† god I tried †

my diary 20

[notaviolentdog]

you know i’d dooooanything for youuuuu you know it’s true cause i’ve said it. do youuuuu

held in my arms i swore id be good to you be good to you be good to touuu so i sat and watched as you walked away from me… from meee 😞😞😞

[gingysent]

Only god would believe that I was an angel

@tankhall

This is as good as its getting chat

[easterneuropeandaughterofcain]

I feel like an old dog that needs to be put out of its misery

[easterneuropeandaughterofcain]

I dont think I've known a day without loneliness, but t's so hard to explain this feeling without sounding completely pathethic lol. I was around 10 when I realized that God will not save me and that the only person I can rely on is myself. I have wonderful friends that love me, but I can't bring myself to burden them with my thoughts because they couldn't possibly understand the extent of my misery.

[easterneuropeandaughterofcain]

I'm so beautiful and it's wasted on me </3

[easterneuropeandaughterofcain]

It's been a few days since I quit my meds cold turkey, and I think that this constant state of extreme misery is actually what I need to be creative. I wouldn't call myself an artist by any means, but I see the potential for art in my pain. Perhaps I'm just trying to do some good, making it seem worthwhile.

[corpaseeeeeee]

i wants to be like this sm

[spaceoddity6]

when you stop looking at misandry as a hatred for the innate existence and behavior of men and begin to understand that it’s the hatred for the way society nurtures and rewards horrible behavior in men, ultimately guiding them to be the worst version of themselves in every way, you will stop being angry at feminists for being “man haters”

[easterneuropeandaughterofcain]

I miss you the most when I’m in pain

[sevaria]

Back to Grief

[easterneuropeandaughterofcain]

I would kill myself to hold you one more time </3

[ssertralina]

till death do us part

[deactivated656474756-deactivate]

I genuinely think once you start listening to Ethel Cain you can’t go back. Her music just has a hold of my soul and nothing else even comes close to it. She actually has a spiritual power.

[macabrevampire]

still thinking fondly of people who don't give a shit about me

[witchblades-archive]

[so-many-ocs]

immediately after an interaction: i have GOT to get more normal oh god i need to get more normal immediately i have to get more normal or they're going to hunt me down they're going to hunt me down and flay me for sport

during an interaction: and why not put a little spin on it? why not add some conversational zest?

[easterneuropeandaughterofcain]

I’ve been thinking so much about @sevaria’s post in which she says

,,He can wash me out of his sheets but I cannot wash him off my skin.”

because I’m having a hard time dealing with my ptsd lately and that just makes me feel so seen. I love their art so much. I don’t have a big following and I only post random stuff but they have been one of my favorite artists lately.

[easterneuropeandaughterofcain]

TGI deluxe dropped and I can’t stop gushing about how much I love Halsey. She’s such an incredible artist, her lyricism always hits me so hard… It’s like she looked inside my brain, untangled everything and then put it into a song. These days when I isolate myself I find so much comfort in their music. 🩷