refiner's fire

[etroxon]

ever get that feeling like you don't want to live, but don't want to die either

[etroxon]

I don't like being sad but it's a constant for me these days

[etroxon]

little life updates..

just got laid off from my job of 3+ years this past week... I am overjoyed because I was absolutely miserable there and was trying to figure out the timing to quit anyway. God really answers prayers. I want to start a business but first, do some traveling (and simultaneously build the business plan). the more I think about it, the more this is a breakthrough for me... when else can I do this? there's truly no time like the present.

[etroxon]

leaving for Taiwan in 4 more days... so much left to do still, but I’m so excited to gtfo of here.. will warmer weather, rain, and humidity be better than this frigid cold? the answer is yes when there’ll be such good food. and really excited to reunite with old friends... and plz God lemme have the steamy romance of my fantasies.. or true love. either works LOL

ughhh I’m drowningggg

[etroxon]

lol it’s really funny how things turn out sometimes. 

alright y’all, 2023 I’m seriously determined to find true love. also trying to have a heated romance when I go to Taiwan for 6 weeks... 

[etroxon]

wow, someone just knock me out if I fall for another bad boy... I don’t know why I never learn my lesson.. perhaps I’m subconsciously addicted to the hot romance and not actually ready to have that committed (life-long) relationship???? 

[dreamvvithme]

Us and Them (后来的我们) dir. Rene Liu

[etroxon]

I love this movie and this is also far too relevant

[etroxon]

will I ever find true love??????????????

[etroxon]

ahead of my 30th birthday, I want to list out a few goals for my 31st birthday.. ofc there’s an endless list of self-improvements or experiences I hope to attain/have but let’s just start with these:

get abs

find a new job that pays more + title change

fall in love (with someone who is good for me / actually looking for commitment)

start a side gig

tbh I’m not super confident about any of these, maybe the abs one since at least I have some control in that arena. but even so, I love food too much... but I’ve always wanted abs and I ain’t getting any younger so now’s the time to try for them lol

on the side of gratitude/contentment, I will say that I am relatively happy with myself at the present. I’m the most fit I’ve ever been, my body’s at the best it’s ever been (I’m looking fucking good these days), my relationships are all good/stable, people I love are in good health.. 

it’s just that the human desire to yearn for more is strong, so I can’t be satisfied with where I’m at. isn’t it a good thing to avoid complacency? I thought the last few years would be my year, but let’s really make 30 (and 2023) my year!! 

[etroxon]

liking someone is so so exhausting... hence why I’ve always tried so hard to avoid it

[etroxon]

omfg I’m turning 30 in 5 weeks, I cannot deal

[etroxon]

I’m heartbroken

over many things

one of which is that this Korean bakery stopped making these cinnamon sugar twist donuts that I adore

How can I go on?? 😩

[etroxon]

lol my tumblr is still active

[travelmeetsdesign]

Alfama | Lisbon, Portugal. 

[jagborimumindalen]

Got to visit Heim after 3 years. Tasted just as good as I remember.

[etroxon]

Friday evenings

are for spending in solitude. 

Inhale... exhale... the work week is behind now, the weekend has begun.

Temporarily freed from the chains of corporate America, I. am. alive. again.

This is what living for the weekend feels like.

[chihhsienchen]

Bougainvillea