ava

love.

[dreamingangels]

Uranus is electricity, speed, movement. Innovation; the sheer forces behind innovation, the innovation process itself. Complete unpredictability, resourcefulness, experimentation. Scientific genius and creativity you have never seen before. The happy breaking of rules, the demolishing of established, outdated patterns and structures. Radical change. The urge for sudden and needed change. Androgynous energy. Einstein’s children; Elon Musk. Electric, awakening aliens. Limit rejecting sparks. Shocking surprise. Eccentricity that lives only forward; only in the future. They do not understand living in the past. Uncomfortably high frequencies that feel like touching an electric fence to others. The uncomfortableness of change. The healthiness of change. The life saving nature of change. Total unpredictability. The God of the Sky, the Heavens. Freedom, vision, revolutions. Outsiders, people from the future. Rock and Morty. Time travel and space. The maddest of scientists. Enlightenment, progressiveness. Strange and unique novelty. Uranus is something we have never ever seen before. Unusual anarchy. Non-rigidity, unstructured flow. Complete rejection of conditioning and submission. Uranus is the inability to blend in, the refusal to mimic. The allergy to normality and the mundane. Uranus is the yearning for the future. A rush of energy. The beauty and freshness of newness. The power of reform. The mind. Cerebral activity. An almost inhumanness, here to improve the lives of humans. The brightest parts of humanity. Telepathy, insight, autonomy. Independent action, independent thought. The very outskirts of our Galaxy; the venturing into of new territory. The pain of growth spurts. Extreme self-awareness; true awareness of others; transparency. A high level of consciousness. A fairness, a justness. Uranus feels Jupiter is far behind, and still too pompous. Uranus has no need for religion, almost no need for romantic union either. Uranus learned about boundaries a long time ago. Uranus despises violence, as well as deceit. Uranus has absolutely no desire to even prove itself; it already knows it is far ahead and is too focused on that anyway. 

Ava Alexis

[dreamingangels]

Neptune is tear drops and deep breathing and hysteria. Boundary-less and dangerously elevated energy like God, infiniteness, Neptune is the beyond. All that lies beyond the physical, everything that does not encompass the real or rational. She is in a way, almost the complete opposite of Saturn, there is nothing hard about her; besides the life she will most definitely live; subject to what feels like never ending cruel harshness. Neptune is this constantly bruised, aching, longing feeling for home; a chronic emptiness, an unfathomable sadness. A sort of manic depression, the pain of the impoverished artist, a complete back of boundaries and far too high a dose of empathy has left this being truly psychically vulnerable. The craving for oneness is excruciating; like flesh being ripped off a body, or bones being broken one by one. Neptune is sleeping pills, poetry books and candles, magic; the irony of being completely withdrawn due to being so overly connected. Neptune is an angel trying to make its way out of the flesh; trapped inside this material and limited form. She is the nostalgic missing of flight, wings, ecstasy, euphoria and bliss never ending. She is that Divine being ripped away from its warm and cosy heaven, poured mercilessly into a human body. Neptune is vague, and enchanting and mystifying and hypnotic and captivating and foggy. She is lethargic, and weak, vulnerable and devouring. She is deep pain, anxiety but also numbingly powerful intuition. There is something almost sickeningly pure about Neptunian women; they can be standing stark naked in front of you, and somehow it is still impossible to feel lust. How can one lust after something so pure? So innocent? The unconscious urge is to immediately defend or protect such virtue. There is nothing vulgar about her even in all of her shouting, and swearing, and kicking and crying and screaming she is still a deity. She is an entity, a carrier of something Light that this world desperately needs, so pure; no longer just a body or woman or a person. There can be nothing base or animalistic about Neptune, she is Divine. 

