Random Thoughts
I wonder if this is my second post of 2017 or the first post. I’ve stop ranting out my thoughts here, in this tiny platform. There used to be so many things I’ve liked here. The pictures, the quotes, the mangas, the animation etc. But I guess, as I aged, things changed.
I’ve never thought one day, my love for manga and animation will reduce. I still remember vividly, back then when I think of my future. It would still be me, alone, in my home clothes munching away in snacks, reading my manga and watching my favourite anime. Camping on over most the weekends. Time will pass like that with my alone time.
But ever since I’ve started working in my second job, involved in a relationship, the sequence has changed. Initially, I was having a hard time to adjust. Because time is never enough. For me to juggle work, relationship and still get to enjoy my alone time. Slowly, I gave up watching anime, then reducing the time I needed to read manga. I still remember the quotes that I’ve picked up when I read manga. Though my world was small, but the content is filling. I wouldn’t say I don’t miss those days, I wished that I can go back to having some alone time and the feeling I had then. But now that I have the time, things aren’t the same. The feeling aren’t the same.
I do enjoy the moment now. The feeling of being love by someone, yearn by someone and care by someone. I’ve never imagined what it was like, to love and be love by someone. The little things that I do, the words that I’ve said or my actions could affect him so much. That he is that into me. The thought of that warms my heart. I have no idea since when I am falling for him.
Most of the weekend was spent with him. We would explore places for food, catching a late night movie, taking a stroll in the night, holding hands and star gazing. Those are things I never thought I will do without him.
It took him a while though. Or rather, a while for me to open up to him. Thinking back, it was funny that he was rejected by me not once, not twice but thrice. He persevered and hold on to me. Hence we managed to get to where we are now. We’ve been together for a year or so. It’s also coming to two years since we’ve known each other.
Time flies. I wonder if he is the one? At first, I can’t see a future with him, but slowly, I can see it. Time will tell if he is the one. I miss him now. He is few miles away from me, working hard and building a future for us. Though I craved for his attention or I need him for comfort at times, but I know he is going through even tougher time alone. So till two more weeks he is back, I will be patient and wait.
A super random and feel like writing down what is on my mind now.
