toying somewhere between love and abuse

Eli | 28 | Slave "The only way to deal with an unfree world is to become so absolutely free that your very existence is an act of rebellion." —Albert Camus tracking: elidavenport RPG | EST | NSFW

[leogilles-deactivated20200723]

Leo sighed, shrugging a little. “Okay, tough guy, if you’re asking for it. It isn’t gonna be pretty and you might black out,” he warned, pushing back on the slave’s good shoulder. “You need to lay down and put your arm out, ninety degrees from your chest. And then I’m gonna pull. Got it?”

[elidavenport]

Eli put on a tight smile. “Yeah. It’s gonna suck. We all know that.” He closed his eyes for a moment, fumbling through his mind for anything to distract him from the boatload of pain he was about to feel. This was one of those things he’d rather be drunk for, but no dice. Not looking to stall, he lay back and stretched his arm out slowly, winching all the way through until it was in the right position. “All right. Just do it already. Before I change my fucking mind.”

[mister-mcshane-deactivated20170]

Theo’s smile fell away slowly as the other explained, his brow furrowing. The boy pulled his hand away, cocking his head at Eli. “So….you actually want me to rent you?” Theo asked, not really understanding. The other wanted to kiss him? He wants him to ask for something but he doesnt trust him? Theo was confused.

[elidavenport]

“Maybe I do,” Eli admitted with a shrug. “I know it sounds confusing. I’m just used to rolling with the punches. But with you… with you there are no punches to roll with. You’re so gentle, and… Most masters are assholes, you know? They’re just out to step all over you, make you feel like shit—as if being stuck in here doesn’t do that already… But you’re not like that. So yeah. I think that makes me want you a little. Is that odd?”

[leogilles-deactivated20200723]

Leo hummed in thought at the question, assessing Eli’s shoulder again, fingers skimming lightly over the bones to check for fractures though he knew he wouldn’t be able to feel them. “Here’s the deal… If it’s dislocated, I can pop it back in. But if it’s actually a fractured bone and I try to pop it back in, there’s a chance we’ll literally see half your bone coming out of your skin. So it’s a risk,” he shrugged.

[elidavenport]

“Dude, if it’s broken, it’s broken,” he countered with a shrug of his shoulders. “There’s nothing you can do about it and it’s gonna have to be dealt with anyway, so I might as well know now. That way at least we can both move on from this pointless touching that isn’t really getting us anywhere. So just do it. If it’s broken I’ll just deal with it.” He took a deep breath, steeling himself for the bout of pain that was about to come his way regardless.

[mister-mcshane-deactivated20170]

Theo smiled gently at Eli, reaching out and patting his hand. “Its ok…just know you are safe with me ok?” Theo replied with a dip of his head. “Your a good person, so I hope one day you can trust me fully.” 

[elidavenport]

“I’m getting there…” Eli’s gaze fell to his lap. Once again he found himself in deep thought. “You know… Usually when one of you guys comes looking for me, it’s because you want something… But you, you never ask for anything… It’s a bit confusing because I keep waiting… Sometimes I think I want you to… Sometimes I think I wanna kiss you… But I’m afraid that if I do that, you’ll take it badly. It’s funny because normally I don’t give a fuck.”

[thexjackal-blog]

“So you’re willing to break rules and try not to get caught? You have to be the only slave i’ve met willing to fucking try.” he said with a smirk “I thought they were all cowards, but now I’ve met you, i feel better.” James already presumed the trick was showing how valuable you could be and getting the brothers to like you, then pushing the boundaries, so he was working on that.

“Oh, it’s not charming, not in the slightest, but it’s real, and i can deal with that.”

[elidavenport]

“Something like that, yeah…” Eli shrugged his shoulder and put on a smile. He wouldn’t quite call it ‘being willing’ to do it, though. He didn’t operate with a specific objective in mind; not beyond whatever he wanted in the moment. Mostly he did it because he needed to prove to himself that he could, because he had to be sure that this place hadn’t broken him yet. “I wouldn’t call them cowards, man. Merely tragically aware of their limitations.”

