"I would be a better ghost than I am a human."

Lauren, England. A 16 year old girl who is coping with depression, anxiety, self-harm and is suicidal. I DO NOT promote any of the above.

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TRAINS ARRIVED EARLY.

BYE GUYS, I WILL SEE YOU ALL UP THEIR SOME DAY X

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You are special. You are a fabulous specimen of human being, an amazing bundle of sinew and bone and atom, a complex twist of DNA. You are so strong, stronger than you will ever know, so capable. I know that it is hard to believe right now, but things get better. I promise you- they might take a day, a year, an hour- but they DO and they WILL. There are so many things worth living this life for, this is a wonderful world. People love you for the things in you that you yourself do not see.

All I can say is I am so sorry for leaving everybody. I love every single one of you on here. You are all like my brothers and sisters but I do have to go x

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:33< you are purrfect and even if you f33l not great you don't have to worry beclaws you aren't alone and you are strong!

perfect is a big word. Nobody is perfect. I'm sorry.

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please don't. people love you, they will miss you. think of how badly this will effect others. I'm not trying to make you feel bad but if you die it will hugely effect people. You are loved, remember that.

They love the person they think I am. I'm not anything special. I deserve to die and I want too.

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You have me

I don't even know who you are! Nobody will even notice when I'm gone 

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So do you love. Live it with me

I don't..I have nothing.

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Why not? If you're leaving then there's no point for me to still be here

Why not? You have a life to live. Live it 

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Don't be sorry love. I'm going with you then

No your not. Come off anon please?

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If I die nobody will care. But if you die, I'll die. Stay with me.

People will care. I guarantee. I've stayed for as long as I can, I'm sorry x

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Just do what you think is the best for you. :(

I am doing. I'm killing myself. It's the only option and the option I want..

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You jump. I jump. I love you

You die. Everybody else will inside. Don't waste your life. Be careless and strong. I love you x

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Bye.

So I've decided to change my time until 11 instead of 10. The reason because of this is I want to get to know you all before I go. So please message me, so I can see what great people I follow/follow me. I want to tell every single one of you, you are strong and you can make it. Unlike me. Who is going to jump at 11. I love you all so so much. You're all my family x

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barrosofernan:

Suicide methods

Getting hit by a train shall be me tonight 

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Hospital and suicide.

Talked my way out of staying in hospital so very happy I can jump tonight!!!

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Day five: treehouses. They are so fun and awesome and yep.

That is very true!

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I'm sorry dear. I know you can't promise me anything, but maybe, just maybe..... would you try to get better.....? Sorry.... Day four: finding your soulmate and then they'll fall in love with you. Because you're remarkable.

No need to be sorry. Thank you x

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When your own parents wish you dead. That's love.