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Tteokbokki with gochujang, mozarella, cabbage, and jammy eggs

Tofu stir fry with sweet peppers, cilantro, ginger, and gooseberry sauce

Crispy dill rice and runny eggs with feta, lemon, olives, lima beans, and peppers

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I’m having my psychiatric video appointment in 40 minutes. I feel weird about this because I made these appointments when I was really down in the dumps and I thought a magic meth pill would make me feel better regardless of whether I “needed” it or not. I felt resentment towards people who seem like they are cheating at life by taking legal speed. Part of me thinks adhd is not real, it’s just a symptom of modern day society. Or maybe I’m just worried that I’ve had it all along… or worse, I’m being a bad person by lying about having it. I don’t know. I think my intuition is telling me that I have it to a degree but when I talk to people about it everyone seems to be in the same boat, that they may have it but its not enough to make it worth pursuing medication. No one seems offended that I want to get medication, at least not to my face.

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I really don’t like the things I said in this post. I’ve changed my tune. I do not have adhd severe enough to warrant medication and I have really great friends who gave me the benefit of the doubt. I do know people who would thrive if given proper medication. I think when I made this post I wasn’t eating enough and hating myself for being too tired and hangry to get anything done. I was told by a therapist a long time ago that if I were serious about losing weight I would just find a way to get adhd medication. That’s really what this comes down to, and the thought of using drugs to “cheat” at life is just a projection because I can’t stand that I’m not as perfect as I want to be. There are no short cuts in life.

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I really love how Hannibal Lecter drew this after hearing her most unhappy childhood memory. So twisted and beautiful.

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I’m having my psychiatric video appointment in 40 minutes. I feel weird about this because I made these appointments when I was really down in the dumps and I thought a magic meth pill would make me feel better regardless of whether I “needed” it or not. I felt resentment towards people who seem like they are cheating at life by taking legal speed. Part of me thinks adhd is not real, it’s just a symptom of modern day society. Or maybe I’m just worried that I’ve had it all along… or worse, I’m being a bad person by lying about having it. I don’t know. I think my intuition is telling me that I have it to a degree but when I talk to people about it everyone seems to be in the same boat, that they may have it but its not enough to make it worth pursuing medication. No one seems offended that I want to get medication, at least not to my face.

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Frog Legs are really good it turns out. While “fishy chicken” is accurate, it does not do it justice.

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WEED’D

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“LOVE IS CALLING,” 2013. Photo by Mel Taing.

Yayoi Kusama’s Dreamy Polka-Dot Exhibition Opens in Miami

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Saltburn (2023) dir. Emerald Fennell

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emma stone in poor things dir. yorgos lanthimos

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I just saw Poor Things. Emma Stone is a walking pun on infantilized women. Absolutely wild movie.

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I found a mushroom dispensary ad. I looked it up and it said you have to join their church to make a purchase. PSILOCYBIN CULT LETS GOOOO

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Issues with vanity is like going into a cocoon to try and form yourself into a butterfly, but you get trapped in there never feeling ready enough to exit, and you start to fear and resent the world outside because you think it’s just as vain and hostile as you are to yourself.

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The holiday party with coworkers was wild. Never been hit on by a girl that hot and cool before. Confusing.

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Love this

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The organs of an organ