant gum ball machine, the same bar looking counter where you can see the candy on display, and the same old comforting smell of sugar. I look around at all the candies seeing what’s for sale. I don’t see anything that sparks too much interest so I decide to just leave a small amount of cash in the tip jar before heading on my way.  

I leave the shop with a ding of the bell and continue walking downtown. I imagine how pretty everything will look once autumn hits and the leaves start to change. I think about all the times we would trick or treat down this road during Halloween. 

I love walks where I can just get a feeling of my surroundings. Where I can get a good grip of my past and hide from the present. And just escape reality. Not that I live a bad life, it’s just sometimes I need a good break.

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starting chapter 2!

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MasterList

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Poetry!!

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-about this story- Cindi is terrified of death and she meets a boy that makes her feel so alive. After a turn of events this boy is lost leaving Cindi to contemplate suicide.

-author notes-

this is my first ever book so please message me if you have any feedback, comments, or concerns! This book may have some hard topics but I’m excited to see where I’ll take it!

-Chapters-

one two three

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-chapter one-

Nothing beats a day where you can relax. A day in summer to lounge around at the pool with a Shirley temple and your best friend in the entire world. Today was one of those days. I sat with feet dangling in the pool beside Lorri, drink in hand.

“Girl you need to get over that man he’s not worth it”

“I know Cindi but he’s just so tall and tan and…”

I joking roll my eyes at her in disbelief. “Men are shit”

“Says the one who was practically drooling over that boy from the cafe yesterday”

“Shut up Lorri”,

“You love me”,

“I do”,

We continue to chat for a while about boys and drama just taking in the summer air. We stay like this just talking and laughing about anything and everything. I just enjoy the time i get to spend with Lorri, my beautiful, beautiful Lorri.

I look at her, the way her skin is glowing in the golden hour sun. The way her hair frames her face with its perfect layers. The way her freckles stand out on her pale body.

Me and Lorri make eye contact, and I look at her with a sly smirk before pushing her in the pool.

Lorri came out from under the water with a scoff. Before dragging me into the water as well.

-

“Okay but no seriously Cindi, I think we should go back to the cafe so you can get his number.”

Lorri sits on my bed across from me flipping through a magazine.

“I don’t know Lorri… he’s probably like twenty-something…”

“You’ll never know if you never ask..”

I lay back on my bed and think about this boy. Those piercing hazel eyes. That kind smile. Whats his name? What are his interests? What does he hate? I want to know him.

“Okay”, I smile sitting back up.

“Perfect I know where we are getting lunch tomorrow!”,

-

Lorri and I walk down West Avenue towards our local cafe, my mind going a million miles a minute.

What if he’s not there? What if he thinks I’m weird?

I turn to Lorri opening the door, “Here goes nothing”,

We walk into the cafe and go up to the front counter where we are welcomed by a kind woman. Lorri and I tell her our orders before being directed to have a seat at one of the tables. It’s not long before we get brought our drinks.

“Hey is that him?”, I look to see where Lorri is pointing and am immediately met with those familiar hazel eyes, which I immediately look away from.

“Okay, I’ll take that as a yes. Go talk to him, girl”,

“What do I say? I can’t just go up to him, tell him he’s hot, and then leave.”,

“Leave this to me”, before I can respond Lorri gets up and walks across the cafe. As I try to decipher what Lorri could possibly be telling this poor man, he looks over her shoulder at me with a smile. I give him a small wave before looking the other way. It doesn’t take much longer for Lorri to come return but it feels like ages.

“His name is Brynn, he’s 17, and here’s his number”, she hands me her phone with his number written in her notes app.

“Lorri you are an angel”,

ty for reading <333