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Fatherly Advice || Casey & Cam

carnagecampbell

The choice was easy at first, but now it was a lot to take in for Cam. He wanted to do right by Abigail, he hated the fact that she had been alone in this. they were both just kids even though he had no doubt she would be an amazing mother, he felt as though this was all to much. But then again Abi was much stronger mentally then Cam, which is why he was glad that Casey was allowing him to talk to him to help get the fear of his chest .

When the older man began telling him about how he felt the same way when he became a father, He felt slightly less ashamed of being scared of the idea. Cam glanced around ” you have a daughter? how old is she? ” he wanted to know as much as he could about being a father, he knew he had around eight months to figure it out but he wanted to be ready.

As he reflected on his previous comment mainly directed towards Ryder, he hadn’t taken into play that there were others that had to leave their loved onrs. looking down in embarrassment ” I’m sorry I shouldn’t have said that, it was uncalled for” the fact was Cam knew the man was right, even though he hoped that Abu would be all his there was indeed a chance Ryder could be out there looking for her and come back into her life. ” I just don’t see how anyone that cares about her, could let her out of their sight” at that moment he knew that if the other did come back for Abigail it would be a lot harder to give her and the baby up.

As the man spoke up again, Cam was beyond greatfull. In a sense he felt as though th older man was acting like the dad he never had, one that supporting him and gave him the advice he so desperately needed ” thank you, you have no idea how much that helps” even the street of he decision still weight on his shoulders he was still glad to know he wasn’t alone.

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"She was twelve." His voice hinted at the sadness within, revealing the well kept secret. There were some who knew what happened, but he tried not to allow the truth to be set free. He had felt nothing but guilt from the day he pulled the trigger - he didn't need everyone frowning down on him. "She's no longer with me. It's been about a year since I lost her." He still blamed himself, as well as his ex wife for what happened to his little girl - but he knew there was nothing else he could do. She was gone from the world, never to return.

A sigh escaped his lips as he ran his fingers through his dark hair. "I left my best friend behind because of a herd, then my brother behind all because the prison was under attack. There was nothing I could do, but that wasn't my fault. Perhaps he couldn't have helped losing her, you have to put yourself in the others shoes." Of course he understood it was possible for Abigail's lover to leave on purpose. There were some who found women to be the weakest link, especially ones as young as her. "However, she has you now. She's depending on you."

"You're not going to be alone in this. If you ever need something, let me know." He spoke, nodding his head. He had enough experience that he was able to share and potentially help someone out. "You're going to have to get baby items soon." The child couldn't go without and they wouldn't - not as long as he had a say in it.

#para #fatherly advice #carnagecampbell

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Love and Marriage || Casey & Kenzi

Kenzi didn’t even think of the two as living in a world full of zombies. Sure, things were difficult living in that world, but as long as you didn’t think about it, the world wasn’t much different. People still lived and died. Yes, they may have died differently than they would have in the past, but the concept was still the same. You live and you die. At least they were happy together. That was all that really mattered at this point. Kenzi loved Casey more than anything and she was sure that would never change. She was happy that she could be so ridiculously childish with someone but it be a wonderful thing. She loved him and she wanted to show him that all the time.

“I love you, Case.” She looked up at him and kissed him several more times quickly. She never wanted to let him go. He was the most amazing thing that could have ever happened to her and she never wanted to lose that. She knew that the chances of her losing that wouldn’t be very big unless Casey died. She knew that at this point that he wouldn’t leave her, not after proposing to her.

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The world wasn't fit for love and relationships anymore, but he was determined to change that. He found the love of his life and despite the bumps - he had been given a second chance. With the limited options he currently faced, he wasn't able to do much. He wasn't able to give her everything he could his first wife. His children wouldn't have the things his late daughter had - but he wouldn't let that bring him down. He had a chance to recreate something magical and he was going to make it perfect. "I love you too." He whispered.

He had proven his love for her over and over again. The ring placed upon her finger shown his undying love for that woman. He wanted to be with her, father her children, and so much more. Their love was very much not like another. "I honestly don't know if you know how much I love you." If he could have shouted it from the rooftops, he would - but it wouldn't be enough.

#para #kenzithebadassarcher #love and marriage

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Fatherly Advice || Casey & Cam

carnagecampbell

As the thought proceeded to consume him, his shoulders tightened and became rigid. As if his body was literally under a massive weight. Listening to the man connect the dots, all Cam did was nod. When Casey had recalled. a previous conversation. between him and Abi, Cam hated the fact that she had gone through the scare but was glad she wasn’t alone when it happened.

