Kadang gue mikir the mistake in our family is not coming from the parents itself. Part of it is also fate.
Ortu gue emang personality wise doesn’t mean for each other. Emak gue terlalu menerima laki apa adanya, pas udah tua baru sadar klo dia terlalu jor joran dulunya. And her childish behavior gak di neutralize sm bapak gue. Jadi ya kesannya immature dan gak pernah grow up, personality wise ya. Dia selalu ngerasa dia grow up krn ikut liko, tapi hmm liko is all about political things and feeding ego sih for me. Its just a bunch of people need validation that what they’re doing is right and knowing people lose their argument (pdhlmah cmn males aja ngomong sm org begitu)
Bapak gue idealis tapi gak punya arah. Dia tau apa yang dia gak mau, tp gak mau eksplor apa yang dia mau. Dan sudah ada di comfort zone karna selalu diback up emak gue. Jd ya kya budaknya emak gue aja gt. Pdhl kdg gue berharap klo emak gue sdg being childish my dad can tell her if that’s wrong. Tapi kayanya dia juga takut untuk kasih tau. Jadi ya begitu deh egonya di manja sampai tua. Anak anaknya udah pada gak tahan skrg bahkan ingin cabut dr rumah. Especially me, dari kecil jd bayangan, di rendahin, never get chance compare to other siblings, and gak pernah dipikirin perasaannya karna gue “perempuan”. Gue udah pernah mengkomunikasikan ke ortu endingnya gue kena semprot, now I give up talking to them.
If only they aware of what happened, maybe it wont be as bad.
Gue gak akan tuh cari pasangan dari luar negeri just for the sake bisa cabut dr rumah and see the world.
And luckily pasangan gue skrg jauh, gue harap ya emang ini jalannya. Meskipun ya gue aja gak yakin 10 taun ke depan gue masih hidup or gue decide untuk selesain aja semuanya. Bcs what for??
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