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@daily-2026
FEB 17, 2026. TUESDAY 11:56PM
TODAY
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Ok i have 3 minutes. I bought 2 more taba squishies from work. I had a good day
I hope lent goes well, i hope i get closer to God, and I hopw to self emprove and gain better habbits
Im excitwd but scared, but also like Orel cuz im so happy about this hehe
Okok here goes its 11:59. Aaaaaa
FEB 16, MONDAY 2026
NOOO STEW RUN!!!!
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WE DIDNT GO TO SCHOOL CUZ PRESIFENTS DAY BUT I WAS BORED AND XIME WANTED THE SWITCH BUT WE DONT KNOW WHERE ITBIS SO SHE SAIS LM3 AT HOME
AND WE WENT TO WALMART AND ATE HOTDOGS AND NACHOS AND MY TRIPAS HURT A LOT BUT IT WAS COOL
FEB 15, SUNDAY 2026.
COOKIES
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I COVERED VALE'S SUNDAY SHIFT CUZ SHE HAD A NAIL APPOINTMENT ANF SHE GOT ME OREO SUGAR COOKIES AS A THANKYOU ABD MADE MY BED ABD MY MOM GOT ME SUBWAY FOR LUNCH AND XIME CSME AND VALE TOLD THEM MY ORDER IT WAS LOVELY
FEB 14, SATURDAY 2026
VALENTINES DAY
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I WORKED AND SHIT HAPPENED BUT POOKIE GAVE ME STUFF AND DAD TOOK US TO PAISANS AND IT WAS REALLY NICE YIPPIE
FEB 13, 2026 FRIDAY. 1:32AM
BYEBYE
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I UPDATED MY TUMBLR CUZ I MADR THE NEW ONE FOR SHITTY ART AND REALUZED I NEVER CHSNGED IT.
XIME BOUGHT A LASTUC SKULL AT WORK AND I MADE THIS GIF
KINDA NOT REALLY ITS STILL PENDING
FEB 12, 2026, THURSDAY 4:36pm
RESELL
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I HAD WORK WITH VALE AND STAYED ALL DAY WITH HER CUZ WR ERRE GONNA DONATE PLASMA AND I CHICKEDN OUT AND SHE DID TOO BUT I BOUGHT THIS TO RESELL. IT WSS NICE
Feb 11, 2026. Wednesday, 10:55 am.
Veins
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Ok now we are getting closer (im finishing up and its feb 13 but 12:09 now)-
We had the heart practicle and i was so pissed cuz i got 2 wrong. On the 15 written question part i nailed it for sure. Tripple checked and everything, i understood it all
The part where we had to put flash cards in order of blood rotation? I also nailed it. I knew i did.
BUT
ON THE LAST FUCKUNG PART WHERE I PUT THE AORTA FLASHCARD, I PUT ONE ON TOP THAT WAS THE ONE FOR BLOOD GOING TO ALL BODY TISSUES, AND UNDER IT TO SHOW THAT IT GOES TO THE CORONARY ARTERY, AND THEN NEXT TO IT I PUT THAT IT GOES TO THE HEART
He asked me to explained it. I panickef and moved them around. He said i wasnt wrong but to explain why i did that. I got nervous and tried but be looked at me like 🧍♂️.AND I FELT STUPID so i panicked and just lined them up because i started thinking
"Wait, I AM DOING THIS WRONG??? WAIT
OML!!! ITS ACTUALLY NOT LIKE THAT??? DID I STUDY IT WRONG??? IT GOES AT THE SAME TIME NO??? OML I PROBABLY STUDIED IT WRONG. IM WRONG. EVERYTHING I LEARNED WAS WRONG."
So i changed it. I got it wrong. I was right the first time.
I hate that stuff like that happens to me all the time. Like, ik i was right. I studied for hours. He specificslly told us that THAT part of the test was were most people screwed up on. I made sure i knew, and i know. But i was like "what if it really isnt though??? What if i missed something??? What if i missunderstood or didnt get it or actually everythibg ive been learning is a lie what if what if what if fucking if.
