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16 • they if u keep reporting me ill only get worse tw ed sh drugs yan vent

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[comeonijustwannafuckingexist]

that epic moment when ur immune supressed mom n her bf gets covid n they recover so u think its fine but then ur brother gets it and u find urself rapidly falling into an ed relapse but like even worse bc ur already skinny n now u just cant find any joy in food and everything tastes like ash in ur mouth and idk what to fucking do anymore

[comeonijustwannafuckingexist]

i might delete tumblr. most of the progress ive had as far as my kinda recovery goes has been bc ive stepped away from my acc n the community a lot. its hard bc i have ppl on here i consider friends but i cant actually b on here without getting triggered so i kept having to chose between being lonely or not giving up my ed. ive lost 70lbs. im anorexic. if i started at a healthy weight i would be dead right now and my health is already not good. its been a lot trying to maintain my dying acc on top of all of the health issues i have rn (idk how many of u have been like noticing but theres a lot physically wrong w me rn n it keeps getting worse) n i just dont want to anymore. im not deleting my acc or the app yet but i might not b active rlly n as im sure some of u have noticed im not rlly part of the community anymore. i love u guys but u make me worse n i cant do this. i have ppl in my life that love me n need me and i just dont want to die anymore. i cant continue glorifying this shit when its ruining my life its not fun or interesting or exciting anymore im just done. ive stopped counting calories n weighing myself n i just cant get dragged back again im finally somewhere near a normal. so in case i dont post much again see ya guys.

[comeonijustwannafuckingexist]

ugh i have a freaking uti

[comeonijustwannafuckingexist]

there is blood in my piss rn n i work 1-9 tmr god hates me

[comeonijustwannafuckingexist]

ugh i have a freaking uti

[idrathergoforgirls]

y’all make sure you date someone that cares about your mental health pls

[jzq]

[godisahuman]

Every once in a while I think “why do I have all these mental disorders, surely my childhood wasn’t that bad” and then I have an interaction with my mother and I understand.

[thecreepycookies]

physically i’m here but mentally i’m floating face down in a river

[comeonijustwannafuckingexist]

tw !!!!!! bodychecks (noticeable difference)

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march 2021 vs december 2021

it never felt like i even lost weight i dont get it like i have a freaking thigh gap n i barely noticed

[feverdreamwonderland]

[gateway-2000-deactivated2025111]

[comeonijustwannafuckingexist]

wtf apple yall rlly tryna kill tumblr over here like ik im stuck in 2016 but that’s my problem <\3

[euripideez-nuts]

dark cottagecore but make it fantasy novel

[somerabbitholes]

another week, another book sale

[cromchychipdip]

I made a Disaster Bi pride flag.

[lylylylylylylylyly]

kinda sad kinda don’t care anymore