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[confessionsofagrowingwoman]

[confessionsofagrowingwoman]

holy fuck... I'm screwed, why did I sent a message right now? why not tomorrowwwwww

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[psykopaths]

How it will start vs How it will end.

[confessionsofagrowingwoman]

so fucking predictable

[confessionsofagrowingwoman]

the next message that comes to my phone, whenever it comes, in a month, in 2 months, won't have my answer. deal with your shit alone LIKE YOU WANT ASSHOLE!

[confessionsofagrowingwoman]

I let you say all the shit you wanted to say, hurt me and be the victim. you are the only one hurt in all this right? if I made a mistake in your eyes I'm not allowed to feel hurt.

so let me tell you something, you aren't getting nothing from me anymore!.

i will always be fine when you ask

I will never open up to you again

I will never start a conversation again

i will never tell you if I'm feeling sad about your absence

I will no longer suffer from missing you, because I won't let this feeling in again. I will value the ones that are next to me and present! you are not entering my thank you text at the end of my graduation project because you wrote not there for me!

you will be alone, like you want and will feel the support the way you want to be supported, in your head because I will not be there anymore for you. but in your crazy mind I might, because my mouth is shut like you want.

I'm leaving you, goodbye idiot.

[confessionsofagrowingwoman]

I did all I could. I don't accept this anymore. enough, I'm living my life and giving love and attention only to the ones that value me.

[confessionsofagrowingwoman]

chega.

[confessionsofagrowingwoman]

já tava até esquecendo da existência desse garoto, aí vem dar satisfação e some de novo 😐 ô porra então pra que veio? esperava que eu fosse correndo responder? ledo engano bebê esperou a hora q eu pude igual faz comigo ah se fude

[confessionsofagrowingwoman]

ficar quietinha pra depois não dizer que eu não deixei ter o tempo que queria... mas não reclama depois bebê, tô só dando corda

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[morebutbetter]

[confessionsofagrowingwoman]

I said I would leave you alone... I said it wouldn't happen again, but darling, don't expect me to come running the minute you talk again.

you took x days to answer? you're gonna wait till I feel I want to stop and go talk. isn't it how you do it? you didn't feel the need to? well I, won't feel the need as well, you gonna be hanging in there till I feel you waited enough.

I'm not giving any minute of my free moments to you. I'll give to anybody else, not you! you'll have to wait till I have nothing else to do... and that might take a long time... bitch

[confessionsofagrowingwoman]

next month, starts a new episode of my life

in this season, the ones that take me for granted will loose me, loose my attention, my love, my precious time, the importance to me and put it the same place they have me too.

it's me first nigga (im blk), not putting up with your dramas, issues and shit, go to fucking therapy, I don't need this

i got my own therapy reasons, you don't need to add me one more.

you're 100 to me, I'll keep it 100 to you, you're 40, you'll have me at 40 with you. no more of this forgiving shit, I got other people, better people, that treat me way fucking better than you do and they're the ones who'll have my full attention and care.

you'll get the crumbs, just like you feed me. with crumbs. the attention you give me, you shall receive.

[confessionsofagrowingwoman]

I feel have the duty to come here and talk about the good things too.

We made our first trip together last weekend, it was so beautiful, funny and loving... He had lunch with me AND my parents... joked about stuff and talked to them the whole road trip, took pics for them and everything, I felt so special and loved...

We finally got honest with me mom and dad and said we're a couple, a different one but we are.

He said to them "I love your daughter, she's so important and special to me", said how much he cares for me, that he always want to be there for me and will always be forever grateful for my support, friendship through everything he struggled with, when so many people were against him and I could actually see his side on the situation and stood by him, as a true friend would do.

He even said to my parents, he will care for me, whenever I need it, he wants to be present, will make me feel safe and protect me from anything... I knew all of this, but to actually hear it coming out of his mouth, is completely different, he rarely says this stuff, rather do it then say it, but we all know everyone likes to hear it once in a while...

We had a good time together, he said he wants to be more present, wants me to be more present...

I know I'm always complaining here, so I thought it was fair enough to come and say at least one good thing about it lol

But this is what my Tumblr is for, open up my heart without being scared of someone I know reading it, someone commenting, it's like entering a room full of people that don't care about you, everyone is doing their own stuff and if you want to vent, you can do it with no fear of judgmental comments.

These posts are all about a true relationship, with true love, sometimes is so hard, the two of us is going through so much and let it all affect us and our relationship... Insecurities, fears of abandonment, being unespecial or any other past traumas that come to the surface and make misunderstandings happen...

But know this: we always end up sitting and talking about it, dealing with it like two grown up people, that are still growing, together, adulting and living an unorthodox relationship type.

Sometimes love hurts, the feeling is pain, loving broken people just as you are, hurts, is like looking in a mirror sometimes and it hurts.

And sometimes love can be pleasant, exciting, happy, funny... It's a duality, but the important part is to always find balance between this two sides.

Ok, I guess we're clear on the content in this tumblr, right?

(I'm probably talking to myself, welph, I already do it regularly this is not the first time, I'm my best listener)

[confessionsofagrowingwoman]

you make it so hard to want to keep being with you... it's not always about you! stop thinking I'm sad or distant because of you! when it's actually your fault you never realize the mistakes your making.

and they're the same: absence, lack of affirmations and attention, demanding stuff not even you do, like responding messages in a short period of time...

and now, when I needed saving, you were asleep.

I don't know, bruh, honestly