drowning in love

a diary even my parents can't read secretly behind my back

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why do I always find myself downloading tumblr back in my phone as soon as he leaves?😢😖

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out of love

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lost SO much potential doing duniyadari.

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19/05/24

should i call him

I think this is more than a sign.

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13-05-24

can someone who loved you a lot for 5 years, leave you suddenly out of nowhere?

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the most majestic living beings.

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step grandmas 9/5/24

They love their grandchildren only from their own offsprings, but not from their partners. Your success over her grandkid's gets her feeling green with envy. She will love and cuddle with her grandkids in front of you but when you try simply even hugging her, she will slightly push you away with an ick. She will treat your mother so horribly in her childhood that your mother will never learn to love her own blood daughter the right way. Your mother will yearn for her mother's love for ever and you for your grandma's. In a series of seeing their own grandma treating you poorly, your step cousins start doing the same, seeing you unworthy of being related to them. Your grandpa will never find her cruelties wrong and turn a blind eye to them as he is madly in love with his 'wife'.

I long for a stable family.

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just a girls day.

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5/5/24 - 21:46 p.m

so tired rn.

[depressed-ravioli]

Even if I die I probably would disappoint someone

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to Dr.J - 5/5/24

Today is when my path of life changes. A possibility of a life I ''could've'' lived gets crossed out. They say if it was meant for me, it would have taken place in my life by hook or by crook. My fear of ''it is too good for me to happen to me'' took over me, leading me to not try for making it happen in the first place at all. I knew I could do it, oh every nerve in my body knew it, I just did not try. I will fail today, but I know today will be the day to a new start too. - goodbye Dr.J I'll always look back and think about the possibility of being you.

song appropriate between me and neet.

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reminder for me to not constantly feel like a disappointment to my parents.

[chemicalcupcake]

artist* yoshimoto nara

[metamorphesque]

Christina's World, Andrew Wyeth

[seasons-in-hell]

Andrew Wyeth

Wind from the Sea (1947)

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PUPARIA (2020) — SHINGO TAMAGAWA

[virtualcoffeemoon]

yall I'm getting into Jack Stuaber pray for me