But no. I was right. But ofc i had to give in and think i was wrong cuz it felt right. And now i lost 2 points.
Plus the ppl i worked with for vein study after, i did not like them
They seemed mean and i could tell they disnt like that me and another girl had to join their group. One of them looked like she was tryibg to block my view on pourpose, and i could tell they were speaking in spanish cuz they thougjt i wouldnt ubderstand. It was obvious. Its not uncommon for ppl to think that, and i can tell when ppl are just speaking it cuz like they are just speaking it, and when ppl are speaking it because they think no one else can understand them. And there is diffrence in times like, trying to keep somethibg privet and when ppl try to exclude you. And i felt like me and the other girl were getting excluded a lot. It felt like middle school again
I cant believe adults act like that. Thats middle school shit. Idk it pissed me off especislly when the same girl kept almost hitting me with her hair. Maybe it was nothing and im being stupid, but idk. At least the girl i was with was nice
I just feel like everyone knows what they are doing, like they were born with a cheat code or like i missed the one day in school were they taught everyone how to be a normal functioning person. Ik maybe i am the problem but i really dint know what i did wrong
I was just standing there quietly. Ik some ppl take quietness for rudeness, but i felt like i was gonna shit bricks cuz im scared to talk to ppl, and now i had to work with a group of ppl. I think my shyness and anxiety was mistaken for rudeness or dissintrest, but i was scared. I dont know how to not be scared. And i tried. I really tried to interact but after my first input i fucking emberrassed myself cuz i took too long looning for a fucking vein that we had already done but i didnt know CUZ I COULDNT SEE CUZ THE LADY WAS BLOCKING MY VIEW-
I could rant all day (night) but at the end of the day its my fault because i need to be better and know how to deal with ppl. I should have been better at it by now but i never get better at it. Im a coward
Feb 10, 2026. Tuesday, around 2:30 and second idk
Flores
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Alguien nos dio flores en el trabajo. No supe quien pero me dio gusto el detalle de quien fuera. Vale le dio las d ella a mi ma y mi tia nos recogio por q me niego a salir otro martes por li q paso. Aun me da miedito. No me acuerdo muy bien de lo demas pero no fue tan mal ni tan bueno. Creo q mi pa- no si mi pa nos dejo coliflor y brocoli y estaba muy bueno me gusto mucho todo. Siiiii
^^^IT WAS A GOOD DAY FOR SURE
Feb 09, 2026. Monday, all day.
Muchas
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Muchas pinches fotos tome ese dia. Me sentia bien "aestetic" y las tome. No se q mas paso ademas de q fuimos a la escuela. Me quede ahi con mis hermanas en la mañana y fue bonito pero duelen un chingo estar sentada por tanto pinche tiempo. Vale me compro una ensalada y al principio estaba buena pero ya despues cono q no
Pero fue bonito dia, eso si
^^^
THAT WAS BEFORE WHEB I WORKED ON IY BUT UHUJH YEAH!!!
Feb 08, 2026. Sunday ??:??
Bunni
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OK I GOTTA GET THESE DONE CUZ I ONLY HAVE 15MIN UNTIL LENT STARTS
Uhhh UHHH I DIDNT WORK, IT WAS SUNDAY, I UHHH IHHH I TJINK IT WAS A GOOD DAY
oh i finished the art trade that day! It was nice!!!
Feb 07, 2026. Saturday
Scared
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I worked that day and got out at 7. I remember Josh asked if he could come over but i regretted it cuz i forgot that he leaves late. And i had a study and my part of the art trade to do, so i regretted it. When my dad came home from work we went to Goodwill cuz my mom likes good will, and i found this journal called "should I quit?"
It was giving Steward so i opened it to a random page and it landed on that one.
I checked out 11/12 of those things. Im starting to think maybe i should quit my job. Like frfr, especially cuz its hurting me physically a LOT now that I think about it.
