Isolation

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What’s me without you..

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Felix was a heavy sleeper. Once he was asleep it was hard to wake him up. As he softly snores his dreams away he turns to the left as he becomes deeper and deeper into slumber. Felix had been so happy lately. His mental issues had been better and he had been less sadistic.

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He slides into the bed and lifts the older boy’s arm up to slide under it and cuddles the other while laying his head against Felix’s chest. He starts to fall asleep lulled to sleep by the other’s heartbeat. Ellijah is softly snoring against the his chest in minutes.

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What’s me without you..

Ellijah tried to be quiet as he snuck through the halls, it was the middle of the night and he was supposed to asleep but the thing was he couldn’t. It was simply because he missed his boyfriend. He still felt giddy thinking about it. He gets to Felix’s room and tries to quietly sneak into his bed without waking the older boy up.

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Don't leave me in the dark just yet

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“I can’t believe I get to call you mine. It’s you and me against the world.” Felix said, as he placed another gentle kiss on the other boys lips. This was making Felix so incredibly happy. He almost was second guessing everything else in his life and wished that he met Elijah sooner.

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He smiles as the older presses their lips together again, he feels an extreme amount of happiness at the fact he gets to call Felix his. He feels so many happy emotions towards the older boy that he isn’t sure how to handle it, he hadn’t been this happy in a very long time. He starts to feel his eyes tear up With happy tears and starts to let his fall as he kisses the other boy with as much passion as he can muster.

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Don't leave me in the dark just yet

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The way the younger boy said the older boys name made him have butterflies in his stomach. As he rested his face within his chest he let him snuggle inside of him. He was so happy to have him in his life. “Would you do the honor of being my boyfriend Elijah?” He whispered quietly.

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Ellijah tenses up for a second then immediately starts to nod his head eagerly to answer the older’s question. He feels his chest swell up with happiness and hugs the other as close as he can for a minute then looks up at him as he smiles sweetly at him then leans up and kisses Felix passionately on the lips.

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As the younger boy nodded his head in response a surge of excitement revved up inside of him. He now gets to call Elijah his boyfriend. Felix had never really had a boyfriend before. This was so new to him. As Felix felt Elijah’s lips onto his he kissed him back eagerly and with just as much passion. He wrapped his arms around the boys neck pulling him closer to his body.

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Ellijah wraps his arms around Felix’s waist as he felt the older’s go around his neck. He so happy he gets to call Felix his boyfriend, his first boyfriend and its some one he cares so much about he can only hope that the other feels the same as he does.

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Don't leave me in the dark just yet

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The way the younger boy said the older boys name made him have butterflies in his stomach. As he rested his face within his chest he let him snuggle inside of him. He was so happy to have him in his life. “Would you do the honor of being my boyfriend Elijah?” He whispered quietly.

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Ellijah tenses up for a second then immediately starts to nod his head eagerly to answer the older’s question. He feels his chest swell up with happiness and hugs the other as close as he can for a minute then looks up at him as he smiles sweetly at him then leans up and kisses Felix passionately on the lips.

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“Didn’t anyone ever tell you it’s rude to wake up someone when they’re asleep?”

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"Yes, but I was lonely in my room so scoot over so I can sleep in here." Ellijah replies softly as he crawls into bed then curls up into Felix's side and lays his head on the older's chest.

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Don't leave me in the dark just yet

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He kissed the younger boy as he touched his cheek softly rubbing his thumb gracefully reluctantly pulling back. “You Elijah are slowly but surely becoming the center of my universe.” Felix whispered adoringly so.

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He lefts a small sweet smile grace his face as he leans into the older boy’s hand. “I’m starting to feel the same Felix..” he shyly whispers back. Then he wraps his arms around the other’s waist and buries his face into his chest as he soaks in his warmth.

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Don't leave me in the dark just yet

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“See it’s all okay.” Felix said. “Breath in and out. Deep breaths. Come here.” He said, as he pulled the younger boy in for a hug. The hug was nice and gentle. After a few seconds of hugging he pulled away and gave Elijah a nice soft kiss on his lips.

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Ellijah lets out a small hum while grabbing the older boy’s shirt to keep him close though the kiss. He finally calms down as soon as he feels those full lips he’s slowly becoming addicted to press against his and all he can think about is how he could stand there forever with Felix’s lips against his.

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Don't leave me in the dark just yet

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Felix knew a panic attack about to happen when he saw one. He walked over to the younger boy as he rested a hand upon his shoulder. “Hey, it’s okay. Take it easy. I’m not saying I don’t want to be with you. I just can’t be all touchy feely around other people. I know it sounds like I’m afraid of being who I am but that’s not the case. I just hate when I feel like people are staring at me. But everything is okay love, believe me.”

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He starts to calm down once he feels the older boy’s hand on him and listens to his words. ‘Okay Felix is still here, he said everything is okay..’ he thinks as he cautiously reaches up and runs his hand over the other’s on his shoulder. He takes a deep breath then looks up at Felix shyly under his eyelashes and quietly replies, “I do..”

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Don't leave me in the dark just yet

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Felix felt a little bit bad about how he snapped at the younger boy but he felt his blood boil at the sudden touch with the other people’s eyes on them. Felix decided to just go with an apple for lunch today he lost his appetite all of a sudden. He made his way towards Elijah as he used his fingers to gesture him to follow him while taking a bite out of the Apple making a gigantic crunch sound. Felix ended up walking them over to where the library was. Nobody would be there this time of the day everyone would be in the lunch room. He breathed silently in and out before he spoke, “I’m sorry for back there. I just don’t do PDA.” He stated simply.

