Tired of real life

21 year old agender, asexual + cupioromantic I started writing fanfics Rocket Raccoon yumeshiper (a big simp of him) I draw m OCS and post silly stuff about my life active randomly cuz I'm still figuring this stinky thing called life 😔

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💭 F/O who is your biggest supporter and loves to see you thriving

F/O who cheers you and celebrates no matter how small the accomplishment, making sure to show you just how appreciated and proud they are. Could be a dinner, could be a date night, or perhaps even a small gift!

F/O who always takes interest in your hobbies and likes, no matter how childish you may deem them to be. They never think they’re childish or small, rather one piece of the masterpiece known as you. They always ask questions and like seeing your progress on your projects, always first in line for an update

F/O who always shows up for you to support you, no matter what.

F/O who loves you and loves to see you grow each and everyday as a person. Loves to see your horizons broaden and world expand, loves to see you experience new things and find out who you are.

F/O who will always be there for you, no matter what ❤️

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Other merch of my F/o which I haven't shown here! I wanted to make a tik tok video but I was too lazy...I still want to make it but I may make it during my vacation next month...I'll also work on my drawings more!

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I finally got more stuff into my Rocket Raccoon collection omg! More merch of my F/o makes me way too happy 😭

I always check vinted daily cuz that's where I find all of my treasures! I want to buy another plush asap and some official cards. Like yeah they're not cheap but still. I also want to get the other comics but mainly second hand as well and I want to print more photos of him to put on my wall...my obsession is horrendous-

I wish I could play all games he's in...I can only play some mobile games but still. It's better than nothing! So can't complain and I'll enjoy what I have so far in my life.

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I hate when people don't mind their own business and don't ask someone before doing smt or deciding they want to do something with their stuff (partial vent?)

I had recently moved out and I am trying to work on my apartment to make it as comfortable for me since most of my life was shitty as hell and I never got to live in my own space. I bought this very nice shelf from Lidl which I am obsessed with and earlier this week my mom told me that the roommate which lives with her sill and who I used to live with as well is willing to drill some holes in my wall so I can finally have shelves BUT NO. He randomly had decided that he will cut out some fucking planks for my shelf which doesn't has sides and wiggles a little bit if you move with it but which furniture doesn't do that?!?

So yeah I kept telling her how I don't want that and how I had never agreed on that and told her that next time they want to do anything in the apartment for which I PAY THE RENT and work on the stuff WHICH I PAYED FROM MY HARD EARNED MONEY to tell me before hand because this is the first time I finally free as a neurodivergent person who finally got out from a place where I was slowly feeling more and more crayzy and which made me realize that my mental health is even more horrible than I could ever think about since the only think I ever thought about when i lived with them was to just survive another day(Not to mention that as someone with diagnosed ADHD I HATE when soething like this happens because it ruins my day entirely and I cant stop thinking about it because its something I never agreed on and after situations like this i feel shitty as hell and NOTHING HELPS). Not to mention that she told me to just say yes since he then would be mad and he wanted to feel like he helped me WHICH IS NOT MY PROBLEM.

To sum this up. IF SOMEONE TELLS YOU THAT THEY DONT WANT YOUR IDEA IN THEIR FLAT THEN SHUT UP AND LET THEM CHOOSE WHAT THEY WANT. IDC IF IM RUDE BUT AS SOMEONE WHO FINALLY GOT THEIR HOPE TO LIVE BACK I AINT LETTING SOMEONE RUIN MY SAVESPACE!!!!!!

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The shelf in question. Like I'm sorry not sorry but it will be ugly as fuck with the planks.

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FINALLY POSTED A ROUGH CHAPTER TWO!!!!

It has a tiny bit over 2k words and I am so happy about finally working on fanfics after such a long time. I will work on editing grammar mistakes and polishing some parts to make them more readable but I AM SO HAPPY THAT I FINALLY DID SOMETHING!