The Venusian woman is graceful, and elegant and charming; but still highly sexed; almost too passionate to be clean, she is tainted. She is too red, too pink, too sweet to truly be innocent, but Neptune is as clean as water. Neptune is the return to purity; mystical elevation. Moral purity, purity of the Soul and Heart; true purity; causing her to transcendent this physical world in ways Venus can’t. The love is no longer selfish; or sexed, it is unconditional; like that of a God. She is the mystical longing, the deep mystical longing behind all religious institution. Don’t look into her eyes because you will face God; powerful and hypnotic in the most safe and truthful of ways; the most painful of ways; ways which force you to break down immediately and surrender because you finally can; you are safe now. She is a mirror; she is you facing the darkest and purest parts of yourself, she allows you to have all your fantasies and longings and still loves you completely. She is immediate forgiveness; all compassion and that is often why she is so sick, so wounded, so mentally ill, so drained; so hysterical, she is constantly being projected on by the masses and they almost resent her impossible levels of purity and faithfulness. No amount of abuse will cause her to try and harm you back, which makes you hate her even more; she is Divine. All she longs and aches for is love; the love that she is, the love that she remembers before coming to a sickening and dreadful time and place like this. 

[dreamingangels]

Saturnian women are in a way the opposite to Neptune; they are hard, harsh, practical; realistic, down to earth. Grounded, reliable; relatively straight forward and easy to understand. They make sense. Saturn is far more conventional and traditional than Neptune, and doesn’t want to gravitate towards anything Divine unless they can see, feel or touch it. Saturn needs it to have practical value. Saturnian women are often the most skeptical of Neptunian women in general; they reject their vulnerable, baby-like nature; their overly emotional approach towards life; their hysterical patterns. They see Neptune as a masochist, a sufferer, rather than anything Pure or Angelic. Saturn likes tasks; tasks keep them sane. They like sanity too. They hold onto it very tightly. They guard their acceptable and stable minds quite fiercely, and don’t let anyone in. They don’t like how Neptune lacks boundaries, or discipline, and is constantly complaining about failing to get anything done. Saturn doesn’t delight in absorbing the shock or pain of others, Saturn is cold. Hard working, rather pragmatic and distant. And not distant in the Neptunian way; getting lost in others worlds; distant in the Saturnian way, of being fully immersed in this one; so practical and grounded they practically are the structure within which we all dwell; they are the Masters of the material realm; a realm Neptune is so obviously uncomfortable and lost in. Saturnian’s always seem like they have it all together; sure they’re a little overworked, burned out and stressed, but at least they’re normal right. They set and impose limits. They have an innate respect for time. They are really the only ones truly fully here; in this real world. Not all caught up in love and romance like Venus; not as poetic or philosophical as Jupiter. They don’t really see the value in getting lost in another, in fantasy or trying to transcend reality through narcotics, because they are well aware that reality is right back where you’ll fall; so sooner or later you’ll have to face it. Too much freedom frightens them, they want structure, routine and order; they crave normality; predictability; the mundane. Elastic hair bands, and plates; bills on the kitchen table, milk and fridge magnets. Tea bags and shoes, car keys and the feeling of coins in their hands. They can’t sleep at night knowing they have not completed all their tasks, obligations and responsibilities meanwhile Neptune will do anything to avoid or evade their own. Saturn despises the addict, the slob, the weak, the lazy, and most of all the princess. 

[dreamingangels]

the virgo heart can't stop thinking their mind runs with no off switch in sight it is agonizing for them perhaps that's why they're so smart so sarcastic so cynical from all those years of non-consensual processing understanding picking up patterns making connections connecting the dots for you they're so tired, they're so exhausted please don't ask them things, because I guarantee you they'll have the answer despite not wanting to

[dreamingangels]

the scorpio heart is cold as stone and hard as brick but inside soft, gooey still hot blood warm and running like water from before childhood when everything was still light and pure before it got sore, before it got dark before they realized what a cruel and unsafe place this world can be this world still is the scorpio heart wants to love wants to trust but just no longer can for this world is too selfish and they figured that out long before you could hurt them

[dreamingangels]

the pisces heart; broken the minute your finger tips touch it knows your suffering before you've even said your name hurts for you despite your endless hurting them

forgives before a mistake has even been made unconditional acceptance personified waves and rhythms you can't understand emotionally tuned into the collective web since birth

cannot not be a healer; cannot not be therapeutic this soft, glimmering, angelic curse white and silver, soft purples