Suffering a relapse is enough to make me wanna off myself. Worked very hard since June 2019 to maintain my sobriety. Mother’s Day happened and I slipped up for a week straight. threw me off my fitness plan, made me sick, made me careless with my money and made me make rash decisions. I’m dissapointed in myself and even more disappointed that I really tricked myself into believing I wasn’t still an addict. I reach out to everybody to make sure they’re maintaining sobriety but nobody reaches out to me. i Wish I wasn’t like this and I wish my brain would allow me to feel pain without needing a numbing source. Going to stay clean but still feel like I went back 100 steps. Even more upset I can’t celebrate my 2 years on June 3rd or I would be lying 😞
