Mind, Mine

NOTHING CAN STOP THE WAY I THINK 'BOUT ANYTHING, CAUSE MY MIND IS MINE.

[dontmindmine]

Ada yg mengabaikan,

Ada yg di abaikan,

Suatu saat nanti, mungkinkah kan tiba waktunya?

Keduanya saling menganggap satu sama lain sangat penting

Hingga tak berada disisinya pun membuat ia tak bisa bernapas semudah biasanya.

- derry karina

[dontmindmine]

Hi, i haven't said this to you properly cause i was sooo sleepy yesterday.

Happy Birthday!

Wish you a very happy life ahead! may God always give you health, prosperity, and ease in everything you do and you gonna do, aamiin.

I might never told you this, but you've done a very good job for our family. Thank you for replacing Papa's place in Mama's life and mine. I know it's hard for you too, but did you know? you did it well. You could be 'a responsible husband-father-brother' for me and Mama. I always thankful to you about that. Papa must be so proud of you up there. Thank you Mas, thank you so much and i love you so much with all of my life. Happy birthday, once again ❤

[dontmindmine]

Me to myself:

"Wasn't it easier in your lunchbox days?

Always a bigger bed to crawl into

Wasn't it beautiful when you believed in everything?

And everybody believed in you?

Wasn't it easier in your firefly-catchin' days?

And everything out of reach, someone bigger brought down to you

Wasn't it beautiful runnin' wild 'til you fell asleep?

Before the monsters caught up to you?"

Myself to me:

"Yes, it really was. But, It's alright, just wait and see."

[dontmindmine]

Breaks My Heart

Just heard a bad news. And it hurts and breaks my heart so much, i couldn't hold my tears back.

Breaking up with boys feels nothing compares to this. What breaks my heart so much is, if i could be this sad, how could him be?

Yet he acts like it was nothing, it has nothing to do with his life, it doesn't matter at all. But i know, he is pretending, i know he's dying inside, just to make us feel okay. He is wrong, we will never could be okay.

[geminizone]

Gemini: Reality vs. Stereotype

Stereotypes: Fake, two-faced, loud, flakey, noncommittal, dishonest

Reality: A Gemini isn’t “fake”, they just know what they want and aren’t afraid to take a turn or risks. A Gemini isn’t two-faced, they just know when and where to put on different personalities for different reasons. Would you go to an interview and act like you do around your bestfriend? Exactly. A Gemini isn’t loud, well of course sometimes they can be, but they are just very outspoken and love to get their opinion across. A Gemini isn’t noncommittal, they are just not going to settle for less when they know for a fact they deserve more. A Gemini isn’t dishonest, they are just sparing your feelings, but if you want the truth they will have no problem giving you want you want.

[geminizone]

Gemini: THE 3 MYTHS

Myth 1: They are fake/two-faced

The truth is, we are not fake or two-faced. In better words we are “extremely adaptable”. You will often find your Gemini adapting to their surroundings to make themselves and those who are around them feel comfortable, it is just in our nature to do so.

Myth 2: They are mean

Not everyone is mean, and not everyone is nice, but for some odd reason the Gemini sign has this stigma of being mean. The truth isn’t that they are mean; your typical Gemini will only be mean if they seriously have to. So if you feel that your Gemini is being mean, ask yourself “have I done something wrong?”.

Myth 3: They don’t have feelings

I cannot express how untrue this myth is. Well first, lets start with “everyone has feelings”. Your Gemini just have extremely good methods of hiding and masking how they are feeling, and are extremely picky on who they chose to vent and open up to. They are selective because they are often protective of themselves and sanity, so if a Gemini ever come to you venting, just listen and show empathy, because they trust you.

[dontmindmine]

this is what i always want to say!

[dontmindmine]

"Hanya berikan pedulimu kepada yang menginginkan. Yang tidak, jangan. Karena itu hanya akan membutakanmu untuk melihat siapa yang benar - benar membutuhkanmu dan kamu butuhkan."

Derry Karina

[thelovejournals]

Sometimes people walk away from love because it is so beautiful that it terrifies them. Sometimes they leave because the connection shines a bright light on their dark places and they are not ready to work them through. Sometimes they run away because they are not developmentally prepared to merge with another – they have more individuation work to do first. Sometimes they take off because love is not a priority in their lives- they have another path and purpose to walk first. Sometimes they end it because they prefer a relationship that is more practical than conscious, one that does not threaten the ways that they organize reality. Because so many of us carry shame, we have a tendency to personalize love’s leavings, triggered by the rejection and feelings of abandonment. But this is not always true. Sometimes it has nothing to do with us. Sometimes the one who leaves is just not ready to hold it safe. Sometimes they know something we don’t – they know their limits at that moment in time. Real love is no easy path – readiness is everything. May we grieve loss without personalizing it. May we learn to love ourselves in the absence of the lover.

Jeff Brown (via thelovejournals)

true.

[dontmindmine]

Allah baru saja mengingatkanku, bahwa bila mengharap kepada yg selain-Nya, kita pasti akan kecewa

derry karina

[dontmindmine]

Please believe me when i say, Everything i do, I'm gonna think of you. Don't know what else to do. You got me, you got me, baby! Everything i make, I only make for you. Baby be patient for me, and please don't fall in love with someone new! I promise, one day i'll come back to you.

[dontmindmine]

Day by day ends

Without me even knowing when it comes

I live it everyday by doing nothing

So i won't lose anything

Then i realized,

I have lost the biggest thing in my life,

Time.

- Derry Karina

[dontmindmine]

Tercium aroma yang selama ini kucari

Sayang, meski wanginya sama

Namun pemiliknya berbeda

Setidaknya aroma itu,

mampu menghidupkan kembali kenangan

dan rasa yang telah lama hilang

Meski sesaat, kamu kembali lagi, tadi.

- Derry Karina

[dontmindmine]

Kadang aku lebih suka menyendiri, hanya karena aku takut akan merasa sepi, meski aku sedang tidak sendirian.

Derry Karina

[dontmindmine]

If you couldn't make it to be there for me, in my difficult times, or in my saddest day, i don't think that i want to see you in the happiest moment of my life

Derry Karina

[dontmindmine]

Ya, just keep going 😊

I always thought that leaving you is the right thing to do

I always thought that i could be happy without you in my life

Because with you,

I will always be a “hungry” person

I always craving for your time, for your attention

And you will always be “someone on a bicycle”

You never could get down, and come to me

You always have a lot of places to go

and you can’t help it

- Derry Karina

Well, i get it, that you’re busy

But can’t i be the first for once?

Can’t i? I guess i don’t deserve it

So yes, i’m leaving.

So you can keep going

Don’t stop just to look at me

Cause i need you to hug me

Don’t need you to see me

[dontmindmine]

I don't know if i'm sad or not. I don't know if it's wrong or not. All i feel is happier, back to my old self, that i was missing for long. I'm living my life once again. With you not there.

Derry Karina

[dontmindmine]

Maybe, i just envy how he lives his life. He has that many friends around him, that would do anything for him. that would always be there for him, when he’s in need. that would cheer him up when he's sad. But all i have is him, so when he doesn’t here with me, for me. I feel like i lose everything.

Derry Karina