this is my story !

i'm just a girl .. i love being called pretty , but I'll never believe it ! i'm not always right , but i hate admitting .. i'm wrong .. i'm always smiling, but its not always real .. i can be read like an open book , but i hide so much .. i work hard at things , but i dont always get what i deserve .. i'm just a girl .,

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udaah lama gua gak buka ni bloog ..

kyaaa~! annyeoonggg ..

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Like a fool , like a child , I tear up as I stand behind your back

How have you been?

I can’t even ask you that because my throat keeps closing

I miss you, I miss you so much

I can’t even say your name that I shouted out without rest,

I can’t even talk to myself in front of you

I don’t dare to make a sound

You can’t look back, you can’t ever forgive me

Don’t waste your heart on me, because I only make you cry

Because I only give you pain

I’m stuck in the time and place where I was young and foolish

From my eyes in the mirror, your tears flow out

Do as I say – I’ll remain as a memory for you

Just remember me once in your life by chance

You can’t love me, let’s not place any lingering attachments toward each other

I cowardly deceive myself when all I want to say is one thing, “I love you”

Can’t we go back? Can’t we go back again?

Just once, just once, please

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kamera jadul milik kaka kku ..

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Get Ur Crayon ..

:D

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i'm Jewel !

well ..

aku gag tau kapan aku mulai menyukai dia ..

awalnya aku gag suka ama dia , bener-bener gag suka malah ..

tapi semakin aku membencinya dan melihat dia gak disengaja , aku mulai tertarik dengannya ..

'ntah apa yg aku suka dari dia , yang jelas *dulu dia itu kurus dan "ew" , but he has a very cute smile dan itu membuatku tak bisa berhenti memandangi foto dia yang sangat cute ..

OMG aku terpesona dengannya ..

*to be continued ..

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Quinoa breakfast cookies…simple and healthy

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lonely !

hidup gw terasa sangat kesepian...

gw merasa , gw gak pantes buat hidup di dunia ini ..

bagi gw semua sementara... 

gw hanya bisa berdoa sama Allah , agar gw di berikan kekuatan di perjalan hidup gw ini... 

gw emang gak sempurna , gw selalu diasingkan didalam rumah ini  ... 

tapi gw sabar dan bertanya sama diri gw , kalau gw ini emang bukan siapa siapa ... 

hanya bisa sabar dan sabar ..

sahabat yang bener bener sahabat aja gw gak punya , gw gak bisa curhat , tiap curhat ama orang yg nganggep gw sahabat gak ditanggepin ..

mereka hanya menghampiriku ketika mereka ada maunya ..

sedangkan ketika gw butuh mereka , meraka kemana ?

dan gw gak bisa apa apa... 

sampai kapan hidup gw kesepian kaya gini ..

gw capek hidup gak ada yang bisa ngertiin perasaan gw , gak ada yang bisa menghargai gw .. 

apa salah saya YA ALLAH , sampai cobaan hidup ini begitu berat bagi saya ..

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it's TRUE !

i also like that !

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things u can't buy in stores : *love *dreams *friends *a wish come true *happiness *time

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it's not that i don't like people , i just feel better when they aren't around !

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it hurts the most when the person that made you feel so special yesterday makes you feel so unwanted today !!

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i'm going to smile like nothing's wrong ..

talk like everythings perfect and act like it's all a dream and pretend like it's not hurting me !

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i didn't mean to fall in love , but i did .. and you didn't mean to hurt me , but you did !

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this is my wish for you :

comfort on difficult days , smiles when sadness intrudes , rainbows to follow the clouds , laughter to kiss your lips , sunsets to warm your heart , hugs when spirits sag , beauty for your eyes to see , friendships to brighten your being , faith so that you can believe , confidence for when you doubt , courage to know yourself , patience to accept the truth , love to complete your life !

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.. and sometimes i just need to be alone , so i can cry without being judged , so i can think without being interrupted so i dont bring anyone else down with me ..