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goooood i wanna diiiiiie

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im feeling a special kind of despair

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i thought i was better, turns out i was just distracted

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idk if im better or just numb

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i dont know what to do. im afraid i’ll never be loved and have someone to love

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i dont want to talk to him but im confused and want closure. i never get closure

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fuck i almkst started crying at work

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god i feel nauseous from all this

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im gonna play it cool. im gonna reply short and simple. i already made myself look like an idiot by crying to him and telling him how much he hurt me

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oh god he messaged me. im at work. i cant start crying

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it had been so long since i had any human contact. not even a hug. and i dont know if im ready to go back to that.

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im too much

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i still dont know what to do about this situation. do i stay or do i leave? would i just continue to be hurt? i dont want to be alone again

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when will this feeling end

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i always end up abandoned and hurt

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i dont have anyone. i have no friends. im gonna die alone