Focusing back on the question directed at him, he sighed and nodded ” yea.. I did” his gazed dropped. . it was mostly likely something the man thought was a foolish for him to have done. but he loved Abigail to much to let her just do this on her own. ” I ..I thought I was but now, what if I mess up? ” he ran his finger back threw his hair.

Cam knew that Casey was just asking the normal questions, but when he brought up Ryder stern look crossed his face as he looked back up at the man.” He left her… alone ” sure there was a posability that Ryder could come back into the picture, but Abigail didn’t seem to fond of the idea at the moment. " I know it's a big job, that's why I want to do it right. .. but what if I'm not fit? "

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A sigh escaped his parted lips as he shook his head. The kid was young, way too young to be accepting his fate as a father. However, he seemed to have been slightly okay with it. The biological father was still out in the world and he would eventually come back - he would if it was him. "I thought I was going to mess up too. When my daughter was finally born, I stopped being scared." That little girl was his entire world up until the day she died. He still lived for her, actually.

"Hey now, I left people behind too. It wasn't because I wanted to, but because the odds were against it. Whoever the other man is, he could come back." He said, nodding his head. It wasn't unlikely, but when that happened - Cam needed to be ready for it. That was his unborn child and he had a say in what happened. However, he didn't believe the other was right for leaving the woman behind - whether he knew about the pregnancy or not.

"Listen to me, you're not going to be alone. I have experience with children, you can come to me. I might not be of much help, but I can try." He failed as a parent, but he was determined not to make that mistake again.

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Darkness Meets the Light || OPEN

Regaining trust from the ones around him definitely wasn’t an easy task. He had broken the rules, hurt the ones he cared for, then on top of it all - he was the sole reason Rosa had left the motel. That was probably the worst of it all, but he wasn’t about to allow that to bring him down. He had responsibilities, people to look after, and family to take care of. With two of the people he cared about out in the open, he’d eventually leave and track them down. He could find them if he really wanted to, but the time wasn’t right - he couldn’t up and leave again. He’d ruin everything he had worked so hard to keep.

Along with the mandatory supply runs, he had managed to pick up a few watch shifts. He wanted to do everything he could to help and he was definitely doing the best he could. That was the thing with Casey - if he knew he could be of service, then he’d do whatever he was asked. It didn’t matter how hard or seemingly unusual it was - he’d still do it. Although, tonight was one of the nights he had it easy. He could slack off and do whatever he pleased, even though the entertainment options were slim. There wasn’t much he could do to occupy himself.

His girlfriend was sound asleep, as well as most of the other motel occupants - so it forced him to actually be quiet. That wasn’t much of a problem for him, but taking one wrong step to the left caused him to nearly fall through the railing. He held onto the metal and saved himself from going down into the street - but he knew that someone had heard him. Shifting his blue eyes around, making sure that the coast was seemingly clear - he moved over towards the staircase. He scurried down the steps, going to the first floor - which was actually clear. The dead weren’t lurking around.

He quirked his brow and turned, going to duck down underneath the staircase - but he found himself startled inside. “Shit!” He cursed, stepping back. It wasn’t a walker, it was in fact one of the living. “You scared the hell out of me.”

#para #darkness meets the light #afthstart #posting this again because the answering blog quit

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Fatherly Advice || Casey & Cam

carnagecampbell

As he sat there, his head spinning with the thoughts of being a father a such a young age. he was grateful to the man really for just sitting next to him, he wouldn’t dare tell Abigail he was freaking out over the promise he had made but he needed to get it off his chest . Cam began rubbing his temple ” it’s overwhelming , I feel like every thing is on me”

As the man asked about what the topic was at hand, Cam realized that he hadn’t given him any information on the stress that weighed now on his shoulders. He felt his heart beat quicken ” I told my friend who is pregnant that I would be the fa….father” he struggled to even say the words. looking at the man with a lost expresstion, he nodded ecknoledging the fact that he introduced himself. even though he was ovrwhelmed Cam managed to remember his manners, he stuck out his hand ” It’s nice to meet you Mr. Casey, I’m Cam”

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It wasn't hard to figure out who the other was talking about. There was only one pregnant woman within the entire motel. He had actually been the one to have her realize what was happening. "Abigail, right." It wasn't a question, simply a statement. "I talked to her before, back when she thought she was infected." She wasn't dying from the plague, she was merely having a child. "Wait, you told her you'd be the father?" He asked, quirking up his brows.