Also yeah the next chapters of my original work will be postponed until I'll start to feel better...I may or may not finally get a therapist...a very needed thing sine the last time I had talked to one was like 2 years ago when I was in high school and my teacher had reccomended her to me-

THATS ALL BYE

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I hate when people don't mind their own business and don't ask someone before doing smt or deciding they want to do something with their stuff (partial vent?)

I had recently moved out and I am trying to work on my apartment to make it as comfortable for me since most of my life was shitty as hell and I never got to live in my own space. I bought this very nice shelf from Lidl which I am obsessed with and earlier this week my mom told me that the roommate which lives with her sill and who I used to live with as well is willing to drill some holes in my wall so I can finally have shelves BUT NO. He randomly had decided that he will cut out some fucking planks for my shelf which doesn't has sides and wiggles a little bit if you move with it but which furniture doesn't do that?!?

So yeah I kept telling her how I don't want that and how I had never agreed on that and told her that next time they want to do anything in the apartment for which I PAY THE RENT and work on the stuff WHICH I PAYED FROM MY HARD EARNED MONEY to tell me before hand because this is the first time I finally free as a neurodivergent person who finally got out from a place where I was slowly feeling more and more crayzy and which made me realize that my mental health is even more horrible than I could ever think about since the only think I ever thought about when i lived with them was to just survive another day(Not to mention that as someone with diagnosed ADHD I HATE when soething like this happens because it ruins my day entirely and I cant stop thinking about it because its something I never agreed on and after situations like this i feel shitty as hell and NOTHING HELPS). Not to mention that she told me to just say yes since he then would be mad and he wanted to feel like he helped me WHICH IS NOT MY PROBLEM.

To sum this up. IF SOMEONE TELLS YOU THAT THEY DONT WANT YOUR IDEA IN THEIR FLAT THEN SHUT UP AND LET THEM CHOOSE WHAT THEY WANT. IDC IF IM RUDE BUT AS SOMEONE WHO FINALLY GOT THEIR HOPE TO LIVE BACK I AINT LETTING SOMEONE RUIN MY SAVESPACE!!!!!!

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Another yumeship drawing

It's more lazy since I don't draw much and tbh I should practice anatomy but I'm feeling so tired and unmotivated to do almost anything in my life at the moment so yeah...

Second photo is the art based that it's based off...

I wish it was as much fun as drawing the other stuff before

I'll try to post more as I can

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Cooking up another Rocket Raccoon x reader fanfic mewhehehehehe

It's still in progress but after this I will focus on both of my original works The Tales of the Wishing Tree and Hopes and Dreams archive. I also want to post some of my yumeship fanfics specifically even though I know no one will read them but still I want to create more stuff about my yumeship other than cute stuff and drawings.

That's all :3

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Other yumeship drawings I did. Most of it is inspired by Pinterest art based and of course I looked up other inspirations for posed and bases to go by. I even used photos of me laying in bed to draw the hair more realistically.

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Making him watch my childhood favorite DVDs cuz I need to get of my phone even though it's almost impossible for me 🤡

I love rewatching my favorites. I sadly had to get a second copy of The cat returns cuz the old one doesn't play well in both Czech and japanese dub. I still kept the old one tho! Never getting rid off it. Same with my old hello kitty DVD.

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Made myself this silly bookmark of my F/o

The pictures is based of a post on Pinterest from the game. It's really messy but I did my best to make it look nice.

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I was bored and my first book got covered by my strawberry alpro (rip strawberry alpro) so I decided to transform it and make the pages into a lesbian flag. I did the same with another WLW book I have. It was soooo much fun and NGL...I'm proud of myself for doing my best!

(also in the honor of pride month of course)

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Keychain update time!!!

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Finally got the chance to make something with him!!!!

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A YUMESHIP DRAWING!!!!

It's ugly cuz I haven't drawn anything for a long time except the rocket drawings and Rouge

Also Rocket looks a bit like a mix of the movie and game design cuz I was too lazy and I went by two pictures of him.....

I've been obsessed with him for over 4 years get me some help 😔

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GIRL DINNER

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I'm not obsessed....I'm not....