[leogilles-deactivated20200723]

“We all do, don’t we?” Leo mused, though he was focused on his examination still. At the sudden change in the man’s behavior he pulled his hand back immediately, scared that the pain had been just over too much and he would pass out or puke or any other reaction alike. “A little? Really? I thought I lost you for a second,” he couldn’t help a chuckle. “You need to get this checked, I think it’s dislocated. I’m sorry about that, but you kinda asked for it.”

[elidavenport]

“Oh shut up…” Eli rolled his eyes and settled back, struggling with the urge to roll his shoulder just to see how much pain he was actually in. He could still move his arm, but it did shoot small stabs of pain all over his left side whenever he did it, so he was gonna have to be careful with it for a few days. At the very least that should earn him a few days of well-deserved rest—that was the silver lining. “Think you can pop it back in? Just to get it over with…” He wasn’t a fan of feeling useless, and it was going to hurt anyway.

[mister-mcshane-deactivated20170]

Theo’s brow furrowed as he listened to the other, his eyes flickering over the other’s face as he took in what he said. “….I just want you to be ok.” Theo replied honestly, offering a small smile. “I dont need anything from you and if I ever ask you have the choice to turn it down.”

[elidavenport]

“I can see that…” Eli pursed his lips, deep in thought for a long moment. This whole situation was so unlike anything he had grown used to expecting at the tower that it made him feel unsettled. “I’m not very good at trusting others, in case you haven’t noticed.” He smiled wryly for a moment, and then added: “I’m trying with you, though.”

[wyattsvirus]

Midnight trysts // Wyatt + open

[wyattsvirus]

There was satisfaction to be had when a partner was very giving; the way that Eli left no parts out of the stimulation and was able to keep everything going at once was beautifully sinful. Wyatt’s hips rocked back and forth, sliding himself into Eli’s cock and then right back down onto the finger inside of him; moaning each time his rut came to a stop. It was hard to think, his lips wrapped up on Eli’s, his cock wedged between their bodies and Eli’s finger working sweet magic on his prostate; He had to give it to Eli, the man had a great talent. The second finger surprise was welcomed easily, Wyatt pushing back on it; though he gasped into Eli’s mouth at the sudden fuller feeling of the two digits inside of him. He swore Eli’s didn’t have that big of hands, but god the man felt like he was a giant inside of him; the friction of the fingers against his tight channel absolutely destroying him. The moans bubbling up from within were now growing in loudness, his body arching in to the touch and still his hips rutting forward. This could have been heaven, though Wyatt was certainly finding himself on cloud nine while Eli rained hell over his prostate.

[elidavenport]

A big smile painted over his lips, Eli strove to maintain some semblance of a pace, at least a small measure of control over Wyatt, who in contrast seemed all but ready to fall apart. Oh, how Eli wanted to see that, and he was sure he’d get to in a few minutes; but before that happened he had to make sure Wyatt was ready for him, physically at least. His mind was already half-past gone, so he did not expect him to stay coherent for much longer, but his asshole was still so damn tight, and while Eli would certain enjoy having his dick wedged between those cheeks, buried balls-deep inside his hole, he wasn’t such a selfish lover than he wouldn’t care whether Wyatt got nothing but pain in return. He wanted well-stretch so that he could end the night well-fucked, and he was getting there, but he needed a bit more loosening. So, once again and this time without warning, Eli added a third and final finger to the not-so-gentle prodding. This would feel uncomfortable, no doubt, at least at first; but Wyatt, Eli decided, was a big boy and could deal with it.

[leogilles-deactivated20200723]

Leo refrained from a second eye roll, catching the man’s wince as he tried to move an arm. He sighed and fixed the other a warning glare before starting to poke through his left shoulder. “You’re tough, you’re not unbreakable, I’m sure,” he murmured, distracted as his fingers inspected bones and muscles carefully. “I honestly think your clavicle is fucked up. Does this hurt?” He pointedly squeezed the slave’s shoulder.

