my ed journal

im a sick person, so don't take anything serious what i say, i DO NOT motivate ppl become anorexic and not promoting my disease. I just needed a place to write about it.

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Personal

Lost 14 pounds in a week bc of fasting and i just measured my waist, which is 57cm so i can see the progress.

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Day 5.

Almost died last night so i tried to eat but the stomach acid destroyed my mouth so im unable to chew and swallow. But I drank one coffee w/ light rice milk.

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Day 4

I drank a bottle of wine alone and threw up 7 times so basically I'm dead. And yeah I'm still fasting.

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Day 2

I'm doing the abc diet now, it's day four and i've been fasting for 3 days. This morning I wanted to grab a coffee but felt extremely dizzy when i went out to the kitchen and i had to throw up but i sat down which helped. I also drank about 2 litres of water today.

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Personal

Last night I was stoned and after 2 days of fasting I ate boiled vegetables with ketchup. After eating them I felt guilty and threw up until my vomit became stomach acid. Now I'm empty again and not just mentally. I'm basically living on sugarfree red bulls and coffee. I used to be skinnier last summer when i was about 48-49 kgs to 176 cm, now I'm about 56 so I'm committed to change.

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Day 1.

I've been sick for almost 4 years. My sickness includes anorexia with bulimic tendencies, bipolar depression, dissociative identity disorder and i'm also suicidal. I created this blog to write about my experiences.