AND THEN WHEN I FINALLY LET MY GAURD DOWN-
Usually, when i go somewhere, i am almost always scared im gonna see someone ik because the twins always seemed to know where i was and what i was doing, and even would look at me through my window, so i got pretty paranoid and still am.
But sometimes after a few months, cuz last time was probably like 4 months ago, i finally let my gaurd down.
And thats when my mom comes up to me and tells me my sophmore year religion teacher was there. Checking out at the front
When i tell you I almost shat myself
I felt my heart drop to my stomach and my heart felt like it was gonna burst out of my body. My arms felt heavy and weak and i felt like i was gonna throw up and i was shaking. My sister helpef me calm down thankfully but oml i was so scared but at the sane time i wanted to run after her and beat the living shit out of her. We ended up seeing her walk away throu the glass windows, and im glad i didnt see her face. I wanted to run to her car, slash her tires, break her window, and then break her fucking face.
I dont think im a violent person, i am the type of person who doesnt kill flies or spiders, and i have learned to not hate those who have done very bad tbings to me. Hate is horrible, and ik God wants us to love each other.
But with this teacher, i cant find it in my heart. She's the only person i can truely say i hate. HATE. with all of my being. She made my life a living hell. Even though i havent seen her in years, she still affects my life. I'll never be able to have a normal life because of that horrible piece of human shit. I hate her so much. I hate her because she hurts people. Ik some people hurt people because they themsleves are hurt, or sometimes they dont even realize or mean to hurt others.
But this woman hurts people because she likes it. I saw how she liked making people feel small. She liked seeing people cry. She liked having the power over young vulnerable kids. She liked using God as an excuse to scare and hurt people. She hurts people because she likes it
And i hate people like that. They do it out of fun.
Im trying to lesrn to forgive, and i have. With mqny, many, many other things. But not her. I dont tjink i can ever forgive her in this life time.
Anyway, after that we met josh at our house and we went tonwalmart with him. Then we got home and he stayed there to eat. I kept being like "ooh haha im kinda tired and wanna go to sleep and study cuz i got a test tomorrow!!!" Mostly cuz yea that was true but also cuz i NEEDED to finish my part of the art trade. But he didnt get the hint and stayed until past 11. And only cuz i straight up was like "ok dude imma go to sleep i cant"
So that sucked. But i did get most of the drawing done. I was gonna finish it but i fell asleep. But dam i wished i cpuld have finished it earlier q q
Feb 06, 2025. Friday 1:15am
Reel
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Its Feb 17 now but i want to get these done before lent starts. After that I'll probably write them down and then post all 40 of them when I am back.
Anyway about Feb 06, i cant remember much. The person i did an art trade with finished their part that day so that was nice :-D uhhh idk what else i think i worled with Vale. I wish i was ablw to do these as often as i used to
Feb 04, 2026. Wednesday, 9:52pm.
Again
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I dont remember much, but uhhhh let me seee
I had lab at 8 and we studied the heart. I was late by 2 minutes and lost my points 💔
(Its feb 13 now so i have no idea what happejed.)
I think that class was when my teacher teased me about not talking. But he is nice about it
I studied anatomy for drawing a day before and practised on paper and drew him ^ And i felt like myself again
It was nice
Feb 05, 2026. Thursday 3:11pm
Portillo's
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I went to work with Vale but i got out earlier, so we went to eat cuz i dont eat breakfast and then we went to walmart before goibg to pick up Vale
I dont remember much tbh either, cuz again, its feb 13 q q
Oh and i got asked to do an art trade :-D i was really excited but also nervous cuz ik i take forever to draw, but that night i stayed up til 5 am sketching their oc cuz i was deternied to finish it at a resonable time. But i also crochet and prayed for a good chunck of the time
Feb 03, 2026. Tuesday 8:50am
Reel
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I had work that day and I honestly don't remember much. I remember liking having my parents back, mostly cuz i missed them, but also cuz i was sad of how much i was spending on ubers 💔
I worked with Vale and i can tell tuesdays are gonna suck, and that she's the only good part of it. Its one dollar day, so its crazy yet slow sometines???