[elidavenport]

“I sure fucking wish I was, though,” Eli protested as the guy resumed his minute prodding. This time the touches actually made his face tense; each one brought him some measure of pain, sometimes more, sometimes less. Then he squeezed his shoulder and for a second Eli felt himself blacking out. That single pressure had sent a shock of blinding pain through his body and that he didn’t scream from it was something of a miracle. “Shit—okay… maybe a little bit.”

[mister-mcshane-deactivated20170]

Theo offered the other a small sheepish smile, giggling softly. The boy nodded, quickly moving to get an ice pack. Theo offered it to the other. “I dont wanna force you at all, Eli.” Theo replied honestly. “I just wanted to help.”

[elidavenport]

“I know,” he said. “I just don’t get it yet… Thanks.” He grabbed the ice pack and pressed it under his chest, on the right side of his ribcage. That was where the kick had landed. “You don’t have to do this… There’s doctors and nurses that can fuss over me. But you’re here instead… I just don’t get it… I keep waiting for you to ask for something out of me, but… you never do, and that confuses me,” he admitted with a small shrug.

[wyattsvirus]

The words brought forth a short chuckle, Wyatt not fazed by them but made a mental note to give the other a bit before letting an insult pass his lips again. Though he did feel the burn of embarrassment roll up to his ears, unable to stop it as if they probably weren’t having sex or going to he’d probably of not said such a thing to Eli. A sharp tug started it all; Eli’s hips bucking forward and just like that, he’d started to plow into Wyatt’s throat. Allowing his throat to relax to take the thick length, Wyatt’s tongue slithered along the bottom of the girth when Eli pushed back down into him. He’d admit, the man tasted delicious in his mouth and the rhythm he’d built up was slowly bringing tears of exertion to Wyatt’s eye. Moans grew from deep within Wyatt as Eli fed his cock to him; the vibrations only adding to Eli’s pleasure inside his wet heat.

[elidavenport]

This was the part of Eli that Eli didn’t like; the part he hadn’t really felt until he had come to the tower that still struggling to come to terms with. He was an asshole twenty-four-seven in here because he had to be to get by, but he was supposed to be kinder than this. He wasn’t supposed to get off on choking Wyatt with his dick, on thrusting into his mouth with almost complete abandon, on watching the first few rivulets run down his cheeks while he tried to maintain some semblance of a steady breath. But as it all happened, Eli couldn’t help but smile darkly, fully enjoying every second of it. And despite the roughness, Wyatt seemed to be enjoying it, too, moaning around his cock all throughout and running his tongue hungrily along his underside. Fuck, it felt good, and though Eli should feel guilty about it, he just couldn’t this time.

[leogilles-deactivated20200723]

Leo allowed himself to roll his eyes at the slave’s attitude. “You wouldn’t know if something was out of place, until the moment you did some exercise and suddenly you had a rib poking into your lungs. So just keep your mouth shut and accept the exams,” he sighed, retrieving his hands anyway when they didn’t find anything out of ordinary. “I’m just trying to help. Cut the crap.”

[elidavenport]

“Yeah, okay, Doc, whatever you say,” Eli retorted without missing a beat. He tried moving his left arm and grimaced. Something was definitely sensitive on that side, but it didn’t hurt that badly, at least for his tolerance, which was fairly high to begin with. “You need to fucking loosen up, man. I’m the one who got kicked and yet you’re the one acting all high-strung about it… I’m tough, I’ll be fine.”

[mister-mcshane-deactivated20170]

Theo let go of the other, brow still furrowed and looking worried at the man. Theo bit his lip, nodding softly. “Ok…” Theo replied, stepping away from the other and watching him a little bit. “Can you at least put ice on it?”

[elidavenport]

“Okay... Try not to look so much like I just punted you in the nutsack, though,” he teased. “It’s not that I don’t appreciate it, like I said... I just don’t need to be babied. I’m a big fucking boy in case you haven’t noticed.” A small smile passed through Eli’s lips. “You wanna do it?”

[elidavenport]

Circumcised or uncircumcised?

“I’m cut, bro. Not that I really give a damn either way, I don’t really see the difference. Though I’ve heard it makes it better to beat off when you’re uncut.”

