[xxxtentacion]

IM GONNA DIE SOON - XXX

I’m gonna die soon, and I’m not sure when, I can’t say goodbye, I don’t know how to, if I could than I never cared,

the point is, I’m at the end, I can either reach my prime or I can fold now, I’ve never folded in my life on what I wanted, but,

I’m scared of myself, I’ve done the craziest things you could imagine, I wanna say I’ve seen it all, but I can’t and thats what scares me,

I’m scared of myself, what if I get worse than this? what if I hurt the people I love, what if I keep on with my insanity, I never counted on having to be insane forever, only momentarily to achieve what I wanted, I’m scared, I’ve never been real deal scared before, but I wanna cry, I wanna let go, and I’m ready, but that “what if” is that twinke of light for me, but it’s disappearing, because I’m forcing it too,

after me, after you, who’s next who else do I have to kill , who else do I have to break, I want to end this now,

myself - xxx

[xxxtentacion]

I AM THE DEVIL - RUN

if you find yourself interested in me, or you find me interested in you, run

run while you can, I am poison, I am a drug, a cancer, the more involved you become the more I will control you and feed on your hate and make you a lesser version of myself,

picture being lost in a room, but you see the door and refuse to open it instead , you pretend the door is not there and dig several holes in the room to reach the door in the end,

confusion & complication have become my forte to inflict upon others, & I hate it, I hate myself, I wish I was dead, I’ve tried to die, I want it, so bad, I want it more than I want to be alive, I want it more than I want to succeed, but I want you, I want you more, can you fall with me.

I AM THE DEVIL - XXX

[xxxtentacion]

XXX

I don’t know what hurts more, losing people or losing myself,

I hear things ya know? and talk to myself, I try not to be crazy, keep my composure and be strong, I am strong, but weak at the same time, if that even makes sense, the mystery behind me isn’t anything cool, or exciting it’s depressing, it’s sad, I’ll always be alone in my mind, with my actions, lies, motives,

I’ll always lose people because I’m at never ending war with myself, I lean on people to save me from myself, when in reality the only way to save me is to kill me,

my depressions comforted me for so long, I’ve to some degree become fond or even used to it, I can’t blame my mom , or the girls who loved me for leaving, in the end all there is, is me, it’s not rewarding or suprising , this character I’ve become , is it even me? is this what I wanted? I’m not sure,

the nightmares, sleepless nights, crazy thoughts, they all play a role, I had someone who could ease it ya know? and I made it my goal to ruin it, literally, she was so good to me, she was my heroin, or “heroine” I broke her, completely, but not only to ruin her, to build her, and she hung on , for so long, for so fucking long,

now I’ve reached a point where I can no longer progress, I’m in a pond with a canoe rather than in the ocean around me in a sailboat,

nothing excites me, nothing will give me joy for to long, only pain and sorrow is what has made me feel or comforted me,

being suicidal dosent exactly help these habits either, I had a drug stage where I would pop pills on pills, just to not feel anything at all, I’d get lost, and than create a motive,

the problem now is that my motives are always surrounded with these evil intentions, I’ve come to think I’m literally a villain at heart,

the thing is , villains are necessary for a story to go about, but, they never find love, or comfort in reasonable motive, just the craziest the things, when im good im sad, when im bad I feel alive, but than I hate myself after,

my insanity has been feeding on me since I could walk, I’d only prayed I’d found someone who figured it out and had the patience to keep me, to disregard the pain and only feed me love, it’s selfish of me, I know, but where are you, angel, my wing ridden angel,

save me - xxx

[eyemedown]

Soul

[eyemedown]

Miss u

[eyemedown]

[eyemedown]

Happy for you

[landedion]

inevitably alone.

[eyemedown]

Your never alone your 🧠 is powerful.

[landedion]

i’m in so much pain

[eyemedown]

All I wanna do is eat good food eat yummy pussy and smoke good buds 🌬💥

[eyemedown]

From birth to death the whole purpose is to evolve, you are going to reach a still point or a Purgatory Irrelevant to the Catholic Church when they say is a moment of stillness you are going to reach that purgatory state of mind often because there’s gonna be a chest piece that u have to move it will either make you fall or you will evolve, but you always must evolve and you always must see what is keeping you still or in purgatory keep your eyes open and think with your mind and not your body, people often dwell into that body high they wanna do whatever makes there body feel good , they don’t wanna Stimulate there minds , move their minds forward, your not going to evolve or have a good life unless you increase your knowledge.. and that goes for any dream.. study the dictionary.. study the Thesauruses, study all religions, EVOLUTION! FREE THE SALVES!!!!!!!!! If you wanna make a change!! Look yourself in the mirror and start from there!! One mind changes a lot

[eyemedown]

Self enlightenment is the key!

[eyemedown]

“Capricorn” 🌍

[eyemedown]

“Remember to remember”

Soon..

We will all be loving there will be no hate no fear, no killing, no more death. No more pain, evil will end. “90s”

[eyemedown]

Fuck materialism! I want love and a healthy life!

[eyemedown]

Your so beautiful... why am I afraid???????????????????

[eyemedown]

I hate myself for my past, but then again that’s still a piece from my soul? I went through dark times to be who I am today, I’m not saying I’m perfect? I’m far from my perfect. I try my best to improve and evolve and always focus on the positive things?