When the two spoke, he didn't know anything about the babies original father - only that he was no longer in the picture. "Are you ready for that? What if the real father comes back?" He asked, simply watching the younger male. There were so many things that had to be taken into consideration. "Becoming a father is a huge step."

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Love and Marriage || Casey & Kenzi

Kenzi nodded and smiled up at Casey. She hoped that she was right and that Daryl would really love her. Kenzi wanted nothing more than to be great friends with Casey’s friends. Even though she knew that would be hard with Rosa, thats what she hoped for in that situation too. She never liked to be mean to people, but she did when she had to. She just hoped that she wouldn’t have to again for a long long time.

Kenzi looked up at Casey and he picked her up. She couldn’t help but smile as she wrapped her legs tightly around his waist and put her arms around his neck. She loved whenever Casey got sweet with her and this was one of those moments that she longed for. It was amazing. She had butterflies whenever he did sweet things like this. “I’m not short, Case.” Kenzi pouted. “I’m fun sized.” She said as she pulled herself closer to him and kissed his cheek several times.

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A smirk formed over his lips as he felt her lips upon his skin. The things he did with her, was a first. When he was married, he hardly acted like a teenager around his wife. The two were as grown as they could be, even if Casey was an idiot at heart. His ex was the sophisticated type, everything was supposed to happen a certain way. He was actually glad Kenzi was nothing like that. He wouldn't love her any less if she was, but a change in pace was good for him. Especially when it came to women.

"Oh?" His brow quirked as he looked forward at Kenzi. "Fun sized is exactly my speed." He muttered, leaning forward. He pressed his lips upon hers, kissing her sweetly. It was hard to believe the two of them were in the middle of the apocalypse. They didn't act it, the two of them were actually able to be comfortable in the world. "It's hard to believe we're in a world full of zombies."

#para #kenzithebadassarcher #love and marriage

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Morning Glory || Casey & Rosa [past]

defenselessrosa

It would only be a short amount of time before someone would be knocking at her door looking for Casey. Whether it was Kenzi or one of the leaders here at the motel it would cause her some kind of sadness. She did feel bad for what had happened and for the fact that he hadn’t left in the middle of the night to join his girlfriend. He had stayed with her which wasn’t making this situation any better. She wondered if her feelings of guilt would ever really go away.

Rosa grinned a little at his comment. “Really?” she asked with raised brows looking at him. No one had ever told her that before but then again no on had really had that opportunity. She was pretty sure that she was restless during her sleep and especially now with a million thoughts going through her mind. “How long were you watching me for?” she asked feeling a little uneasy. It was a little unsettling now that she knew he had actually been watching her but at the same time it made her feel wanted and safe.

She stretched out her legs lightly wondering on what time it actually was. The sun was pretty bright so she guessed it had to be fairly early. It wouldn’t be long before Casey would have to leave. If the reason he hadn’t yet was because he didn’t want to face Kenzi she understood that but knew he couldn’t hide. He would have to tell her something, where would he say he was? She had to know. “So…” she asked sort of dancing around the subject with a brief pause. “Where are you gonna say you’ve been all night?” she finally asked. She would be okay if he wanted to tell Kenzi the truth but she just wished there would be another way. She sighed lightly and wrapped her arm around him lightly.

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Casey nodded his head, then shortly quirked up his brow. He hadn't been watching her long, that was for sure. "Really." He replied, letting a soft smile form over his thin lips. He thought most women were adorable when they slept, but she was different. She was beautiful, gorgeous even. "I haven't been watching long." He added, shrugging up his shoulders. It was long enough to seem like an adorable gesture, not long enough to come off as creepy. "Perhaps five minutes at the most." He was lucky she woke up when she did, or he would have done it himself.

When she spoke up again, a gentle sigh escaped his lips. He had known that was coming, but he wasn't exactly prepared for it. He had thought over some alternatives, but none were going to keep everyone safe. The truth had to come out at some point, however - he wanted to prolong it. If he could have found some way to never tell his girlfriend the truth, then he'd be golden. "I'm not planning on going back, so I have no idea." He replied, looking around the room. He wasn't lying. When he finally left, he would end up going somewhere else. He couldn't leave the area, but he could find some place to hide.