[elidavenport]

leogilles:

Leo huffed out a sigh at Eli’s comment, fingers still pressing around on the man’s ribs carefully. He was far from being a doctor or nurse, but he had broken enough bones (on himself or other people) to know what felt wrong. “You didn’t take a bullet, but a blow like this could’ve made you break a rib or move something out of place,” he half-scolded. 

Eli gave the guy a long look. “… If I’d broken a rib, I wouldn’t be talking. I wouldn’t be doing anything because just breathing would hurt like a motherfucker. And if anything got ‘moved out of place’, well, there’s no way to know that unless you have an MRI scanner in your back pocket… But seeing as I’m not lying on the floor screaming, I’m going to guess I’m fine. Keep going, though. I like a guy who’s not afraid to get personal with my body.” He smirked and gave him a wink.

[wyattsvirus]

Midnight trysts // Wyatt + open

[wyattsvirus]

The exchange after the stray finger found it’s mark was hot to say the least; Eli making the most of the moment; nipping at his lip and going in for the kill. At that point Wyatt resigned trying to fight Eli’s tongue; giving into it’s will as he let the other have that one well he adjusted himself for the other to continue fingering him. Sure enough the boy’s finger found it’s way back to him; this time not having to be so sneaky as it pressed into him, sinking up to the first knuckle. The first bit of stretching was always one of the things Wyatt loved the most; it was great because he did his kegles to keep himself healthy but also tight. The second knuckle happened and then the satisfying hook that probed and prodded at him, stretching him slightly but also beginning to his all the right places. A moan from deep in his chest pushed out of him, disappearing into Eli; Wyatt’s pleasure and satisfaction was evident. The only thing he did that maybe it more noticeable was when Wyatt pressed back on the hand to get more of Eli inside of him; a slight shudder as he found the spot he’d hoped to find. 

[elidavenport]

Eager little shit. Eli couldn’t help but smile as he kissed Wyatt, swallowing every sound that fell from his mouth as he pushed his finger further in. He could feel each muscle contracting around his digit, twitching at even the lightest touch, and with it came a flurry of whimpers and a deeper moan that Eli ate up. Before long Wyatt himself was pushing back into the finger, driving it deeper, inviting him in; Eli knew what he was searching for, and he found it fast, announced with a breathless sound that left Wyatt’s quivering lips. He didn’t press hard against the gland because that was how assholes did it, and that would only be painful, but he did run his finger back and forth over the lump of Wyatt’s prostate several times, knowing it would all but make him cry. Fuck, if he tried hard enough it could even make him cum just like this. But where would be the fun in that? He smirked and rubbed again, pulling his finger back and shoving in several times, all the while grinding his erection against Wyatt’s own. “You ready for another?” he said, voice shallow and thick, and before getting an answer, he added in a second finger to the first and pushed.

[wyattsvirus]

There was a satisfaction in hearing a confident but impatient man curse because he more than likely short wired him by his swallowing him down so suddenly. The grip that immediately tightened in his hair, was the way Wyatt knew he’d gotten Eli’s attention; that he’d gotten the point across that all was fair in love in war. He held his self at the base of Eli’s cock for a few moments before releasing the man and smiling. “Fuck my face you idiot; I want a little preview.” He teased Eli, opening his mouth for the other and placing the mast just on his lips so that if the man wanted more he’d have to do as asked. It was oddly satisfying to give something intense to another person and with hold it to see how they react; Wyatt was most definitely excited for how Eli handled the pause in pleasure. 

[elidavenport]

“You’re really starting to push it with the backtalk,” he warned, looking down at Wyatt as his upper lip curled upward. His eyes darkened just a little bit and his grip on Wyatt’s tightened some more. He was still aroused, and he was still going to fuck Wyatt in the end no matter what; but his temper was getting closer to flaring up, and as much as he liked things rough, Eli wasn’t one for anger issues. Still, he had to admit that he did want this, and he was tired of pussyfooting around Wyatt, so Eli took a deep breath and pulled hard on his hair, forcing Wyatt’s face to himself while bucking his hips to meet it halfway, shoving himself deep into his throat and then pulling back fast to do it again, harsher pace this second time, and again, and again, until he’d built up a fast but steady rhythm.