remember me? probably not but in any case iām back⦠kind of. not OFFICIALLY yet, and iām gonna remake before iām actually back for real, but thought i should say that hey iām makin my return and to say what exactly iām going to be doing, and you can see a big ol ramble under the cut down there if youāre curious!
anyways, having finished writing everything under said cut, i dunno if i covered everything i SHOULD have covered, but i canāt think of anything more to add to it, so eh whatever. if yāall got questions feel free to ask, iāll be keeping an eye on things over here even while working on the new blog and maybe posting updates and whatnot. you can also hmu if you want to do something together once iām actually done and ready to go! (please. please do. iām actually very nervous.)
iām looking forward to coming back, hope you can all understand why iām changing things, and desperately praying youāll like what i do change! see you all soon :-)
hey there! had some IMMENSE DIFFICULTIES with theme editing for the new blog yesterday but i finished it and have started working on pages. i donāt know if anyone who still follows this account is even active anymore to see this, but if you are there and you missed this, here you go. like i said above please feel free to shoot me a message if youād like to interact once the new blog is up and running!
remember me? probably not but in any case iām back... kind of. not OFFICIALLY yet, and iām gonna remake before iām actually back for real, but thought i should say that hey iām makin my return and to say what exactly iām going to be doing, and you can see a big ol ramble under the cut down there if youāre curious!
anyways, having finished writing everything under said cut, i dunno if i covered everything i SHOULD have covered, but i canāt think of anything more to add to it, so eh whatever. if yāall got questions feel free to ask, iāll be keeping an eye on things over here even while working on the new blog and maybe posting updates and whatnot. you can also hmu if you want to do something together once iām actually done and ready to go! (please. please do. iām actually very nervous.)
iām looking forward to coming back, hope you can all understand why iām changing things, and desperately praying youāll like what i do change! see you all soon :-)
so. why i stopped rping in the first place? several reasons.Ā
i was not on prozac and felt very sad very easily.Ā
i got bored with my portrayal of n for... a lot of reasons... stagnancy being one of the more major issues though. i wrote myself into a corner in many many ways and it sucked.
felt like i had to keep the same Basic N Concept that i made when i was... 17... because even though my n was now complex, it was still using the base from then and i wouldnāt be able to deviate from that without basically having to start over again and i felt like i shouldnāt/couldnāt do that and that just felt very awful all the time
why am i coming back now? well i have to be honest here itās mostly swsh that even put this drive into me in the first place, but the reason iām actually following the impulse instead of dismissing it is for a few reasons:
i stopped when i was an emotionally unstable teenager and now i am adequately medicated and no longer a teenagerĀ
every attempt i have made to rp off of tumblr has fizzled out in one way or another and itās Absolute Torment. i have been bored for months on end. iām emotionally stable but still occasionally donāt get out of bed because i just donāt have anything to do so there isnāt any point. it is hell and i want outĀ
raihan is really really really hot
what am i going to do now that iām back and whatās gonna change?
iām not gonna rp this edition of n again. we had some good times and all but heās staying in 2018. iām not even gonna call itĀ āresettingā him, because thatād imply iām returning him to the base n i started with back in 2017 and... uh... no, no we are not doing that. new n. brand new. sorry to anyone i had established stuff with, and sorry to anyone who finds that they preferred my old n, but Mr Griffin Just Canāt Do This Shit No MoreĀ
iām still kinda workshopping new n, but i also know who heās gonna be, just not sure like. where in the timeline heās at. new n is a version of n that i only scarcely got to Try Out For Maybe 4 Posts when i was still active on here. new n is a lot more distant and aloof, depressed as shit all the time, inexpressive and unintentionally intimidating. fresh new boy. traumatised as hell and very lonely. thatās our new n
i will be making a fresh new blog, because although iām not going back to the portrayal i used on here/enharmonics, i also donāt wanna delete everything, yknow? i am gonna use this url though
thereās a good chance that iāll be making a raihan as well, though iām not sure when, nor am i 100% sure that iāll go through with it but letās face it i probably will. iām at the very least barring myself from that until iāve actually finished swsh, because i havenāt actually done that yet, because despite the fact that iāve been ready to go fight leon for days now i have not felt Ready, not because my pokemon arenāt strong enough theyāre actually severely and accidentally overleveled no itās because i donāt feel mentally or emotionally prepared i have had the game since the day it came out and iāve logged 68 hours of gameplay and it was only a few days ago i beat the semifinals and finals and rose and have not advanced the plot at all since then
changes to my rules are imminent, and since iāve just seen my mun page and realized how outdated it is i feel like i oughta note: if you havenāt already guessed, mr griffin is me. my name is griffin. calling me n is cool too but like my NAME-name is griffin. i sorta figured i was already going by griffin by the time i stopped using this blog but nope and honestly i am not fully sure why i assumed that
things i think i should note:
my family and i are moving sometime this month, itās roughly an hour and a half drive to the new place and the date weāre planning on officially moving in is only a few days before christmas, so things are probably going to be kinda busy for me
i might look into applying for college once we get there and things have settled down a tad
in other words though i am coming back and do intend to be active i also uh kinda became an adult with ambitions and while iām more stable i also still havenāt stopped having adhd or autism because thatās just a thing that canāt happen. just fyi
fireredrules replied to your post: i donāt even have an excuse at this point iāve...
eyes emoji at the mention of DR
eye emojis, but plural, because instead of using the one with two eyes, i use the one with just one eye, twice in a row, to be unnecessarily unsettling. i just started the second game today and iām getting massive impulses to... rp certain characters...
i donāt even have an excuse at this point iāve just been too caught up with video games ahaha...ha... iāll do my best to actually be online again soon
muse is active and iām in the mood to write but of course. Of Course i feel too sick and dizzy for anything... thatās just the way it is i guess...
Oh, it must be terrible when you're desperately trying to convince someone something and they just will not listen or understand or compromise, hm?
He keeps that to himself, though. He's got his own opinions with varying degrees of pettiness, but... conflict is utterly terrifying to him at the moment, so he'll retreat away without comment.