"I'll have to tell her the truth at some point." The version of truth he was planning on telling, wasn't the entire situation. He would leave out numerous details, but the important thing was names. He didn't want to get Rosa in trouble, not now. Perhaps later down the line he would tell who the other woman was. "She doesn't have to know everything, though. The second I mention the word 'cheated', she's going to kill me - the rest shouldn't matter."

#para #defenselessrosa #Morning Glory

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Fatherly Advice || Casey & Cam

definitely-not-a-saint

It was definitely strange for him to be talking about what he was. With the end of the world, everyone signed on for something they didn't know if he could handle. He signed up for taking care of two women, but ultimately failed. Although, he had a feeling that wasn't what the other was talking about. "Of course I have. I think everyone in the world has felt that way." He replied, shrugging up his shoulders. Most people did something they didn't think was capable, but they always made their way through it.

"What are you talking about anyway?" He asked, quirking his brow. Things would be a lot better if he knew what the root of the problem was. Perhaps he could lend his experiences to the other. "I'm Casey, by the way." He nodded his head. He had a feeling he'd be seeing a lot more of this kid, so an introduction was needed. The two of them couldn't remain nameless forever, it didn't work that way.

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Love and Marriage || Casey & Kenzi

“I don’t care who we have around as long as we’re happy and we’re always together. I still have to meet Daryl. Especially now that we’re engaged. I have to meet my fiancee’s best friend.” Kenzi smiled at Casey. She was beyond happy that the two of them had come so far since he cheated on her. She was so glad that Casey was still in her life because she honestly didn’t know what she would do without him. She loved him so much and she couldn’t imagine how life would be without him.

“I don’t know what I’d do without you either, my love. You’re the most amazing thing to ever happen to me and I’m glad that we’re going to be together for the rest of our lives.” She was so happy that she could say that now. She wanted nothing more than to spend the rest of her days with the man she loved and she was positive beyond a shadow of a doubt that Casey was that man and that they would live together and be so happy forever.

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"Well, then you're going to have to get used to the Dixon's. They may not be the best company, but they're family." He said, letting a smile spread over his lips. He loved his brothers, even if they weren't related by blood. The two of them were the only family he had left, besides Kenzi - of course. "He's going to love you, dear." It was true, Daryl would love her like his own sister. However, when the three of them got together - he had no idea what to say for himself. The other would be pissed about the entire cheating incident - it was hard to say what would happen.

Without saying a word, his placed his hands on the back of her thigh - using the leverage to pick her up. Her legs wrapped around his waists and his hands rested on her hips. The two of them were finally at the same level, he didn't tower over her anymore. "You're so short." He teased, letting his blue eyes meet hers. However, he liked short girls better - they were far more adorable.

#para #kenzithebadassarcher #love and marriage

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Morning Glory || Casey & Rosa [past]

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Rosa had never been a morning person. Though she had no idea what time it was the bright light shining into the room told her that it was time to get up even if she didn’t want to move. As though she had almost forgot what had happened the night before a churning feeling over took her stomach as it all replayed in her head. The brunette was still in a sleep-like state as she kept her eyes closed and continued to think of the events that had brought her and Casey to where they had been last night.

Some sense of self control or self guilt had caused her to stop their actions before they had gotten too out of hand regardless of the fact that they had already crossed many lines that they shouldn’t have. Her clothes had still been laying in a pile on the floor. She was sure Casey had picked through the pile of fabric for his belongings at some time during the night when he had left. If she had a choice she would have run away from the situation and avoided talking about it too. There wasn’t much to discuss. What’s done was done and no amount of talking about it would make what had happened disappear.

The terrible part was, she didn’t want it to disappear. It wasn’t right of her to have let things go so far but she wasn’t the only one to blame and she wished her conscious had been able to stay quiet. Even though she knew she did the right thing she couldn’t help but feel upset about it. As a waking feeling began to come over her she let out a small yawn and then she realized that she wasn’t in the bed alone as she had thought she was going to be. To her surprise Casey hadn’t left. She opened her eyes slowly allowing the bright sun into them and letting them adjust. As her eyes peered around for a few moments she saw that Casey was looking at her. She felt his arms still around her which made her smile. “Hey there.” She grinned feeling herself blushing slightly and voiced her opinion. “Wasn’t expecting to see you here.” She said meeting his eyes and then closed her own eyes again snuggling up to him.

