Dollface.Xia

19 / chengdu / she/her X Rated Fantasies & Photos

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u say 'i miss u' and i think abt what u would do if i was there. i think abt u pulling me close. i think abt u kissing my neck. i think abt u not letting go. i say 'i miss u too' but what i really mean is: i want u to prove it.

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im in a café. alone. i'm wearing a skirt. i'm not wearing anything underneath. i text u: 'i'm being bad today.' u say: 'tell me more.' i say: 'im sitting here thinking abt u. and my hand is under the table. and im imagining its ur hand instead.' u pause. then u send: 'go to the bathroom. now.' i smile. i stand up. i walk to the bathroom. i lock the door. i call u. u answer. u say: 'now finish what u started. and think of me. i'll be listening.

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i send u a voice note at 2am. i'm giggling. then i whisper: 'i'm lying in bed right now. i'm naked. i'm touching myself. and i'm thinking abt u. i'm thinking abt ur hands. i'm thinking abt ur mouth. i'm thinking abt u inside me. i'm thinking abt how good u would feel. now tell me. what are u thinking abt?'

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I call u. i don't say hi. i just say: 'i want u to tell me what u would do if i was in ur bed right now. and i want u to be honest. and i want u to not stop until i tell u to.' u pause. then u start talking. my eyes close. my hand moves under my shirt. i don't interrupt. when u finish, i whisper: 'good boy. now come get me

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in china we say 暧昧 (ài mèi) — it's when u like someone but nobody says it. i think we're 暧昧 right now. but i'm not patient. i'm not good at waiting. so im gonna say it first: i want u. now what are u gonna do abt that?

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i'm on my bed. lights dim. phone in hand. i send u a photo. just my hand. holding a string. the string goes somewhere off camera. i say: 'pull it. and find out what's on the other end.' u don't reply. u just send a photo of ur hand. pulling. and then i send a voice note. and i don't say anything. i just breathe. for a long time.

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暧昧 (ài mèi) 

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i don't send good morning texts. i send good morning voice notes. and in the voice note i say ur name like i just woke up. soft. sleepy. a little bit needy. and then i say: 'i dreamt abt u. i'll tell u later. or maybe i won't. maybe i'll just make u wonder.

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i text u: 'i want u to close ur eyes. i want u to imagine my hand on ur chest. moving down. slow. i want u to imagine my mouth on ur neck. my breath warm. i want u to imagine me whispering: tell me what u want. and i want u to imagine urself saying it. out loud. now do it. and don't text me back until u do.

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u say 'hey' and i think abt what u sound like when u moan. that little broken sound. like u can't help it. like i did that to u. i smile. i say 'hi' back. like i don't know what i just imagined. but i do.

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i'm in my room. sitting on the floor. back against the bed. i close my eyes. i imagine u walking in. u sit down in front of me. we don't talk. u just reach out and touch my knee. i shiver. u smile. then u lean in and kiss me so soft i forget to breathe. and then u don't stop. and i don't want u to.

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i say 你好 (nǐ hǎo) — hi. but what i really mean is: i want u to think abt me when ur alone. i want u to touch urself and imagine it's me. i want u to say my name and mean it. 嘻嘻 (xī xī). now u know.

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im lying in bed. lights off. phone in hand. i text u: 'i want u here. i want u to hold me. i want u to kiss me. i want u to touch me. i want u to make me feel like im the only person in the world. and then i want u to make me feel like im not. i want u to take control. i want u to tell me what to do. i want u to be my everything. just for one night. and then i want u to do it again tomorrow.' u say: 'ill be there in 10 min.' i smile. i put my phone down. i don't put anything on. i wait.

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i'm not a good girl. i'm not a bad girl. im a girl who knows exactly what u want. and im gonna give it to u. but only if u beg. and only if u mean it. and only if u don't stop until i tell u to.

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i text u: 'i want u to go to ur room. lock the door. turn off the lights. lie down. and touch urself. but i don't want u to finish. not yet. i want u to think abt me. i want u to imagine my mouth on u. my hands on u. my voice in ur ear. i want u to get close. and then stop. and then wait. i'll text u when u can finish. don't disobey me.' u say: 'yes, xia.' i smile. i wait 20 min. then i send: 'now. think of me. say my name. and let go.

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in china we say 缘分 (yuán fèn) — destiny. maybe we were meant to meet here. maybe im just being dramatic. but i like the way u feel when i think abt u. and i want u to feel me. inside u. outside u. everywhere. okay? good. now stay.

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i record a voice note. i start laughing soft. then i stop. i whisper: 'i want u to imagine me on top of u. my hair falling over ur face. my hands on ur chest. i want u to imagine me moving slow. teasing u. watching u lose control. i want u to imagine me leaning down. my lips by ur ear. i want u to imagine me whispering: beg. and i want u to imagine urself doing it.' i send it. i wait. u text: 'im begging.' i say: 'good boy. now come show me.