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Ellijah lets out a depth breath trying to calm down, he starts to scratch at his arms as the breathing didn’t help. “It’s okay, it was my fault I was just being stupid, I shouldn’t have touched you like that..” he replies as he keeps scratching but it isn’t helping and his chest starts to feel tight as he waits for Felix to tell him doesn’t want to try this anymore because he doesn’t think this can go another way.

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What makes you character tick?

Elllijah suffers from anxiety this cause's him not not trust people too much. He’ll come off as a bit of a stand-offish dick but thats only him putting up his defenses, he doesn’t let people in and usually keeps them at an arm’s length away. He overthinks social situations like someone just coming up to say ‘hi’ he thinks that they’re after something and will just ditch him when they’ve gotten it. This causes him not be able to make or keep friends very easily and he stays pretty isolated because of it. If he does make a connection to someone he’s constantly worried that they’re just going to leave and think that he isn’t useful.

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Don't leave me in the dark just yet

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“I’m not a fan of PDA.” Felix could feel eyes on him and it was making his skin crawl. “If you want I can take my lunch and we could find a quiet place to sit in the court yard. Just not in here. Too many eyes.” Irritation flowed within his body.

Originally posted by andybiersack-daily

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“Umm okay...” Ellijah says quietly as he starts to mess with his bandage. He slowly backs away and goes to stand by the door to wait on Felix. As he waits he mentally berates himself for acting so stupid and starts to quietly freak out about how Felix isn’t going to want to be around him anymore. He forgets to grab food for lunch in his panic.

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Don't leave me in the dark just yet

The day had gone as planned he had his therapy session with Dr. Scott earlier that morning. He hadn’t seen Elijah which made him a bit sad but he might see him in the lunch room with all the other patients. As he was in line he kept thinking about the time that him and Elijah shared their kiss. It was sweet. So sweet that when Elijah had to depart it left a bitterness in Felix’s stomach. A bitterness of him leaving. The older boy was already beginning to be territorial over him. Wishing he could be around him all the time. When he knew he needed to simmer down a bit. They had only known each other for a short amount of time. It’s just with Felix he didn’t trust a lot of people easily and when he did he never took it for granted. Ever.

As he was making his way down the line he felt a pair of hands rubbing his shoulders. He felt prickles go up and down his spine. He spun around quickly as he noticed that it was Elijah some part of him was relieved but the other part of him was fumed with anger. “Please get your arms off of me. We can’t do this here.” Felix tried to calm down because he really didn’t want to hurt Elijah. He kept feeling a bunch of eyes on him and r was making him panic and go into a frenzy.

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Ellijah looked at Felix a little shocked and hurt. “I’m sorry, I didn’t think it was a big deal..” He stuttered out and quickly looked down and hugged himself. He had just gotten done with his therapy session earlier and was excited to find Felix. When he found him he was so excited, he felt like he hadn’t him seen in forever, his therapy session had put him in a good mood and he just wanted to talk to the older boy about it. He guesses he was a little too enthusiastic about it..

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Felix smiles softly as his eyes glisten while the other boy runs his fingers through his hair. “I’m glad we hit off. Really. I hope this can maybe turn into something more eventually. If you want it to. I know these things they take time and I get that.”

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Ellijah smiles a little bigger at him then gets up out of the windowsill and stands in front of the older boy. He leans in close and playfully says with a smirk on his face, “I think I remember someone saying they don’t like it when people say no, so I guess I’ll say let’s go with it.” He leans in and kisses the older boy on the cheek then pulls back with a light blush on his face, “I’ll see you later Felix, I have an session with Dr. Lee soon.” He turns around and starts to walk away with a small smile on his face.

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“I’m glad someone gets it. Most of the time I feel like I’m going crazy. It can get so unbearably loud. I don’t mean to hurt people. Something in me just snaps. I can’t explain it.” He said, noticing that the younger boy scooted closer.

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“I believe you” he softly replies as he runs his fingers over the back of the other boy’s hand. He thinks about how different Felix is than his assumption of him was, all he wants to do in that moment is comfort him. He musters up the courage and turns slightly towards the him and reaches up and runs a hand through the older boys hair, offering him what he hopes is a comforting smile.

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 Janet adjusted herself in her chair, eyes closing while giving a big thoughtful nod.  ❝ Exx–actly. ❞ Grinning ear to ear while folding her arms over her desk,  ❝  So you recognize that I’m here to help you, I’m very glad to hear that, thank you, Mr.Clark. ❞

       Hands folding over one another while giving a big exhale,  ❝ Well let’s start, then. Shall we?  ❞ chin dipping.  ❝ Experience so far, how do you feel the institute has affected you in all honesty? ❞

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Ellijah just gives a small shrug. “I guess its been okay, I use it have an anxiety attack almost every week at home but I’ve only had one since I’ve gotten here and it wasn’t even a full blown one” he replies picking at his bandage.

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“Sorry… Sometimes I get a little impatient. I hear a ticking noise in my brain that won’t stop unless the situation is controlled.” He admitted. Typically Felix would never admit to any of this to anyone because to him it was private matters of his brain but he didn’t want the other to fear him. Yes he portrayed an image to a lot of other people but when it came to people he formed connections with it was a totally different act. As the younger boy brushed his fingers up against his cheek he closed his eyes gently and then opened them again.

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Ellijah lets a soft smile grace his face then slowly uncurls himself. “I understand that a little.. I get this headache and this like nagging whirl in the back of my head when I stress myself out by overthinking.” He softly shares with Felix and he shyly scoots so he’s sitting right beside him then leans his back on the window giving Felix his full attention.