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It definitely didn't surprise him when she spoke. He didn't entirely expect himself to still be there, but he knew that he couldn't leave. As if things weren't bad enough, skipping out in the middle of the night would only make it worse - not to mention she deserved better than that. Watching him actually walk out wouldn't be the easiest thing to do, but it would have to suffice. "Hey, darling." He spoke, the tone of his voice soft. It was far too early for him to speak normally, the sound of his voice would more than likely give himself a headache. If that was the case for him, he definitely didn't want it to be the case for her.

"I couldn't walk out on you." He admitted, shaking his head. It wasn't like he hadn't thought about it. When she was sleeping, it would have been easy to slip out from her grasp and leave the room. However, he thought about her reaction. Would it make her upset? Probably. That was something he didn't want, either. The times he had seen her crying, or on the verge of a breakdown - it was enough to fuel him to try not to hurt her. He knew that wouldn't exactly happen with the situation they were in, but he could sure as hell try.

His expression softened as he reached over and pushed some of the dark strands from her face. His baby blue eyes met her hazel orbs, locking in the gaze as a smile formed upon his lips. He knew that he couldn't stay within the hotel the entire day, someone would come looking for him - but with what time they had left, everything could be done to make it memorable. "You look so peaceful when you sleep." He commented, nodding his head. Didn't everyone though? Of course, he probably wasn't on that list. He could wake anyone with his obnoxious snoring.

#para #defenselessrosa #Morning Glory

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Love and Marriage || Casey & Kenzi

Kenzi knew that the two of them would eventually have to leave the motel for one reason or another, but she didn’t want to think about that right now. Things were good for them right now, and she was sure that they would stay good no matter what happened to them as long as the two of them stayed together. “Hopefully we’ll find our farm house, and we can live there happily. As long as we’re together, I’m the happiest girl in the world.” She smiled up at him. She loved him more than anything and she was sure that as long as the two of them stayed together that their lives would stay amazing.

“Nothing in this world can tear us apart.” She smiled up at Casey once again. She was sincere as she spoke. She knew that if they were together that they would both be happy. She knew that nothing in the world would be able to separate the two them so things would always be wonderful for them. No matter what challenges that they faced, they’d always have each other and that meant the most to her.

definitely-not-a-saint

When the two of them finally departed from the motel, his time would be spend searching for the ones he lost. His sole purpose would be finding the two that stepped out of his life. One was lost within the prison blast, then the second left because of his actions. It didn't matter what it'd take, he'd rectify his past - he'd make everything right with the people he wronged. "I still want the others around, though." Whether they were childhood friends, ones he picked up along the way, or ones he held something with - they were going to be a part of his life as long as he continued to breathe. Perhaps he could even have them inside the same house as them, but for now - the open would have to do.

"Y'know, when this shit first started, I thought I was doomed. I was sure that I was going to be eaten within the first week, but I made it. I found Daryl and made my way back to the prison. However, I still wasn't quite sure what'd happen. The day I found my wife and daughter, it broke me - which you saw. I don't know what i'd do without you, babe." He whispered, leaning down to her level. His forehead rested against hers and a smile formed over his lips. Oh how he loved her.

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Fatherly Advice || Casey & Cam

He walked out of his motel room, peering out over the metal ledge. The streets were clear, besides the occasional dead straggler - but nothing more was to be expected. Containing the dead was a hard thing to do, it could never be done - especially when they traveled in such large quantities. A soft sigh pushed past his lips as he reached into his back pocket, taking out a half empty cigarette carton. He took a single smoke from the pack, stuck it inbetween his lips - then lit the end. He had once vowed to never smoke again, but since it was the end of the world - it honestly didn't matter anymore.

As he moved away from the ledge, he taped off the small amount of ashes from the end of the cigarette. He let them fall to the ground, as he should have. His blue eyes scanned the area around him, before noticing a teenager sitting on the steps. It wasn't unusual for someone to be stuck deep within thought, but this kid - he seemed more distressed than he should have. "Hey, kid." He called out, quirking up his brow. He walked over to the steps, taking a seat beside the boy. "Something bothering you?" He questioned, watching the other carefully. Perhaps he had lost someone, but he doubted it. He didn't seem as upset as someone would have.

"I'm always up for listening." He offered, shrugging up his shoulders. For all he knew, he could have been a huge help - however, he wouldn't know just yet.

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26.) Second day of favorites! Favorite comfort food, favorite vice, favorite outfit, favorite hot drink, favorite time of year, and favorite holiday.

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24.) What might your character’s ideal romantic partner be?

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23.) Is your character superstitious?

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