Last week my brain was in the gutter. It was a difficult week for sure. Emotional, overthinking, and a tug of war with depression. One thing that bothers you turns into another thing and the list can grow and grow.
Why didn't you talk about it?
Because sometimes there isn't anything anyone can say or do and truthfully, most times, people are uncomfortable and have no clue what to say or do and that's ok. I'm not typically one to talk about things like that. I just feel what I feel until it passes and then I'm good.
This isn't always a cheery time of year for everyone. It brings up memories of a different time, sometimes a better time. It reminds us of loved ones that are no longer here and are missed tremendously. But sometimes it can be hard and cheery all at the same time 🤷♀️
That's when I realized, for me, that last Thursday it was 13 years since my 25 yr old brother passed away unexpectedly. Which in turn means that on Christmas Eve this year will be 13 years since my dad passed away unexpectedly. For some reason, this year it hit me harder than the previous ones. I also know that grieving and depression doesn't typically have a rhyme or reason. It just is.
We can be perfectly fine one day and want to crawl in a hole the very next. Sometimes it's easier for us to withdrawal from everyone and everything until we get our brains back.
Today I am ok. This week seems brighter and not as gloomy. I'm in a better place.
#areyouready #itssunday #happymorning #mindsetmatters #movingforward #depression #itgetsbetter #onefootinfrontoftheother
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