I bought cute- OOOOHMU LORD HOW COULD I FORGET
WE WENT TO WENDY'S AFTER WORK SO AROUND 2:30 CUZ AFTER A WHOLE WEEK OF SALADS I WANTDD A BURGUR AND SOME GUYS KEPT STARING AT US
Ofc im too much of a socially akward chicken to make eye contact or look at my surroubdings, but Vale noticed right away. We got our food, we sat, they kept staring. In conclusion, when one went to the bathroom me and Vale dipped and ran back to our job which was supper close. And as soon as we got in and explained what haooebed to our coworker we saw that they were out of wendy's and coming towards the store. We told our bosses son and he let us hid in the back
After a few he said we where safe but I SAW THOSE MFS STANDING OUTSIDE OF THE STORE THRU THE GLASS WINDOW. Thankfully a sign didnt let them see us and our bosses son let us hide in the back and he went outside and just stood there until they left. That was scary.
Then my mom pickef us up after. And i bought cute cherry decorations that turned out to be for a 1 year olds birthday party and a 3d printed fidget dragon with its egg. It was buy one get one free soo. And i think i deserved it after that scare
I didnt even get to enjoy my burgur 💔
Feb 02, 2026. Monday, 4:32pm
Ratatui
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Idk how to spell it but its that movie with the chef rat. That day Xime and I had a long conversation about food, it was mostly me yapping.
I yapped about how this cake was simething I have been looking for for a long time. I remember tasting it simewhere a long time ago, back when we were still new to the USA and didn't know english yet and when everything was still new and exciting, and when everything seemed ok.
I never forgot that taste, and i would find myself longing for that same taste and looking for it when ever we had cake or cupcakes at an event. But nothing. I bite into the chocolate and green frosting and it's never the same.
I find myself picking out the green one, which i assume was what i picked when i first got that amazing pastery. I always choose green cuz I was obsessed with Buttercup from the powerpuff girls and bcs of now that was the color i had to chose for everything.
I basically told her that my search was over. I had found what i had been looking for for over a decade. And she told me that reactions like mine are the reason she wanted to get into colunary in the first place, and that she sometimes forgets that.
My parents came home from their trip that night too and I had school but idk what else
Feb 01, 2026. Sunday 8:37pm
Costco Cake
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I didnt work Sunday cuz they dont need me anynore cuz of the interns, which is nice but my paychecks are coming short 💔 but glad to have Sundays off. Vale stayed with Mark and she also had Sunday off! That was our last complete day alone before my parents came back, so Xime and u wanted to aprovechar y limpiar la casa so it could be clean for when they came back. And i wanted to get my costco cake cuz i always wanted to try it. Ever since i saw it its beeb calling my name.
But then when i was warming up the car my grandma callef and she asked if we had plans. I panickef and said no. So she said she was gonna come over 💔 but thankfully Vale and Makr agreed to take us to Costco. I called her but she called later and i told her we were gonna go get mandado and she said ok and that she was still coming over regardless which was ???
As soon as we stepped foot in costco my tia called and said she and mama chela were at out house so we hurried cuz they are nosy asf.
When we got home mfs had alreafy served themselces food. Which i dont mind but my tia was already looking to see what she was gonna take home. She ate my moms penuts and almost took her mole, but Vale or Xime hid it. So they just took soup and gorditas.
My shelf came and Xime and I put it up while my grandma sort of helped.my tia csme in and had her phone alñ the way up when i was on tje phone with my mom so that pissed me off. As soon as we got home too they commented on our rooms (they said they liked mine ah haha) and xime was like "oooh ok so u guys went into our rooms!" And my tia got so defensive.
The best part was when they left and I finally got to eat our cake.
It was just as good as i imagined. It tasted like i had excpected but better but also exsctly like that. It tasted like sometjing i had tasted a long time ago. Back when we first came here. It tasted like when everything was ok and when i was mostly ok and when everything was mostly ok.
Pero me empalago real quick. Still it was realy good idk why i wanted to cry. I felt like the search had finally finished. But i still need to find that one pasta